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Update by Noraboo, July 20th

I would ask that those who have already posted their condolances refrain from additional postings in the thread, and those who have nothing positive to say to do the same. I will be closing the thread shortly and moving it to memorable threads.

Thank you,
Noraboo

Update by Shiraishi, July 17th

Today is her Celebration. The Memorial Service was the final goodbye; it was a sense of closure. I'm getting better, I think - my life right now is more or less fumbling around on how to go on living it. No, I'm not going to do something exceedingly stupid like off myself - I'm mourning, not retarded. I'm just.. I need some sort of big change, and I don't know what that's going to be. Something drastic, something life-changing. Because frankly, Amanda was my life. I can't go on with life as usual, even if I wanted to.

I don't have any more information on the crime other than it looks like it might not be the only one. There has been another similar case of what looks like a carjacking gone wrong in the same area, and the guy there is in critical condition but expected to survive. So hopefully they'll be connected and we'll have another witness to the crime.

Update by Noraboo, July 16th

Lady Pyre was wonderful enough to collect all of the art, posts, and links Gaia users have made in Chi's memory and format them for me to link here. I will be using the posts that were first made in the thread to post them, I hope that no one objects.

Thank you very much.
Nora


Update by Noraboo, July 14th:

Regarding the events of the incident.

Jonnie was able to write down answers for the cops today.

It seems so far that they were going to a smoke shop to get cigarettes. One of the customers in that shop asked for a ride. They took him to an apt complex and when they pulled up to the entrance gate, he shot them before he took off. Jonnie remembers what he looks like, and where the apt complex is. Jonnie was able to drive down the beltway service road until he found police that were directing traffic where some work was being done on the street lights.

There will be a memorial service for Amanda this week and a celebration of her life this weekend. Her funeral date is uncertain as her organs will be donated and so she is still on life support. Shira has asked that anyone who wishes to donate in memorial do so to help Amanda's parents pay for the medical costs, funeral expenses, and for student loan debt of Amanda's that her parents will inherit.

If you would like an address to send donations, condolances, cards, or anything else, please PM me.

Thanks,
Noraboo

Reminder by Noraboo:

While it is very sweet that many people want a sticky or avatar spotlight regarding this matter, it is not appropriate. This matter is known enough throughout Gaia now, and it is best to keep things tasteful and respectful. The matter is serious enough to have merit on its own, and additional displays are unnecessary. Please pay your respects and move on. Please do not PM me regarding such matters unless we already have a dialogue.

Thanks.

Update by Noraboo, July 13th:

Shiraishi Mayumi
Tonight, July 13th, 2004 at 12:10am Amanda Myrlene Fleetwood (Chiharu) was pronounced dead. Her brain stopped functioning. All of her organs were donated, including her heart.

I just.. don't know what else to say right now. I'm out, guys.


Sajhiri, who lives in Houston, has very kindly offered to send flowers to the wake. If you would like your name included on the sympathy card, please PM her.

I'd like to thank everyone for all the support you're showing shira at this difficult time.

Original post by Shirashi Mayumi

I know this probably isn't the forum for a topic like this, but this is where most of the people who know us are so I felt like I should post this here. Please, feel more than free to move it if you like.

Chiharu is in the hospital. She was admitted at 7am yesterday (Saturday, June 10th, 2004). On the phonecall, the only information they gave her parents, her roommate and I was that she'd been in a car "incident." We didn't find out until about 10am what her actual condition was.

She was shot in the back of the head. At near point blank range.

The bullet went up through her lower brain and is lodged in her upper brain. The swelling's so great that they can't do any surgeries to remove it.. she was showing minimal brain activity when she came in. The doctors say that her chance of survival is minimal, and that even if she does she'll be nothing but a vegetable in all likelihood.

That doesn't stop us all from hoping and praying otherwise. We're more or less hoping for a miracle at this point. She's maintianing her own blood pressure, and I've just gotten news that her oxygen levels are going up.. meaning soon she'll be able to breathe on her own.

We don't know much about what actually happened, but here's what we do know:

She was carjacked. She and a friend named Jonnie went to the grocery store for munchies at about 5:30am.. no one heard from them for about an hour, so they got worried and started driving around. We don't know what happened inbetween, but we know they were shot inside the car. Amanda got one shot in the back of the head and Jonnie got three - one that bounced off his forehead, one that went through his face and took out his left eye, another that lodged in the base of his spine. The car rolled up to a construction zone where police were directing traffic on a freeway in our city, and that's how they were found. Three tires were popped and the front fender was gone. We don't know who did it, where he went, or really any details on what happened.

Jonnie's in critical condition too, but he's responsive and going to pull through. His left eye is more than likely going to have to go, and that bullet lodged in his spine is going to be a problem.. but we know he can move his fingers and toes, so that's good. He's been unconcious almost the entire time so he hasn't been able to say much.

I've been at the hospital a lot. Trying to sleep, trying to eat, trying to keep my hopes up. There have been droves of people coming in and out, giving their love and support, calling, sending me emails.. it's so insanely touching.

