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Post: 56033395_1 created on Sat Nov 07, 2009 9:14 pmPosted: Sat Nov 07, 2009 9:14 pm
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Oh god, 'Lucky' by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat just popped in my head.
But anyway. This is the fourth year I've known this guy, and the third I've had a major crush on him. Thank got its mutual. He's always been a flirt, which I think is nice. He smiles a lot around me and we were really close friends in 6th grade. The next year was a bit awkward, since I started hanging around girls more than guys. This year, we still talk, but not as much as before. Yeah, I'm in the eighth grade. But that's what makes this situation tough. Sure, the stereotype for middle school relationships is about a week or so of bragging right before you get sick of each other. Honestly, I don't want to go through that. What bugs me the most is that we do most of our communication via Gaia. We don't show much of any affection at all in real life; the only way anyone either of us haven't told could tell we were mutual is how one of us would blush at each other every so often. That's just about it. Anyway. We would end our IMs and PMs with '<3's and such and flirt and whatnot. But about two months ago, he ended a PM with 'Love ya ^-^'. Honestly, I was shaken. I didn't repsond. I told a few friends and they said that 'he was just saying it' to say it, but that's all. I believed them for a while, since personally, I think 13-14 is too young for relationships etc. Then he started calling me 'love' :/ I told him to cut it out as nicely as possible one night, and he did. Last month is when I became the hypocrite. All was well and we had a nice conversation that night. I thought for about ten minutes before sending my last PM before I went to bed, but I ended it with ''night, love you (:'. He responded what I think was sarcasm, but couldn't tell. 'You love me now, do you? Good night, love you too c:' Oh God butterflies made me fall asleep crying that night. And I didn't know if I honestly didn't know if I meant what I said that night. We didn't really flirt or say anything involving "us" for the next few weeks, until about five days ago. I got him to get a Facebook, and we IMmed for a few hours before talking on zOMG voice chat. It was nice, and I could tell we were happy. The connection broke twice, but I didn't log back on the third time due to chores. He told me he loved me again, and I replied the same. Then the butterflies hit again. I thought really hard while doing the laundry. I don't know if its "love" or not, if I'm overreacting, if this is going too fast, or if we're too young. That's where you guys come in. I need advice. Honest advice; don't hold back because of my age. Honestly, I think I'm mature enough to handle this, but I don't want to say anything else I might regret later. I've been wanting to ask (preferably in person) if there is any relationship between us besides being really close friends, but I don't know if that would butcher anything that's left, or if apparently we're not the right age. We're not going to the same high school next year, so that's one main reason why I'm asking. And did I mention he's my best friend's (female) "ex-boyfriend" (occurred in the fifth grade, so I don't think that counts, but she's still uncomfortable with me talking about him around her)? Thanks. No tl;dr version. |
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