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- Posted: Sun, 03 Feb 2013 23:02:31 +0000
LD, what should I do?
Discuss,
should he be put on trial?
What would you say if you were my jury in court?
If you were a judge, would you put him away or let him be free from jail time?
The rape took place about a year ago… We live in Texas. I had known the guy for about a year, I met him at the park where people spin fire and do drum circles and it's a big amoeba community of artists and creative people. Both of us share a love for that sort of thing. He knew a lot about dogs and I love dogs, that's one of the first things we talked about when I met him. He's older than me but I don't know his age, I think he's almost thirty. He was attractive as a friend at first. He's very youthful in his spirit and I now see him as mentally ill and juvenile… I am about to describe what happened so if you are under age or too immature to handle physical violence, don't read.
Anyway, we were hanging out at his storage shed one afternoon and I fell asleep there. I remember waking up with him trying to climb on top of me. I pushed him off but he was between me and the exit. He told me we were going to have sex because he really needed to bust a nut and I said no, that is not happening and he kept saying yes. He then threatened to get out his knife and at this point, because he said that I came to the conclusion that he is insane, horny, and picking a fight with me so I didn't struggle because I did not want to excite violence or lose my life when I could just cooperate. He smiled about the whole thing like jack the ripper and I was afraid that if I tried to move past him that he would try to kill me. He pulled off my pants when I did try to get away. I laid down and let him rape me because I was afraid to resist or create a chase, and I've heart that if women just cooperate for a while they won't suffer wounds and an escape will dawn much sooner. He was filming the part where I laid down and he had sex with me. It hurt. I remember making noises of pain. He then turned off the camera and fell asleep. I put my pants back on and ran back home.
He never struck me, never got out his knife, never stabbed or sliced me. He only threatened me and then shoved me around and pulled off my clothes to get me to submit, after I said it wasn't going to happen, I said no like a million times and then I just shut up. I don't know what sort of abuse that is, if it's psychological abuse, or physical.
I didn't tell my parents but I told the police. I was so humiliated I didn't want to press charges because he never hit me or actually used a weapon. But I was so terrified that he would find me and kill me or something. Now after talking to a doctor about this I realize I am developing PTSD. What he did to me was wrong but I am afraid that nobody in court will see my side, that he will get away with it completely blame me for it, and then come after me. Nobody should have to live with this kind of fear. I need to speak with the sex crimes detective about what my options are. After reading a lot about sexual assault I realize that I should take him to court to prevent him from doing this to anybody else. I'm still afraid of him. I trusted him as a friend for a long time before this happened so it's not only painful to lose a kindred spirit, but that he put me through hell.
Discuss,
should he be put on trial?
What would you say if you were my jury in court?
If you were a judge, would you put him away or let him be free from jail time?
The rape took place about a year ago… We live in Texas. I had known the guy for about a year, I met him at the park where people spin fire and do drum circles and it's a big amoeba community of artists and creative people. Both of us share a love for that sort of thing. He knew a lot about dogs and I love dogs, that's one of the first things we talked about when I met him. He's older than me but I don't know his age, I think he's almost thirty. He was attractive as a friend at first. He's very youthful in his spirit and I now see him as mentally ill and juvenile… I am about to describe what happened so if you are under age or too immature to handle physical violence, don't read.
Anyway, we were hanging out at his storage shed one afternoon and I fell asleep there. I remember waking up with him trying to climb on top of me. I pushed him off but he was between me and the exit. He told me we were going to have sex because he really needed to bust a nut and I said no, that is not happening and he kept saying yes. He then threatened to get out his knife and at this point, because he said that I came to the conclusion that he is insane, horny, and picking a fight with me so I didn't struggle because I did not want to excite violence or lose my life when I could just cooperate. He smiled about the whole thing like jack the ripper and I was afraid that if I tried to move past him that he would try to kill me. He pulled off my pants when I did try to get away. I laid down and let him rape me because I was afraid to resist or create a chase, and I've heart that if women just cooperate for a while they won't suffer wounds and an escape will dawn much sooner. He was filming the part where I laid down and he had sex with me. It hurt. I remember making noises of pain. He then turned off the camera and fell asleep. I put my pants back on and ran back home.
He never struck me, never got out his knife, never stabbed or sliced me. He only threatened me and then shoved me around and pulled off my clothes to get me to submit, after I said it wasn't going to happen, I said no like a million times and then I just shut up. I don't know what sort of abuse that is, if it's psychological abuse, or physical.
I didn't tell my parents but I told the police. I was so humiliated I didn't want to press charges because he never hit me or actually used a weapon. But I was so terrified that he would find me and kill me or something. Now after talking to a doctor about this I realize I am developing PTSD. What he did to me was wrong but I am afraid that nobody in court will see my side, that he will get away with it completely blame me for it, and then come after me. Nobody should have to live with this kind of fear. I need to speak with the sex crimes detective about what my options are. After reading a lot about sexual assault I realize that I should take him to court to prevent him from doing this to anybody else. I'm still afraid of him. I trusted him as a friend for a long time before this happened so it's not only painful to lose a kindred spirit, but that he put me through hell.
