Musical Note
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- Posted: Fri, 27 Apr 2012 01:58:46 +0000
Hi life issues,
I haven't really made an appearance here before and so I apologize if I may be acting or seeming inappropriate in this post. To make one request, i ask that you just not be disrespectful of my issue, even if it may seem like something to make fun of in your opinion, I'm just trying to be frank and honest...
So essentially, I a homosexual man, have a crush on this boy, who says he is straight, but flirts with me, so hard, so regularly. He also really doesn't like girls, at all, even when I ask him. Anyway...so basically, we are always flirting in secret...but today i told this girl that I had feelings for him, and that i thought he might have them for me too. But she was like? What... he's straight. But based on his behavior with me, I would definitely say otherwise... and she was like "why?" and I was like... I don't know...
ANYWHORE,
Basically as soon as I told her. We parted ways and then she immediately started talking to the boy I have a slight crush on, and It made me start to panic, did she really just go over to him and start sharing what i just told her? They all were looking at me strangely (could be paranoia) as i walked by them. And then i told her i was leaving, as I started to become scared and nervous... and she asked for a hug, so i gave her one, made a cross eyed face to the boy i liked. and he whispered "what was that? you okay" and i just said yeah and walked off...
Now, writing this all out makes me seem a lot more crazy than what was going on in my head. But now i am horribly frightened that she will begin to tell people what I told her. and that really makes me scared and nervous.
Because what if he really is straight, (i can't see how though, i mean, unsolicited back-rubs, dirty dancing lifts,telling me not to flirt with other people, jumping on me, telling me I'm cute and hot, constantly offering me food and gifts and medicine. offering to be my boyfriend, and protect me from other boys...tickling me, and more...)
do you think that she would go tell him? I mean... This girl really likes me but I don't know if i can trust her. I sent her a text saying to keep what i had shared between us... but I'm afraid it's too late.
Or am I over analyzing?
I haven't really made an appearance here before and so I apologize if I may be acting or seeming inappropriate in this post. To make one request, i ask that you just not be disrespectful of my issue, even if it may seem like something to make fun of in your opinion, I'm just trying to be frank and honest...
So essentially, I a homosexual man, have a crush on this boy, who says he is straight, but flirts with me, so hard, so regularly. He also really doesn't like girls, at all, even when I ask him. Anyway...so basically, we are always flirting in secret...but today i told this girl that I had feelings for him, and that i thought he might have them for me too. But she was like? What... he's straight. But based on his behavior with me, I would definitely say otherwise... and she was like "why?" and I was like... I don't know...
ANYWHORE,
Basically as soon as I told her. We parted ways and then she immediately started talking to the boy I have a slight crush on, and It made me start to panic, did she really just go over to him and start sharing what i just told her? They all were looking at me strangely (could be paranoia) as i walked by them. And then i told her i was leaving, as I started to become scared and nervous... and she asked for a hug, so i gave her one, made a cross eyed face to the boy i liked. and he whispered "what was that? you okay" and i just said yeah and walked off...
Now, writing this all out makes me seem a lot more crazy than what was going on in my head. But now i am horribly frightened that she will begin to tell people what I told her. and that really makes me scared and nervous.
Because what if he really is straight, (i can't see how though, i mean, unsolicited back-rubs, dirty dancing lifts,telling me not to flirt with other people, jumping on me, telling me I'm cute and hot, constantly offering me food and gifts and medicine. offering to be my boyfriend, and protect me from other boys...tickling me, and more...)
do you think that she would go tell him? I mean... This girl really likes me but I don't know if i can trust her. I sent her a text saying to keep what i had shared between us... but I'm afraid it's too late.
Or am I over analyzing?