Dark Phoenix of Chaos
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- Posted: Sun, 10 Apr 2005 23:08:32 +0000
ok, here's the thing, a year ago i met this girl online through a friend. we started going out and hit it off, well, what i didn't know is that she was also pretending to be a guy that my friend was in love with. so we were both dating her at the same time ok, now she left me after a month, then a week later got back with me, then about a couple weeks later broke up with me and then got back together than broke up after a week. we stayed friends and stuff, she had two other bfs, then we got back together. well she asked me to propose to her on christmas so i flew out to her, proposed and everything on christmas night. its what i had wanted too so i was happy. well a day after her birthday she suddenly starts to think she doesn't know enough about me that my friend knows me more and everything. i tell her that once i move there for good in feb. that we can discuss everything she wants to know. my thing was that i never hid anything from her, and i was always asking about her, wanting to know more. so anyways, i finally move out here, and two days later, she breaks up with me. well after that i start to find out she's been saying s**t about me to all her friends, that i wanted to rape her, which pisses me off the most since i was raped myself. she even compared me to her step dad that raped her and tried to kill her family. so anyways, i keep finding out more stuff and it turns out she likes this one guy she's known since like june whom she was always talking about....so end story....she cheated on me on gaia with a number of guys, and even went so far as to talk to them on the phone....some of the calls were even made after i would call her on my lunch break. so then she decides she wants us to be friends with benefits...then she takes that back cuz she thinks she's hurting me and leading me on. i told her she wasn't and i understood it all but kept to it...so anyways...she's still all about this other guy who lives in new york, we live in oregon, i used to live in arizona but moved out here. well, she's all over me one day and one thing leads to another and boom. then we get home and she says that can never happen again cuz she has to be loyal to this new guy like my friend was to her now bf, even though they weren't going out. ok, now like an hour after she tells me this, she starts to go out with the new guy. she even goes as far as to call him too, knowing full well her parents have told her to not call him, and have even told him to not call her at all. they've found everything she's done on the computer and over the phone, and i keep hearing more and more that just tears me up over and over. i still love her very much, but its hurting me everyday that i stay here and see her and have her play and flirt with me, to only turn away and go to this other guy. i gave up a job, my family, and everything to move all the way out here. and the second day i'm here, she breaks it all. the engagement ring she had broke back in feb., symbol of something? who knows. well her family adores me and they dont want me to go, neither does she. her family doesn't like this new guy at all, never have.
so what do you think i should do? leave or stay? hate or keep loving her? need advice. i've tried to OD twice since i've been here, and nothing has happened either time. took 8 times the normal dosage in sleeping pills, and took 3 days worth of pain meds. so will someone give me some advice here.
so what do you think i should do? leave or stay? hate or keep loving her? need advice. i've tried to OD twice since i've been here, and nothing has happened either time. took 8 times the normal dosage in sleeping pills, and took 3 days worth of pain meds. so will someone give me some advice here.
