How to be indifferent

[gommenasai]

I hate my feelings i just want to focus on the important things in my life. But Im having a hard time. I have strong feelings for this guy, that i hate myself. He's taken has a kid. Probably doesnt give two shits about me. But I can't help but feel so overwhelmed with happiness but shame and anger when i see his face, or when i think about him. It pisses me off so much. It's been effecting all parts of my life. Like im going downhill... I just want to be me before i met him. Is there anyway to just be indifferent without pills, finding a boy friend, pretending everything is cool. Any advice?

[PuddIy]

You shouldn't let a boyfriend lead your happiness, focus on your self first and build your self esteem and only then will you overcome this need to have a boyfriend in order to be happy.

[gommenasai]

PuddIy

You shouldn't let a boyfriend lead your happiness, focus on your self first and build your self esteem and only then will you overcome this need to have a boyfriend in order to be happy.

Thanks for the post. Maybe i just need to try harder to focus on myself. It's crazy.