Eternality_Cannon
Probably this entire year. Four dead friends, a girlfriend in the Navy who won't be back for four years at least if she comes back at all or still wants me, the fact that after I graduated from high school all of my friends just sort of disappeared, and once two of them wound up covering like three trees in their insides after a street-racing accident the grief made me lose focus on my work, my grades slipped and I dropped out of college before my first semester was even finished. Now I'm at home, working a dead-end part-time job on weekends for roughly three hours a week, and the only human contact I have is either with little kids or old people.
I'm considering suicide; any ideas?
Committing suicide is
never the answer.
you seem to have had a really hard time losing people close to you. It might be hard to ever allow more people into your life again, but don't give up!! Maybe you should talk to some family. Or get some professional help. But definitively talk to people about it. Don't keep quiet. There are several people who would care for and understand you.
Why?
Because they know what it is like.
You are not the only one. You are not alone in your sorrow
And as for suggestions to get you out of that situation.. persistence! If you're determined to go back to school, work at it! even if it takes 5 years. 10 years. Even if you're in your 50s, don't give up.
I've read that when you get older you start realizing all the things you've missed out on. Live til you're old!! Find inspiration.