She really liked Gaia, despite the constant stupidity. I thought I ought to post to this community and let you all know what's going on. Needless to say, the both of us will be scarce for awhile. I'll try to keep you guys updated with news.
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A Ply by Yue Halliwell
Gods and Goddesses on high,
Hear this ply I send through sky.
Take this evil before it ends her,
dont let it stay, return to sender.
May her soul find the path she's meant,
Let us see again her heart's content.

"since feeling is first" by e. e. cummings, Posted by Ban
since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
will never wholly kiss you;

wholly to be a fool
while Spring is in the world

my blood approves,
and kisses are a better fate
than wisdom
lady i swear by all flowers. Don't cry
-- the best gesture of my brain is less than
your eyelids' flutter which says

we are for each other: then
laugh, leaning back in my arms
for life's not a paragraph

And death i think is no parenthesis

"Chiharu" by xbillxdt
so young at only 20
with great things ahead
laughs
tears
smiles
heartbreaks
new loves
good times and bad to come
pulled away in such a fashion
fit for noone
and though we havent met
i cry for you
i know you cant read this
but i know you can feel it
i know you can hear it in your heart
things will never be the same
things could never be the same
but your memory remains

"The Lost Teddy" by Jessica no Miko
You used to be my only friend
Now I have Many
I sent you on a quest
You succeded
Until you failed
I used to hold you
Now I need to find you
Where did you go
I wish I could find you
I must look around
Hope you didn't leave
You may have failed
But that was then
Now I have a quest
And I dont want to fail
I will find you
Where ever you are

"And 2 Morrow" by Intratec
Today is filled with anger
fueled with hidden hate
scared of being outcast
afraid of common fate
Today is built on tragedies
which no one wants 2 face
nightmares 2 humanities
and morally disgraced
Tonight is filled with rage
violence in the air
children bred with ruthlessness
because no one at home cares
Tonight I lay my head down
but the pressure never stops
knawing at my sanity
content when i am dropped
But 2morrow I c change
a chance 2 build a new
Built on spirit intent of Heart
and ideals
based on truth
and tomorrow I wake with second wind
and strong because of pride
2 know I fought with all my heart 2 keep my
dream alive

"Untitled" by Angelic Betrayer
What do you do when your angels
Have all flown away?
There's an ache through my body
That just won't go away

"Untitled" by Kaiki
Shuffling off
Way too soon
Shoved from the coil
Angels cry for
Souls of the young
But no tears
Bring her back

Between the worlds
Memories are born
Neither live
Nor dead
And live on
Forever.

"Untitled" by Macaulicka
My tears for you, I shall weep
The roses you grew, have never been so sweet
May you approach the gates with garmets of gold
and they may see the love you hold
as is now, what shall be
in our memories
Forever
RIP
Amanda

"He Only Takes the Best", Author Unknown, posted by Yume-Chii
God saw she was getting tired
And a cure was not to be.
So he put his arms around her
And whispered, come with me.

With tearful eyes we watched her suffer
And saw her fade away.
Although we loved her dearly,
We could not make her stay.

A golden heart stopped beating,
Hard working hands to rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best

"Landscape of the Heart" by Brian Andreas, Posted by Have Your Pi
It is still so new & all we see is the empty space, but that is not how it is in the landscape of the heart. There, there is no empty space & she still laughs & grapples with ideas & plans & nods wisely with each of us in turn. We are proud to have known her. We are proud to have called her friend.

"Untitled" - guanobaron
Just a few verses
About a wonderful gal
Struck down way too soon.

Chiharu (on Gaia)
Was someone I considered
A friend for months now.

Though we planned to meet
We never had the chance to
And we never will.

Chi was the victim
Of a senseless tragedy
Through no fault of hers.

She was senselessly
Taken away from us all
And she will be missed.

I'm sure that others
Who knew her in real life are
Feeling worse than I.

I can't imagine
What pain Shira and others
Are feeling right now.

All that I can do
Is to share my sympathies
With those who knew her.

I'm sure that many
Of us are feeling angry
About the sad news.

However, do not
Speak out in vengence or hate.
That will solve nothing.

The right thing to do
Is to express gratitude
That she touched your life.

I will be thankful
That I got to know her but
Saddened by the loss.

It is times like these
That we realize what we tend
To take for granted.

Poem posted by Ametra
God saw you getting weaker,
so He did what He thought best.
He came and stood beside you,
and He whispered,
"Come to rest."
We could not understand it,
no matter how we tried.
If love could have saved you,
you never would have died.

