I Dont Deliver
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- Posted: Sat, 12 Apr 2014 06:03:21 +0000
I feel like I am the absolute shittiest person in the world.
I'm engaged, to somebody who's taken care of me, helped me recoup my life and even helped me get my own business off the ground.
Big thing is this person has wicked jealousy issues when it comes to a very close friend of mine. Because we dated in high school (about 10 years ago), and he was my first I got to 1st base with.. Or something. I'm terrible at this whole bases thing. sweatdrop he wasn't the first boyfriend. But I can without a doubt say he was the first love. He's the only one who's breakup with left me feeling numb for about a month. We stopped talking for a very long time. When we finally got back in touch, we were close friends. He knows me so well, and is a super charming person.
Essentially I was given the classic "It's him or me" scenario. I was either going to LOSE everything I had built with my fiance, or I was going to lose this close friend. I got locked out of my home in 30 degree weather until I gave my answer. Was forced to write a goodbye message, was forced to have it 'proof-read" before I could send it. Then was told as a condition to us staying together I was not allowed to bring the whole mess up later. I cried alone for hours afterward because I was told by this friend that if I ever came back he would not be my friend. I can't say that I'd blame him.
But I've found one social media that my friend is on that my Fiance does not have access to: Gaia.
Everything else. My Facebook, my text messages, everything is readable by him. he has no shame in snooping on my things! He hates that I get on this site because of the fact that he can not see who I'm talking to or what I'm talking about.
I am happy to have something where I can have some privacy for a second. Breathe a little. But I'm not sure if I am a shitty person for using this media to break this rule.
I'm engaged, to somebody who's taken care of me, helped me recoup my life and even helped me get my own business off the ground.
Big thing is this person has wicked jealousy issues when it comes to a very close friend of mine. Because we dated in high school (about 10 years ago), and he was my first I got to 1st base with.. Or something. I'm terrible at this whole bases thing. sweatdrop he wasn't the first boyfriend. But I can without a doubt say he was the first love. He's the only one who's breakup with left me feeling numb for about a month. We stopped talking for a very long time. When we finally got back in touch, we were close friends. He knows me so well, and is a super charming person.
Essentially I was given the classic "It's him or me" scenario. I was either going to LOSE everything I had built with my fiance, or I was going to lose this close friend. I got locked out of my home in 30 degree weather until I gave my answer. Was forced to write a goodbye message, was forced to have it 'proof-read" before I could send it. Then was told as a condition to us staying together I was not allowed to bring the whole mess up later. I cried alone for hours afterward because I was told by this friend that if I ever came back he would not be my friend. I can't say that I'd blame him.
But I've found one social media that my friend is on that my Fiance does not have access to: Gaia.
Everything else. My Facebook, my text messages, everything is readable by him. he has no shame in snooping on my things! He hates that I get on this site because of the fact that he can not see who I'm talking to or what I'm talking about.
I am happy to have something where I can have some privacy for a second. Breathe a little. But I'm not sure if I am a shitty person for using this media to break this rule.