Skataforeva
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- Posted: Mon, 04 Feb 2013 01:31:22 +0000
Hey guys, I know many of you guys on here like to fap it. I would occasionally when I was younger, but I stopped. After I would do it, I would feel really depressed. When I had my first boyfriend, we would often do sexual things together. When we did, I would have to tell him to stop and I would start crying uncontrollably and be hit with the most intense wave of sadness. I wanted nothing more to run far away from him and throw myself off a bridge or jump into traffic, whichever I found first. After a while, it kind of went away. Sometimes after sex, I would still feel extremely depressed though. That boyfriend and I broke up about a month ago. I have been lonely so I have decided to masturbate again. I just got done and I am so depressed. I just want to die. It's so bad right now. I don't know how I can go on living. I think there may be something wrong with me. Has this ever happened to you guys?
Also usually when people masturbate, they watch porn or think about someone or something. When I do, I can't think about anything. Just random images flow through my mind, often colors and abstract looking things. I thought this may be related.
Also usually when people masturbate, they watch porn or think about someone or something. When I do, I can't think about anything. Just random images flow through my mind, often colors and abstract looking things. I thought this may be related.