?I Held A Jewel In my Fingers? by Emily Dickenson, Posted by FoxyChoklatRobot2
I held a Jewel in my fingers --
And went to sleep --
The day was warm, and winds were prosy --
I said "'Twill keep" --

I woke -- and chid my honest fingers,
The Gem was gone --
And now, an Amethyst remembrance
Is all I own --

"Untitled" by Candy_Canes
You were my friend when i was lonely
always by my side
but i always have wondered if only
that you hadn't died

I know that you watch over me
from heaven where you're sitting
to my happiness you are the key
with you i never feel like quitting

I know that death is not the end
and that you'll wait for me
on your memory i can depend
and hope you'll hear my plea

death is the beginning
and the beginning is the end
i just look up at the sky grinning
because i know we'll meet again

"Untitled" by NoodleRama
Even though I never knew you
From the expressions on each face
I can tell that they loved you
And are sad that you left this place

I'm sorry your end came quickly
And you had such a short time on Earth
But we know your in a better place now
Much better than we've ever heard

I wish there was a way I could've known you
Even though your gone
But I know someday I will see you.
When my life is done.

Posted by Nefarious Soy
While in this Life ...

We must try to see beyond Death.

Though we must die ...

We should also know

That nothing is lost ...

Because no one

Owns Body or Mind any-way.

?Angel on Earth? by Julie McWroter, Posted by Goddess of Pumpkinart
Every so often you might find
Someone that delivers peace of mind

Someone that makes you feel a sense of worth,
A loving person, our angel on Earth,

A heavenly friend that changes our life,
A mother, sister, friend, of wife,

Someone listens and cares with love,
Someone sent to us from the heavens above,

These angels are often like a shooting star,
They have a short time on Earth until they are called from afar,

They love unconditionally wherever they roam,
Until the day God calls them home,

Although we will miss them and we are apart,
Our Angel on Earth will live forever in our heart.

?A Dozen Goodbyes? by ~Leo~the~Kitten~
A dozen roses,
For peace.
A dozen moons,
To shine on you.
A dozen stars,
To carry you to heaven.
A million goodbyes,
To keep you company on the way.
Goodbye, Chiharu

?Rest In Peace Amanda? by Lady Ciala
Tears can bend,
Though time cannot mend,
Her time came,
But it is a shame,
Everyone shall cherish,
All the days before she had to perish,
Love will be spread for her,
I know for sure.

"If Tears Could Build a Stairway", Author Unknown, Posted by X.xDamianx.X
If tears could build a stairway
And memories a lane
I would walk right up to heaven
And bring you home again

?Love? by Dark_fairy_maiden
Thousands of smiles
Hundreds of cries
Lead to inevitable
Two sad good-byes

?Untitled? by The King of V
Life
A delicate twine
Of energy and vitality
a twine
thin
and broken in a beat
ended

“Mourn? by oxMenaAngelxo
A memory is something to cherish
and your's I shall not relinquish
I did not know you
but I do here them mourn
We all mourn on this day of pain
I wish you would've stayed
Because you had alot of freind's
and loseing you to them
is death itself
You have my prayer's
I bet we all cared.
I never knew you
But i will still mourn.

“Untitled? by Rakumari
Today i find this is a day that i lost someone who could run and play who knows i may have known them i might have not they may be in my thoughts and to this day i wish to know was that the one i played with in the snow? the one i swam with on a sunny day? its hard to find that they died today all the ones they cherished and loved need to live and be loved they will need comfort and care and i hope the lord answers my prayer please dear god watch over these souls the ones who died the ones alive all need to be cared for Amen...

“Will I Be Remembered?? by Ezrisun
Will I be remembered?
For my words on paper
That moves others tho think about what life is

Will I be rememebered for
My actions of carelessness or heroic
That I did for others instead of me?

Will I be remembered for
My mind that has the ability to look at something differently
That makes you wonder how I did it?

Will I be remebered
Not for my words, my actions, nor mind
Will I be remebered as myself and no one else?

Or rememebered not at all?

?Because I Could Not Stop for Death? by Emily Dickenson, Posted by Little Mongoose
Because I could not stop for Death,
He kindly stopped for me;
The carriage held but just ourselves
And Immortality.

We slowly drove, he knew no haste,
And I had put away
My labour, and my leisure too,
For his civility.

We passed the school where children played,
Their lessons scarcely done;
We passed the fields of gazing grain,
We passed the setting sun.

We paused before a house that seemed
A swelling of the ground;
The roof was scarcely visible,
The cornice but a mound.

Since then 'tis centuries; but each
Feels shorter than the day
I first surmised the horses' heads
Were toward eternity.

“The Third Memory? by Yevgeny Yevtushenko (translated from Russian), Posted by Noraboo
We all live through an hour like this.
when anguish sticks to you like glue
and, in stark nakedness exposed,
all life appears devoid of meaning.

A deadly chill will creep inside
and, to control that stubborn self,
we weakly summon memory
as we might call a nurse in aid.

In us at times there's such a deep night,
at times in us such utter ruin,
that no memory of either reason
or heart can help us in our plight.

The gleam of life forsakes our eyes.
Movement and speech--these are dead.
But a third memory we have--
the body's memory is this.

Then vividly let feet recall
the heat of dusty roads that scorched,
and fields of grass that used to chill
our soles when barefoot we tramped about.

