My C o u s i n D i e d. . . How do I deal with death?

[perfidiousness]

My cousin died last night. I was actually talking to him before he left. I think the last thing I said was "Goodbye, I love you!" and he said "I love you too, I'm heading out now." then he logged off.
We were just talking on msn about a party he was going to that night. He is a few years older than me but he treated me like a sister.
I feel like it's my fault he died. I should have kept him on the computer a litter longer or just by a few minutes. You see, he died on the way to the party.
He got hit by a car, the car was driving to fast and bam, it hit him. I'm really depressed. I don't know how to deal with it.
We only got to meet a few times in real life but I still loved him so. How do I deal with this?
I blame myself. My mom told me that's not good but I still loved him so much. I didn't keep him online long enough, that wouldn't have been him.

[perfidiousness]

[Circus-Gothica-666]

one day at a time

[perfidiousness]

Circus-Gothica-666

one day at a time

That make no sense to me nor does it help me.

[Duskbringer]

Accidents happen.
Or in this case, negligent criminal homicide per vehicular manslaughter.
In no part, was it your fault.
Accept that and feel free to mourn your loss. But do not take any part of what happened upon yourself.

[Lilian Nightshade]

Remember all the good times you had with him. He is still with you in your memories.

[xXliz_is_insaneXx]

I know how you feel, but I'm my case it was my grandpa and he didn't get hit by a car, he committed suicide...me and him were so close. I loved him sooo much and I still do. I blame myself for what happened, but I know there were other things that could've made him do that. I just try and enjoy life even though it's hard living without him, but with help of family members and friends it's easier to handle. Oh and Lilian Nightshade is right. He'll still be with you in your memories and don't foreget he'll be in your heart always.

[Tikikala]

It's not your fault.

If it's bound to happen, it happens.

It probably it's just a coincident, don't push yourself too hard.

For now... (I don't know if there is an order to this...)

you should reflect the memories you have with him.
accept his death
find an adult some one you trust to go through the emotions of this event.

[MarmeeXnoir]

Try to remember that all of the good times that you and him had together and what it was like growing up with him and stuff.. Don't focus on him being gone because that's just going to make it harder on you. And don't blame yourself for his death... It happened but it was your fault, it was the idiot that hit him's fault... what happened was totally out of your control.

You have my condolences though.

[Lovely W o n d e r l a nd]

-sigh-
Don't feel bad, it isn't your fault.
There's no way on earth it's your fault.
The only way it could be is if YOU were the one driving that car that hit him.
I lost my cousin, David, to a similair type deal.
The guy who hit him was drunk,
He killed my Cousin, my uncle, and his best friend who was in the car with him.
He only got 15 years for 3 counts of vehicular manslaughter and driving while intoxicated.
He stood in the court room, and told me to my face and on TV that he didn't care,
Whether or not he'd taken my cousin and uncle's life.

[perfidiousness]

x-rawrr-love__

-sigh-
Don't feel bad, it isn't your fault.
There's no way on earth it's your fault.
The only way it could be is if YOU were the one driving that car that hit him.
I lost my cousin, David, to a similair type deal.
The guy who hit him was drunk,
He killed my Cousin, my uncle, and his best friend who was in the car with him.
He only got 15 years for 3 counts of vehicular manslaughter and driving while intoxicated.
He stood in the court room, and told me to my face and on TV that he didn't care,
Whether or not he'd taken my cousin and uncle's life.

Oh. I am sorry. I sound self centered just thinking about myself. I am sorry for your loss. I really felt bad but hearing your story makes me sound like a attention whore. I am very sorry.

[Florally]

First of all, stop blaming yourself. You're already going through enough pain, you don't need to add more to it.

I know that's hard to do, but it will definitely help with the grieving process.

Just let it out, talk to other people who knew your cousin and I promise it'll eventually get easier.

Good Luck.

[Carael]

As everyone has said, it isn't your fault. Everyone has lost someone in their lives, I personally lost my mother, father, and grandmother.

The only thing that we can do is look towards the future. The ones who passed away wouldn't want you wasting your life feeling sorry for yourself and being depressed. Remember the times you've shared, and try to move on.

Remember, whatever happens in the world happens, be it our fault or not. We cannot change the past, we can only go forward, but when we do go forward, we can either make the best of things, or the worst of things. The choice is yours and yours alone.

[Analiyah]

Time will heal...as time passes by whether it be months or years, you'll see that it wasn't really your fault. Its not like you can tell the future to prevent that incident. I hope you feel better, I know you'll feel better. Trust me as years go by you'll feel better than how you feel now. And you won't blame yourself. Hopefully your cousin is resting in peace. And its good that your opening up.