- Posted: Thu, 26 Apr 2012 13:37:44 +0000
Okay, I'm kinda unsure how to put this....
I find penises...kinda weird to look at and I don't much like looking at them at all.
I AM straight, just to get that out of the way. I cringe at the thought of a woman touching me in that way or having anything to do with a woman romantically. Just....never...ever....never ever.
Anyway...my sort of boyfriend ( it's complicated ) tends to send me pics every now and again of his p***s to me. Usually to a rise out of me because they tend to freak me out. Now, I don't want to be freaked out by them I don't. And I'm totally in love with him, and I....want to be able to look at ALL of him...but it just....weirds me so much and he doesn't understand and neither do I. Guessing because I'm way to innocent for an 18 year old girl...or teenager...or human should be. At least that's how he makes it out to be. Anyway.
Last night he decided to just randomly out of no where send me another pic and we went through our ritual ' Dude WHY? ' 'Cause I wanted to! ' Blah
Well last night he got very upset and swore he would never show me again because it just bothers me 'soooo muuuch.' and we got into a bit of an argument. I don't want him to hide it forever...and all I asked was for him to warn me before hand instead of just randomly sending me his wank for no damn reason and at all. But I felt I upset him because...I've generally denied a part of him that ...makes him....a dude. Ya know. I felt I demasculated him...because he swore up and down that no matter what he would NEVER let me see it again...
so...Generally...am I...a bad person for not wanting to see it and freaking out when I see it?
Is there anyone else who is totally straight but weirds when they see a p***s??
Yes I'm a virgin, he is too actually. Just incase you're wondering...but it should be obvious...hah...