And fondly let a cheek remember
the friendly understanding dog
that consoled us, bruised and battered
in a fight, with its good rough tongue.

And feeling guilty, let your brow
remember how a kiss, in blessing,
touched it almost without sound,
a mother's tenderness expressing.

And let your back voluptuously
remember the drowsy languor biding
in earth's deep soul, as you lie there
with eyes devouring all the sky.

Let fingers feel the rye and conifers,
the almost impalpable rain,
a sparrow's shiver, and the quiver
down the nervous withers of a horse.

Let lips remember other lips.
Their ice and fire. Their gloom and glow.
The whole world in them. A world
all redolent of oranges and snow...

Shame will awake when you remember.
You'll grasp the crime of censuring life.
And body's memory will then restore
the memory of heart and reason.

And you will say to life: Forgive.
I used to blame you in my blindness.
As from a grevious sin, absolve
me of my raging bluntness.

And if we are obliged to pay
a savage price because this world
is beautiful--all right, I'll say,
I shall consent to pay the price.

But, life, are all the stringencies
of fate, the losses, sudden blows,
so great aprice for me to pay
for all the beauty you contain?!

“Untitled? by Keiosho
Far off in space
Clouds of wishes of dreams
Maybe happiness is there
But dreams can only come true
in a blink or a touch
Love is a lost word
But still exists in hearts
Dead or alive
We still feel you around
Know you or not
We can't help but be sadden
A burden
A loss
Up where you may be
Up high
High off to no where
You're sunk into the ground
Quietly sleeping
Like being deep in the sea
You want us happy
Though you are not there
You want us to remember good times
Not bad I believe
so we shall
We shall

?Untitled? by Le Cham
i had it in my hands
but it slipped away like sand
i wonder, "where did it go?"
there must be
somewhere .eternal.
where good things never leave
there must be, i believe
my heart tells me it is so

“Untitled? by meowboxmilk
The time had come
He saw her sigh
It was her time
To say good-bye
But when floating up on wings
She saw us shivering with fears
Our torn expressions
We were mourning in tears
So she whispered down:
"I'll still be in your heart
You're all so wonderful
We'll never be apart."
She bade her good-byes
It was such a sight
For she had said her final
And last good-night
Her halo grew bright
With it's great golden shine
Everyone bittersweet
Hoping she'd be fine
She parted with life
As her spirit was high
Tears were coming down
As everyone heaved a sigh
Such a beautiful moment
Yet such a horrid one, too
Because she couldn't be
Near me nor you
But in the morning when we wake up
And at night go back to bed
She'll still be with us, watching us
Just like she said.....

“Untitled? by ackabernathy
Let this bullet be your metal redemption.
Like a tin soldier left to fight for your rights.
Similar to your ticket to get into Heaven.
Spread your wings and take flight.
I know how this world had tortured you.
I know the times nothing goes right...
But pass through Heaven to reside on the moon.
I’m smiling for you tonight.

“through a light? by xXVampireGoddessXx
when you reached the clouds of heaven
god welcomed you as his child and you smiled
he gave you wings and a halo so when you felt the need
you could trvel to earth and tell me about your journies
though most say she is just watching now i can feel her standing beside me laughing and beeing joyous like she was here right now though i know you can't see her

there is always a light you must look past to see her face
this light is often looked past by most but to me the light is surrounding the earth and she is the one illuminating it please just look through the light and look to her and smile then you will know there is hope and nothing is forever because tommorow she will be reborn and we will see her yet again


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...wow. I remember Chiharu's posts. She seems like a very good person... both of them have my prayers.
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"Miracle" - Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston, Posted by Yue Haliwell
Many nights we've prayed
With no hope anyone could hear.
In our hearts a hopeful song we barely understood.

Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear.
We were moving mountains long before we knew we could.

There can be miracles when you believe.
Though hope is frail,it's hard to kill.
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe.
Somehow you will,
You will when you believe.

In this time of fear,
When prayer so often proved in vain,
Hope seemed like the summer birds
so swiftly flown away.
But now I'm standing here(Now I'm standing here)
With heart so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words I never thought I'd say.

There can be miracles when you believe.
Though hope is frail,it's hard to kill.
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe.
Somehow you will,
You will when you believe.

"Miracles" - Earth Wind and Fire, Posted by BrokenWings13
Let's put the day aside
Let peaceful thoughts arise
May your dreams be sweet tonight
With kisses on your cheek and wings upon your feet
Oh chase the moon across the sky, close your eyes

Say goodnight to the sky
And the fun, day is done
Say goodnight, sail away little one
I know heaven can feel you're not far away
Tomorrow brings another day

One more thing to say
Before you dream away
Let it be reality
For all not just for some

Miracles can show the world
A story filled with light
All the world is waiting for a miracle that's visible
But you can see it all through children's eyes

My heart speaks out to say
Before I go away
Oh, bless the child asleep tonight
Let the people see
The children hold the key
The earth will turn, the sun will rise, in their eyes

