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I tried to vomit suicide and almost succeeded. I used to say how stupid people were. But its not just because of him. He was literally all the fmaily or friend I had. But were broken. We were weeks away from him visiting again. We both cant do it.
God, thank you for giving him to me. But why?
I would like to say, I am thankful you didn't end your life. I don't know you, but I have certainly been in those positions where I felt life didn't matter anymore and attempted to end it. Personally, I am glad I didn't. Even though the future gave even more heart break, I was able to make a lot of new friends and for a time, new loves.
I wish I had an answer for you. I have asked the heavens that very question. Even recently with a relationship that ended. What could I have done differently to have kept her? Am I just that royally screwed up that I won't ever fine happiness?
I don't honestly know how to answer your question. To me, its a mystery. Just know, there are people out there that do care. It may not make sense and probably never will, but please don't give up on life or love.