Indigo_Stone
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- Posted: Tue, 21 Oct 2014 16:35:21 +0000
I came here and posted this topic two weeks ago - http://www.gaiaonline.com/forum/life-issues/i-have-a-question-gaia-relationship-related/t.94415767_11
Needless to say my boyfriend in question broke up with me after a fight that just got way out of hand. He hadnt messaged me much today and when he did it was about having sex which naturally hurt me. I'm an insecure person. I brought this up and he was mad. We didnt talk I apologised, Didnt talk then he asked when I was coming over and I asked if he was still mad. It just escalated from there and he started saying things that made it seem it was over. I bit and kept calling when I should have left it alone but I couldn't...
He said it was over in the text and had his phone turned off. I went there so he could say it to my face and he did. he was out and his brother let me in and I saw in his emails he was already looking for a f*** buddy but I thought seeing me might change things. But he didnt he was insistant which I respect.
But regardless I'm so devestated that I cannot sleep. I feel like I'm going to throw up constantly and combined with my crying headache making me never want to cry again I'm just not coping. Every break up feels like the end of the world. I feel strange almost like I'm in denial trying to force myself out but I cant. I need help. I need someone to talk to. This feels like a terrible nightmare.
I know his mum got in his ear and made it so much worse than it had to be. But it doesn't matter. Its over and its killing me. I'm scared that I wont be able to pull myself out of my depression. Please... Some body PM me... I just cant cope. I tried so hard to make things work.
Needless to say my boyfriend in question broke up with me after a fight that just got way out of hand. He hadnt messaged me much today and when he did it was about having sex which naturally hurt me. I'm an insecure person. I brought this up and he was mad. We didnt talk I apologised, Didnt talk then he asked when I was coming over and I asked if he was still mad. It just escalated from there and he started saying things that made it seem it was over. I bit and kept calling when I should have left it alone but I couldn't...
He said it was over in the text and had his phone turned off. I went there so he could say it to my face and he did. he was out and his brother let me in and I saw in his emails he was already looking for a f*** buddy but I thought seeing me might change things. But he didnt he was insistant which I respect.
But regardless I'm so devestated that I cannot sleep. I feel like I'm going to throw up constantly and combined with my crying headache making me never want to cry again I'm just not coping. Every break up feels like the end of the world. I feel strange almost like I'm in denial trying to force myself out but I cant. I need help. I need someone to talk to. This feels like a terrible nightmare.
I know his mum got in his ear and made it so much worse than it had to be. But it doesn't matter. Its over and its killing me. I'm scared that I wont be able to pull myself out of my depression. Please... Some body PM me... I just cant cope. I tried so hard to make things work.