Visualize a perfect place, perfect space in your mind
Visualize rainbows end, in golden skies
I know heaven can feel you're not far away
Let it be reality
For all not just for some

Miracles can show the world
A story filled with light
All the world is waiting for a miracle that's visible
But you can see it all through children's eyes

Sing a song, a children's song
And carry on the light
All the world is waiting for a miracle that's visible
But you can see it all through children's eyes

Hear the song, the children's song
Tomorrow's golden light
All the world is waiting for a miracle that's visible
But you can see it all through children's eyes

"Heaven Only Knows" - K-Os, Posted by Sakamaku
heaven only knows
'cause I don't understand
wont you tell me please
tell me please
whats the master plan
spent so many days
sitting on a cloud
heaven only knows
so I'll just move the crowd

yo
riddle me this
riddle me this
like this

melodical prodigal flows
hypnotical blows to brain pieces
telekenisis
when I reach this pinnacle cynical clinical
microphone autobots waiting on lotto spots
trying to rock
but yo they can't understand
there's only one plan

the time is at hand
in the year two zero zero one
the people of the sun return to free the righteous children
now!, I know you want to be on top of the world
giving a diamond and pearl to your girl watching your jacuzzi swirl
seems like material lust
we need to look up to the heavens for imperial trust
me!, it's kinda hard when you rhyme sometimes
everybody wants to scrutinize
redefine who you are
but every person is a star
so let your light shine far
and praise god

heaven only knows
'cause I don't understand
wont you tell me please
tell me please
whats the master plan
spent so many days
sitting on a cloud
heaven only knows
so I'll just move the crowd

if you feel this
sing it with me like
sing it with me like
sing it with me like

la la la lala lala
I'll just move the crowd for now

gotta move the crowd
gotta move the crowd
gotta move the crowd

la la la lala lala
I'll just move the crowd for now...

"The Valley Song" - Jars of Clay, Posted byKobayashi
You have led me to the sadness
I have carried this pain
On my back bruised and nearly broken
I'm crying out to You

I will sing of Your mercy
That leads me through valleys of sorrow
To rivers of joy

When death like a gypsy
Comes to steal what I love
I will still look to the heavens
I will still seek Your face

But I fear You aren't listening
Because there are no words
Just the stillness and the hunger
For a faith that assures

I will sing of Your mercy
That leads me through valleys of sorrow
To rivers of joy

Alleluia, alleluia
Alleluia, alleluia

While we wait for rescue
With our eyes tightly shut
Face to the ground using our hands
To cover the fatal cut

Though the pain is an ocean
Tossing us around, around, around
You have calmed greater waters
Higher mountains have come down

I will sing of Your mercy
That leads me through valleys of sorrow
To rivers of joy

From “Angels? – Jessica Simpson, Posted by Satou_sama
And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead
From “Blowing in the Wind? – Bob Dylan, Posted by spacer
How many deaths will it take, till he knows
That too many people have died?

The answer my friend,
Is blowing in the wind.
The answer is blowing in the wind.

?Untitled? – Embyr Arrikanez
I've always hated maybes,
The whispers in the wind,
Broken hearts, broken minds,
The writing off the lines..

Circles of candles light your way,
And the teardrops smooth your path,
Just don't give it up,
Too many people forget the past.

Just don't let it go,
Just don't let it go..
'Cause when you sing,
Heaven and angels sing back.

Believe in me? I believe in you,
Too hard not to, after today..
Sometimes destiny is cold and cruel,
And all we can do is pray.

So steeple your hands, and make a wish,
And watch it blow off like sand..
Just remember that hearts can touch,
When fingertips no longer can.

Just don't let it go,
Just don't let it go..
'Cause when you sing,
Heaven and angels sing back.

I've always hated maybes,
And neverending long goodbyes,
But sometimes, even I
Admit I wonder why..

Through the lights, the nights and days,
We keep you close to heart,
Some souls don't deserve to die,
Some worlds to be rent apart.

I've always hated maybes,
But when you sing,
Heaven and angels will sing back..

From “Good Die Young? – D12, Posted by Galio
They say the good die young,
Thats why I think that you should have fun (when your young)
Cos time won't wait for noone (uh huh)
When god calls, you gotta go home (go home)

They say the good die young, (die young)
Thats why I know that we go' have fun,
In this life cos you only get one
When god comes for me, don't cry till I just went home

"Streets of Heaven" – Sherri Austin, Posted by kouya_miko
Hello God its me again
2 a.m. room 304
Visiting hours are over
Time for our bedside tug-of-war
The sleeping child between us
May not make it through the night
Im fightin back the tears, as she fights for her life

Chorus-
Well it must be kinda crowded
On the streets of Heaven
So tell me, what do you need her for?
Dont you know one day,
Shell be your little girl forever
But right now I need her so much more
Shes too young to be on her own
Barely just turned seven
So who will hold her hand when she crosses
The streets of Heaven

Tell me God, do you remember
The wishes that she made
As she blew out the candles
On her last birthday cake
She wants to ride a pony
When shes big enough
She wants to marry her daddy
When shes all grown up

