growcheekatt
(?)Community Member
- Posted: Fri, 05 Dec 2014 04:26:06 +0000
I haven't felt like myself for one day since I first saw 'Ferguson' in my news feed.
Whenever it's brought up in passing, I could be chatting in a room full of people and suddenly I feel this intense loneliness. Like I'm an alien being beamed down from Mars or something.
I've felt constantly emotionally exhausted, I wish I could just change the channel, or shrug it off.
I wish it was as easy as spouting off something ignorant under the guise of curiosity.
People saying these crazy things, these things they don't even understand are deeply hurtful, kind of like a kid on the playground. It all really hurts. And it hurts just as much when I have white friends who seem to be curious, but instead of just asking a question they make some bold statement and pretend to be an authority on the matter.
I'm so tired, I'm drained, I'm irritated all the time. I'm terrified.
Now Eric Garner is all over my news feed, and I know it's going to be quite a while more of this feeling.
Is there a place for people like this?
I can't be the only one... are there groups for us to get together and just talk?
Just so we don't have to feel so alone?
Whenever it's brought up in passing, I could be chatting in a room full of people and suddenly I feel this intense loneliness. Like I'm an alien being beamed down from Mars or something.
I've felt constantly emotionally exhausted, I wish I could just change the channel, or shrug it off.
I wish it was as easy as spouting off something ignorant under the guise of curiosity.
People saying these crazy things, these things they don't even understand are deeply hurtful, kind of like a kid on the playground. It all really hurts. And it hurts just as much when I have white friends who seem to be curious, but instead of just asking a question they make some bold statement and pretend to be an authority on the matter.
I'm so tired, I'm drained, I'm irritated all the time. I'm terrified.
Now Eric Garner is all over my news feed, and I know it's going to be quite a while more of this feeling.
Is there a place for people like this?
I can't be the only one... are there groups for us to get together and just talk?
Just so we don't have to feel so alone?