what should i say / do ?? i realy dont know

[valley5]

i dunno if in in th eright place here..
i need help anyway

well.. my edit of the 'im a believer' song goed somewhat like this;

And then I saw his face
And i was a believer
Not a trace of doubt in my mind
I was in love
oewwwwww
I was a believer

... but an hour and a half later.. it was over..

it's so strange, my opinioun about people changes SO fast..
and i dont know how to deal with it..

a guy who was telling me the past half year that he likes me [i saw him about 3/4 times the past half year] was at a small local festival..
i always thought he was nice.. but that's about it

yesterday i thought i really liked him..
so we we're kissing
[*[whisperers; 'first kiss']*]

but later that day i felt really guilty about it..
and i dont know exactly why..

im so comfused

he's going to call me tonight
[he said when he called me yesterday evening]
and i think i'm going to tell him how i feel
i hope wont hurt him

i dunno why my feelings change everytime
and i feel bad about it, because im afraid to hurt people because of it..
but i dont know if i can and how to change it..

sad
i hope he'll understand..
i dont wanna hurt him.. i dont want him to hurt himself
[i heard rumors that he's on drug,, on one side i dont wanna believe it, just rumors, right? on the other side.. he'll be so unpredicatble on drug i guess.. he'll ruin himself.. drugs arent the issue now.. its about what i should tell him]

[valley5]

please say something

[Dot 666]

MohawkValley

please say something

depend if your friend like songs that type

[valley5]

Vladen

MohawkValley

please say something

depend if your friend like songs that type

hrhr guess not

[math81284]

Your just confused your getting so many mixed emotions with so many people you dont know what to do. Just calm down slow down and think long and hard then make a decision.

[[ talk hard ]]

sounds like your building walls up around you..

y'know.. like subconciously pushing peoplke away...

[Funkyblueeyes]

If you even felt that way for a split moment you should give him a chance. Tell him you're not ready to be tied down right now, so maybe you guys could just get 2 know each other instead of being boyfriend and girlfriend. Maybe you do like him, you just don't know why yet.

[valley5]

sebby

sounds like your building walls up around you..

y'know.. like subconciously pushing peoplke away...

i know in pushing people away..
i dont wanna do it..

and it might sound strange.. but i think i fear being dropped by friends and stuff so much that i dont let to many people get close to me..
sounds stupid doesnt it

[valley5]

math81284

Your just confused your getting so many mixed emotions with so many people you dont know what to do. Just calm down slow down and think long and hard then make a decision.

but calimng down is so hard to do know that he can call any minute..
by the way.. he just called.. i said i didnt want to do anything tonight.. he asked if he could come over.. i said i didnt want people around me right now. he said he'll call me tomorow, and that he might come over.. i said i dont know yet if im at home.. so he laughed he 'evil laugh' [which sounds.. gooood] and than he had to get off the phone..
so thinking long and hard.. i dont really have the time for it..
i decided that i wont kiss him again soon..
just so he wont think i want more right now..

by th eway.. a friend, not a really close one, but just a really funny guy came over to pick up some cds he wanted to borrow.. and because i havent seen himfor at least a half year he stayed and we were watching a film.. that calmed me down a bit..

[valley5]

Funkyblueeyes

If you even felt that way for a split moment you should give him a chance. Tell him you're not ready to be tied down right now, so maybe you guys could just get 2 know each other instead of being boyfriend and girlfriend. Maybe you do like him, you just don't know why yet.

thnks.. i'll try that..
but sometimes he's one of those who only hear what they wanna hear..
but i dont even know if i mind that..

i dunno but i feel better...

well.. im off to bed now.. it's 11:22pm here
good night

[DrFake]

first off, slow your roll honey! Go look at yourself in the mirror and slap yourself, read these to yourself...

"I..am..."



and accept it because you know what a person with mixed feelings is ALMOST considered one anyways. Change your personality and your emotions and fast unless you want to end up, the "messed" up road. After that you tell him and that's that. What do you care what he does to himself? You don't care about him remember...

[valley5]

DrFake

After that you tell him and that's that. What do you care what he does to himself? You don't care about him remember...

if he does something to himself.. i would feel SO guilty! stressed

[valley5]

he asked me if i wante to be his girlfriend yesterday..
i told him i'd rather not..

he's comming over the day after tomorrow..
just to hang out.
i promised myself that nothing will happen
so im okay with it as long as he doesnt try anything..

he might become a friend..


thanks all