*Chorus*

Lord dont you know shes my angel
Youve got plenty of your own
And I know you hold a place for her,
But shes already got a home
Well I dont know if youre listening,
But prayings all theres left to do
So I ask you Lord have mercy
You lost a son once too

Well it must be kinda crowded
On the streets of Heaven
So tell me, what do you need her for?
Dont you know one day,
Shell be your little girl forever
But right now I need her so much more

And Lord I know once youve made up your mind
Theres no use in beggin
So if you take her with you today
Will you make sure she looks both ways
And will you hold her hand
When she crosses the streets of Heaven
The streets of Heaven

Song posted by Lady_Sakura562 and HitokiriBattousaiXXXXXX
I know that you're hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily

I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You'll fight your battles far from me
Far too easily

"Save your tears cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore
To hide the pain when I turn back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I'd cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart

Though a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
Crossing over the time and distance holding you
Suspended on silver wings

And a thousand words
One thousand confessions
Will cradle you
Making all of the pain you feel seem far away
They'll hold you forever

The dream isn't over yet
Though I often say I can't forget
I still relive that day
"You've been there with me all the way"
I still hear you say

"Wait for me I'll write you letters"
I could see how you stammered with your eyes to the floor
But still I swore to hide the doubt
When I turn back the pages
Anger might have been the answer
What if I'd hung my head and said that I couldn't wait
But now I'm strong enough to know it's not too late

Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though we can't see I know they're reaching you
Suspended on silver wings

Oh a thousand words
One thousand embraces
Will cradle you
Making all of your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever

Oh a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
They'll carry you home and back into my arms
Suspended on silver wings ohhh

And a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll cradle you
Turning all of the lonely years to only days
They'll hold you forever

?Wishing You Were Somehow Here Again? – Andrew Lloyd Weber, Posted by caladrius
You were once
my one companion . . .
you were all
that mattered . . .
You were once
a friend and father -
then my world
was shattered . . .
Wishing you were
somehow here again . . .
wishing you were
somehow near . . .
Sometimes it seemed
if I just dreamed,
somehow you would
be here . . .
Wishing I could
hear your voice again . . .
knowing that I
never would . . .
Dreaming of you
won't help me to do
all that you dreamed
I could . . .
Passing bells
and sculpted angels,
cold and monumental,
seem, for you,
the wrong companions -
you were warm and gentle . . .
Too many years
fighting back tears . . .
Why can't the past
just die . . .?
Wishing you were
somehow here again . . .
knowing we must
say goodbye . . .
Try to forgive . . .
teach me to live . . .
give me the strength
to try . . .
No more memories,
no more silent tears . . .
No more gazing across
the wasted years . . .
Help me say
goodbye.

?Candle in the Wind? – Elton John, Posted by Chibi Baka
Goodbye England's Rose
May you ever grow in our hearts.
You were the grace that placed itself
Where lives were torn apart.
You called out to our country,
And you whispered to those in pain.
Now you belong to heaven,
And the stars spell out your name.

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind:
Never fading with the sunset
When the rain set in.
And your footsteps will always fall here,
Along England's greenest hills;
Your candle's burned out long before
Your legend ever will.

Loveliness we've lost;
These empty days without your smile.
This torch we'll always carry
For our nation's golden child.
And even though we try,
The truth brings us to tears;
All our words cannot express
The joy you brought us through the years.

Goodbye England's Rose,
From a country lost without your soul,
Who'll miss the wings of your compassion
More than you'll ever know.

"Angels Fall First" - Nightwish , Posted by Lady Pyre
An angel face smiles to me
Under a headline of tragedy
That smile used to give me warmth
Farewell - no words to say
Beside the cross on your grave
And those forever burning candles

Needed elsewhere
To remind us of the shortness of our time
Tears laid for them
Tears of love, tears of fear
Bury my dreams, dig up my sorrows
Oh, Lord why
The angels fall first

Not relieved by thougts of Shangri-La
Nor enlightened by the lessons of Christ
I'll never understand the meaning of the right
Ignorance lead me into the light

Needed elsewhere
To remind us of the shortness of our time
Tears laid for them
Tears of love, tears of fear
Bury my dreams, dig up my sorrows
Oh, Lord why
The angels fall first

Sing me a song
Of your beauty
Of your kingdom
Let the melodies of your harps
Caress those whom we still need

Yesterday we shook hands
My friend
Today a moonbeam lightens my path
My guardian

?Untitled? - love_girl
Let her soul be taken to heaven...
Let the light, guide her to freedom...
She has left us, far to soon.
But her memory..will last..for enternity..
for we hope.
That this tragic death shall not be the last..
Of her memory..That will allways live on.... In our hearts....

