guugly
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- Posted: Fri, 02 Nov 2007 07:54:17 +0000
i love/hate my dad. he was alwayse my favorite parent growing up. he embraced the fact that im not girly. he built models with me, took me to the beach, and related to me in ways my mom never could. he was my hero.
in fifth grade, my parents broke up. i didnt realy know why then, (i was little still, ya know?) but my dad was addicted to drugs. he did them in his car, and the friend of his that alwayse came over to work on the house was his supplier. that was why my mom left.
well, i didnt know that then. i just knew that my mom, who i wasn't that close to, was abandoning my hero. i hated her. i was always on dads side. i even told my mom one morning that my sister could stay with her, and i could stay with dad. then it would be equal. for about a year after my dad finaly mooved out, i still stuck with my dad. i had to see both my parents, but i hated my mom and she hated me. "i was just like my father" i was alwayse happier when i was with my dad.
then.... THE STAPMOTHER ARRIVED
poor, european, hot, a whore, here illegaly, and needing someone to mooch off, she found my dad. both being christian, they got together. met at church and everything... for her, i guess, dad got even more religious. my sis and i had to meet the the stepsiblings... (3 of them crying ) and eventualy they got married. well, not eventualy, almost emediately. and shes evil. im not girly eanough, im too messy, im not proper.... aaaah!!!! and my dad fell into it too. suddenly, my dad says i should cut my hair because i didnt keep it neat eanough when it was long. then, it was to short and i looked like a stupid boy. then, i didnt wear eanough floral print, pink anything.
insult, after insult, from the person i looked up to most. i soon began to rebell... wear grey, burn makeup, do what i wanted with how i looked and acted. i soon began fealing closer to my mom. and one day i wasnt "christian eanough". "i was just like my mom".
he has completely changed. science, and all the projects he helped me with, was against god. all the shows we watched, the adams family, the munsters, was promoting satan. i dressed like a devil worshiper, i didnt got church at moms? oh my god, you horrible child, convince her right now to take you! its like he thinks im possesed
my dad is gone now. if anyone is possesed, its him. and hes been possesed by god. a christian zombie. (im not against god, im just aginst my dad being brainwashed by... whoever) theres only a walking bible, prejedous preacher, left of him. i cant talk to him, with out my friend being a demon rapeist because hes gay. my favorite movies being evil influences. my grades make me less of a person.
i hate this new ******** up him. but... whenever i look at him... i remember us doing stuff when i was little, and i know i love him. i miss him, yet i cant stand to see him.
i dont know what to do. i havent seen him in two months were supposed to see each other once a month, but its been two months, no dad. should i try to reconect with him? call him, and see what happened? or should i just let him go away, because seeing him like this alwayse hurts. what should i do????
in fifth grade, my parents broke up. i didnt realy know why then, (i was little still, ya know?) but my dad was addicted to drugs. he did them in his car, and the friend of his that alwayse came over to work on the house was his supplier. that was why my mom left.
well, i didnt know that then. i just knew that my mom, who i wasn't that close to, was abandoning my hero. i hated her. i was always on dads side. i even told my mom one morning that my sister could stay with her, and i could stay with dad. then it would be equal. for about a year after my dad finaly mooved out, i still stuck with my dad. i had to see both my parents, but i hated my mom and she hated me. "i was just like my father" i was alwayse happier when i was with my dad.
then.... THE STAPMOTHER ARRIVED
poor, european, hot, a whore, here illegaly, and needing someone to mooch off, she found my dad. both being christian, they got together. met at church and everything... for her, i guess, dad got even more religious. my sis and i had to meet the the stepsiblings... (3 of them crying ) and eventualy they got married. well, not eventualy, almost emediately. and shes evil. im not girly eanough, im too messy, im not proper.... aaaah!!!! and my dad fell into it too. suddenly, my dad says i should cut my hair because i didnt keep it neat eanough when it was long. then, it was to short and i looked like a stupid boy. then, i didnt wear eanough floral print, pink anything.
insult, after insult, from the person i looked up to most. i soon began to rebell... wear grey, burn makeup, do what i wanted with how i looked and acted. i soon began fealing closer to my mom. and one day i wasnt "christian eanough". "i was just like my mom".
he has completely changed. science, and all the projects he helped me with, was against god. all the shows we watched, the adams family, the munsters, was promoting satan. i dressed like a devil worshiper, i didnt got church at moms? oh my god, you horrible child, convince her right now to take you! its like he thinks im possesed
my dad is gone now. if anyone is possesed, its him. and hes been possesed by god. a christian zombie. (im not against god, im just aginst my dad being brainwashed by... whoever) theres only a walking bible, prejedous preacher, left of him. i cant talk to him, with out my friend being a demon rapeist because hes gay. my favorite movies being evil influences. my grades make me less of a person.
i hate this new ******** up him. but... whenever i look at him... i remember us doing stuff when i was little, and i know i love him. i miss him, yet i cant stand to see him.
i dont know what to do. i havent seen him in two months were supposed to see each other once a month, but its been two months, no dad. should i try to reconect with him? call him, and see what happened? or should i just let him go away, because seeing him like this alwayse hurts. what should i do????
