So I had a surprise last year of finding out I was pregnant because of failed birth control. But I felt the baby was completely innocent and it was my fault that I took the risk of sex anyway, so I faced up to the task and went through with the pregnancy.
I now have a 7 week old daughter who I couldn't imagine not having and I love her more than anyone. heart
Here's the problem: I have not been able to get on birth control again yet (not sure what to get since I am breastfeeding), and my SO and I got caught up in a moment three days ago, turned off our brains, and started a romp in bed. He didn't pull out in time and finished while inside (no condoms, I am allergic).
I know breastfeeding is supposed to lower your chances of pregnancy, and I haven't had my after-delivery period yet to know anything for sure...but ever since we slept together, our dog, who normally doesn't want anything to do with me, has been doing what she did when I was pregnant with my daughter: following me, sniffing me, staring at me, and whining at me.
I don't know what to do -- I don't have the money to take on a second child this early, my family would try to deny me again because SO and I are not married, and I'm positive that if I had the baby, I wouldn't be able to deal with adoption because of hearing the little one's first cries.
I really don't want to have an abortion (I am crying just from the word) if I am pregnant, but I don't know what to do... cry
Anyone's help at all is appreciated...