From ?Crytorchid? – Marilyn Manson, Posted by ackabernathy
p***k your finger it is done
The moon has now eclipsed the sun
The angel has spread it's wings
The time has come for bitter things

?Heaven Sent? - Elisande Kaze
I couldn't eat
I couldn't sleep
I couldn't think about the people in my life except for you
So many things I could forget, but even more things that I always could regret about you

But now it's too late
You were forced not to stay
The pain is so great
So I wait for the day to say

The angels have chosen you
You may not remember us, but we'll remember you
You were stolen from us, and so here we may forget that you flew down as an angel
You must have been Heaven sent

There's so many things that I could say but no one ever wants to think of you that way
It'll always be true that now you're gone, it's getting hard to smile and laugh about the days that we had shared or never did

You'd always brighten my day on the darkest of days
You have passed away
That's something we can't change
But it's us that it changed

The angels have chosen you
You may not remember us, but we'll remember you
You were stolen from us, and so here we may forget that you flew down as an angel
You must have been Heaven sent

I never really knew you but I cried my heart out
But the lives you've changed will move on without a doubt
We cannot hide the pain that's inside
Here you may not be alive
But you will be inside

The angels have chosen you
You may not remember us, but we'll remember you
You were stolen from us, and so here we may forget that you flew down as an angel
You must have been Heaven sent

I couldn't eat
I couldn't sleep
I couldn't think about the people in my life except for you
Rest in peace, Chiharu...

“No Reply? – Cowboy Bebop, Posted by Akki Enzeru
Like the perfect ending
It won't be long
Till everything I've ruined has seen me gone
In time, I pray you'll forgive me
Now you know the man I am
Can you forgive me?

I fall
Like the sands of time
Like some broken rhyme
At feet no longer there

If only I could call the rain to melt and wash away the pain you feel
I would
You gave yourself to me and showed me what the truth could be
For that, I say thank you
This was my life
It never made much sense to me

Whith every lie that I lived
Part of me would fade
Into this empty shadow I've become
And now I feel so numb
I no longer know myself
But I still know you

I call
And there is no reply
Like some phontom cry
On ears too far away

I close my eyes and watch as my life passes by
The only thing I see is you
For all the times you walked the line for me and standing by my side
I say thank you
Here lies my life
It never felt real to me

You'll always mean so much to me
And there's no reply
And there's no reply
You'll never know how much you meant to me

If only I could call the rain to melt and wash away the pain you feel
I would
You gave yourself to me and showed me what the truth could be
For that, I say thank you
This was my life
It never made much sense to me

I close my eyes and watch as my life passes by
The only thing I see is you
For all the times you walked the line for me and standing by my side
I say thank you
Here lies my life
It never felt real to me

You in my life
It all meant so much more to be

“Angel Eyes? - Buzz Poets, Posted by XxvampirekittyxX
She walked the Earth above the ground.
Her smile as wide as Painted skies,blue skies,
Her blue skies.
And all the creatures heard the sound,
the night this child like angel learned to fly.
In blue skies.

All I ask is why,
Little angels have to fly,
Stars they hide her angel eyes.
Throw my hands up to the sky,
And I miss her angel eyes,
She sings to me don't cry.

Since heaven called her name,
Nothing will be the same as us together,
Together.
They say that legends never die,
Then so my friends this angel lives forever,
Forever.

All I ask is why,
Little angels have to fly.
Stars they hide her angel eyes.
Throw my hands up to the sky,
And I miss her angel eyes,
But she sings to me don't cry.

I sing.
I scream.
I need to hear a new sound.
Star is fallen,
I think I hear her calling.

Since the day I heard the news,
My soul is melting cause my heart is burning,
Burning.

She was just a child,
With the sun inside her smile,
Innocence skys angels fly.
See an angel in the sky,
And I miss her angel eyes.
Sings to me dont cry.

She was just a child,
With the sun inside her smile,
Innocence skies angels fly.
An angel in the sky,
I miss her angel eyes,
She sings to me don't cry.

“Stairway to Heaven? – Led Zeppelin, Posed by ~RedKitten~
There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold
And she's buying a stairway to heaven.
When she gets there she knows, if the stores are all closed
With a word she can get what she came for.
Ooh, ooh, and she's buying a stairway to heaven.

There's a sign on the wall but she wants to be sure
'Cause you know sometimes words have two meanings.
In a tree by the brook, there's a songbird who sings,
Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it makes me wonder.

There's a feeling I get when I look to the west,
And my spirit is crying for leaving.
In my thoughts I have seen rings of smoke through the trees,
And the voices of those who stand looking.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it really makes me wonder.

And it's whispered that soon if we all call the tune
Then the piper will lead us to reason.
And a new day will dawn for those who stand long
And the forests will echo with laughter.

If there's a bustle in your hedgerow, don't be alarmed now,
It's just a spring clean for the May queen.
Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on.
And it makes me wonder.

Your head is humming and it won't go, in case you don't know,
The piper's calling you to join him,
Dear lady, can you hear the wind blow, and did you know
Your stairway lies on the whispering wind.

And as we wind on down the road
Our shadows taller than our soul.
There walks a lady we all know
Who shines white light and wants to show
How everything still turns to gold.
And if you listen very hard
The tune will come to you at last.
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll.

