Zilla brad
Magic-Froggie Sundae
"I'm looking into getting some toys....like plugs and stuff to ease me into it a bit. They have beginner kits....lube is not a problem. Condom will be used too. I just don't want to mentally prepare for it, then he back out and I get all embarrassed."
One step at time. Once you try the toys, then you can drcide if you want to do it with hubby.
Also, if you're worried about... mess, being near a shower is good.
But I agree that lying on my stomach is the easiest for me, not only with controlling the weight, but just what's going on in general. I also am much more likely to aim to please if I get a little something-something first. Nothing makes me more agreeable than a screaming orgasm, and personally, I think that kind of reward system works best for my bf and I.
Speaking of controlling weight, I had a nice spill while on the bottom just last week. My elbows just slipped.
Up until now, I never knew you could get rug burn from high thread count sheets, but lo and behold, I've got one of those big, black, deep and nasty scabs taking up the entire side of my elbow, complete with red-rashy burn marks around it.