A Conclusion To This Tale
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- Posted: Sat, 19 Apr 2014 09:03:32 +0000
I asked a family friend the other day about what they think is be good at out in the real world.
Her reply? "finding a nice husband and writing books."
While everyone talks about how my sister has the ambition and drive to do whatever she wants, while I'm like: Okay, I exist. That's nice.
I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life....
I honestly don't think I'm wife-material; and, while I have the capability to write a book, I don't know if I can make a living off of it.
I'm honestly just so lost. It feels like I only go through life because I have nothing else to do, and I don't really "enjoy" some of the things I like sometimes.
Like, I went to an anime convention a few months ago. I had been really excited for this event; but, as the day went on...I couldn't help but keep looking at the clock.
There's only one person in my life who I truly trust. I can't trust males whatsoever. I always hyper-analyze a persons every move, even my mom.
I've grown used to thinking that everything I love will be taken away if I do something wrong.
My stepfather is doing a number on my already low self-confidence with verbal abuse. He'll pretend to be my friend, but as soon as he gets into a bad mood, he'll make me feel like the dog s**t on the bottom of his shoes...
I'm depressed, I know it. I'm stressed from school and my home situation, and it overloads my capacity to enjoy anything because I can only think of work.
I don't have anybody nearby that would be my shoulder to cry on (my BFF - the one person that I trust, lives three cities away) and I'm constantly alone.
I've been told that my posture is awful, and that I'm always guarding myself. I'll hide behind my bff and stay quiet because I don't want to associate with anyone else.
I'm depressed as ******** I just don't know what to do.
I don't feel like I'm good for anything right now...
Her reply? "finding a nice husband and writing books."
While everyone talks about how my sister has the ambition and drive to do whatever she wants, while I'm like: Okay, I exist. That's nice.
I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life....
I honestly don't think I'm wife-material; and, while I have the capability to write a book, I don't know if I can make a living off of it.
I'm honestly just so lost. It feels like I only go through life because I have nothing else to do, and I don't really "enjoy" some of the things I like sometimes.
Like, I went to an anime convention a few months ago. I had been really excited for this event; but, as the day went on...I couldn't help but keep looking at the clock.
There's only one person in my life who I truly trust. I can't trust males whatsoever. I always hyper-analyze a persons every move, even my mom.
I've grown used to thinking that everything I love will be taken away if I do something wrong.
My stepfather is doing a number on my already low self-confidence with verbal abuse. He'll pretend to be my friend, but as soon as he gets into a bad mood, he'll make me feel like the dog s**t on the bottom of his shoes...
I'm depressed, I know it. I'm stressed from school and my home situation, and it overloads my capacity to enjoy anything because I can only think of work.
I don't have anybody nearby that would be my shoulder to cry on (my BFF - the one person that I trust, lives three cities away) and I'm constantly alone.
I've been told that my posture is awful, and that I'm always guarding myself. I'll hide behind my bff and stay quiet because I don't want to associate with anyone else.
I'm depressed as ******** I just don't know what to do.
I don't feel like I'm good for anything right now...