And she's buying a stairway to heaven.

“Kiseki no Umi? – Record of Lodoss War, Posted by Durandal the Rampant
yami no yozora ga futari wakatsu no wa
yobi au kokoro hadaka ni suru tame


kazari nugi sute subete na kusu toki
nanika ga mieru


kaze yo watashi wa tachi mukau
yukou kuru shimi no umi he to


kizuna kono mune ni kizan de
kudakeru nami wa hatenaku tomo


nani wo motomete daremo arasou no?
nagashita chishio hana wo sa kaseru no?


touto ki ashita kono te ni suru made
deaeru hi made


kaze yo watashi wa tachi mukau
yukou kagaya ki wo mezashite


inori kono mune ni dakishime
samayou yami no youna mirai


kaze yo watashi wa osorenai
ai kozo mitsuke dashita kiseki yo


kimi wo shinjiteru yorokobi
arashi wa ai ni kizuku tame ni fuiteru

“No One But You? – Queen, Posted by Lesell
A hand above the water
An angel reaching the sky
It is raining in Heaven -
Do you want us to cry?
And everywhere the broken-hearted
On every lonely avenue
No-one could reach them
No-one but you
Chorus:
One by one
Only the Good die young
They're only flyin' too close to the sun
And life goes on -
Without you...
Another Tricky Situation
I get to drownin' in the Blues
And I find myself thinkin'
Well -what would you do?
Yes! -it was such an operation
Forever paying every due
Hell, you made a sensation
You found a way through -and
One by one
Only the Good die young
They're only flyin' too close to the sun
We'll remember -
Forever...
And now the party must be over
I guess we'll never understand
The sense of your leaving
Was it the way it was planned?
And so we grace another table
And raise our glasses one more time
There's a face at the window
And I ain't never, never sayin' goodbye...
One by one
Only the Good die young
They're only flyin' too close to the sun
Cryin' for nothing
Cryin' for no-one
No-one but you

“Velvet Roses? - Deradria

Velvet Roses
from tomorrow
don't wait
I'll see you soon
(goodnight)

broken sleeping
whispered nightmares
you'll see
forgotten now
(all right)

don't wake me up
I don't want to see
Velvet Roses on my doorstep
let me dream on
shattered promises
all alone when I awake

Velvet Roses
for the heartache
fallen
lying so still
(too long)

waiting empty
in the daylight
to see
it's grown so dark
(so wrong)

don't wake me up
I don't want to see
Velvet Roses on my doorstep
remember you
in the bright moonlight
all alone when I awake

Velvet Roses
for tomorrow
don't cry
I'll see you soon
(goodnight)

“Tears in Heaven? – Eric Clapton, Posted by Dredick
Would you know my name?
if I saw you in Heaven
Would it be the same
if I saw you in Heaven

I must be strong and carry on
Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven
Would you hold my hand,if I saw you in heaven

Would you help me stand,
if I saw you in heaven
I'll find my way through night and day
Cause I know I just can't stay here in heaven.
Time can bring you downTime can bend your knees
Time can break your heart
Have you beggin
please beggin please

Beyond the door, there's peace for sure
and I know there'll be no more tears in heaven.
Cause I know I don't belong here in heaven

From "I Feel Home" - O.A.R., Posted by Shikaio
Well in the end we can all call a friend
well that's something I know as true.
And then a thousand years and a thousand tears
I'll come back to see all of you

cuz to me throughout eternity
there's somewhere where you're welcome to go
I said it's something free that means a lot to me
when I'm with my friends I feel home.

"Wish You Were Here" - Pink Floyd, Posted by Triste Morningstar
So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
Blue skys from pain.
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade
Your heros for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war
For a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

..................................................

Oh jesus.

I'll keep them in my thoughts.
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I don't care too much about Jonnie since people expect he will make it. I hope everything turns out for the best with Chiharu
They will both be in my thoughts. I am very sad to hear this.

-Angel
I so sorry to hear this and I pray for her to pull through and for a miracle. For both of them, all I can say is that neither deserved that.
No comment. I mean..wow that's horrible. If I knew the people I would feel worse.
I dont really know what to say, its so horrible to have happened. Ill be thinking of them.
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This is one of those things that people think will always happen to someone else. Chiharu and Jonnie have my prayers.
My god. I'm thinking of you. And I'm very hard-pressed to think of anything else to say, this is just so damn shocking, and I only know Chi from Gaia so I can't imagine what it must be like for you. Best wishes, for both of you, and for Jonnie, and everyone's families and all. If anyone deserves a miracle it's you guys. Susejo's right... you can never imagine this happening to anyone you know, it's just too bloody much. Take care.
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Do the police have any clues at all?
How sickeningly disgusting of the carjackers... I hope they are eventually able to find out who did this and bring them to justice.

I hope somehow that Chiharu and her friend are able to beat the odds and pull through... I wish them luck.
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Damn that's horrible. I'll pray for them.

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