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Nuuuu, depression!-hugs- An ex of mine had it severely. Was a pretty tough relationship. But see, im not sure if its depression. I dont end up lying in bed all day or moping around the house. Ill honestly just play a game or text some people,watch a movie or try to stream on twitch to help me be more active with people(though hasnt worked out yet lol)
Ive actually been playing Borderlands lately(favorite friggin game of EVER >.< since they had a new release BUT thats besides the point. I just wish that i could be more motivated to do things even though im single and dont have many in real life friends anymore. I know and see other people who dont have anyone and they are just fine with things. They go to work,excercise, go out alone etc Maybe i need to create small goals such as those to keep my mind off things etc?I dont know.
So yea,what your saying is essentially it. I just need to get my lazy tushie up and do sh*t. I actually been excercising quite a bit the last two weeks inside but thhat kinda fell off already...>///< haha Oh yea...my sleeping schedule got really messed up last month and i guess i wasnt drinking/eating to much and i actually fainted...scariest s**t ever o.o went to the doctor and he said i was fine. Yushhhh i been on a green tea craze for about a year now. Sometimes i buy the actual teabags and other times i cheat and buy the organic bottled one hehe I wanted to cut back on soda and all that crap(though i still drink it time to time)
The problem it seems for me is...i just fall off the routine or path and then it goes back to the same thing. Me not caring.
I just brought it up about being in a relationship because most people i know who are solo are just fine. I wish i had their kind of mentality i suppose. I guess ill try harder to stick to those little goals such as excercising,going out and keeping me busy throughout the day and stick to it.
EDIT:I appreciate you guys taking the time to write back.Love you all <3 oddly i feel better already though im sure ill be back xD
Yeah, depression can really hit you hard and in my opinion it's one of the most difficult things people have to deal with in their lives at times, especially since it tends to be a chronic thing too if you're clinically depressed. It does make relationships really though. I've been with my bf for over 5 years now and in the beginning I was severely depressed; I'm definitely doing better now but yeah, it was for sure rough. I emphasize with you on that. Luckily we were able to work through it.
And sure, perhaps you aren't feeling depressed. I just know for me I definitely lose interest in things and have a hard time finding motivation when my depression kinda creeps up on me. People react differently to depression too, and there are different types. Some people sleep a lot more, some hardly at all, some people lose interest in things they normally like, some completely commit themselves to something as a distraction. It's a complicated thing. But as long as you feel like you're doing okay and managing, that's the important part. You know your feelings best.
And oh, fun :3 I've actually never played borderlands but my bro used to like it a lot. Lately my gaming obsessions have been WoW and Super Smash Bros, lol.
But yeah, just keep trying to get moving! I completely relate on the falling out of routine thing. It's a struggle for a lot of people. But every day is a new opportunity. Just because you fall off track for a little while doesn't mean the things you did (exercise!) didn't get you anywhere. Just pick back up and try again! And yeah, I'm on the green tea craze too, lol. I have noticed it really does help with my appetite, and it's nice to find something healthy that can address it. But yeah, everything in moderation. Maybe try to replace one of the sodas you normally drink everyday with some water and slowly wean yourself down. It's easier than just cutting it cold turkey and being like MMM SUGARRR after a while of deprivation, lol.
And I see what you are saying. Even though people can be self sufficient on their own, I'm sure the majority still get that lonely or what if feeling every now and then. I think a good consequence of learning to be self sufficient and find your own happiness is that you tend to attract love without really looking for it, and then when you do find the right one it's that much better. So yeah, just really push for those small everyday goals. Be realistic, take it a day at a time, and before you know it things get better.