“Well, he says he knows what's bin causin' his itchin',” the younger woman began in response to the question, nodding to man she was sitting next to. She was of very slight build, though she wore a gray sweatshirt that fit her like a tent. Strawberry blonde hair framed her pink, pocked face. “He says it gets worse, ya know, the bugs 'n stuff, when he's smokes pot.”
“Damnit Deb, don't tell the guy that! But yeah, maybe it makes 'em bite more or somethin'. It's like, whenever I do, they're like-”
H-hello?
Everyone stopped and looked towards the door. Zachary, who had been scratching a few notes put his pen down and glanced up in surprise. Although the attendance numbers varied from meeting to meeting, new members were quite rare.
“Hi there! You're here for the Morgellons group?” Zachary new the answer. In the quick seconds before the young man could hide his hands in his pockets there was a flash of painful red. For a fraction of a moment Zachary's welcoming smile was overshadowed by drooping eyelids and knitted brows, a micro-expression of sadness. His heart went out to all Morgellon's sufferers, but seeing someone so young, in college and full of life and dreams, struck him in a very personal way. “Don't worry, we just started, so just find a seat and we'll do some quick introductions. Let's just go around the circle and tell our names and a little bit ourselves.
My name is Zachary Silverstein, and I'm both the organizer of this therapy group and one of its patients. I have a bachelor's degree of science in psychopathology and a minor in neurology from Columbia University. I, myself, have been affected by Morgellons Disease for about three years. I've experienced the distrust and disrespect from doctors; diagnoses of delusions of parasitism and paranoia... I always wished for someone to talk to who didn't roll their eyes and tell me that my suffering was all in my head, and now I hope I can be that person for you. Dr. Peterson helped me to start this support group so we can all be that person for each other.” Zachary's cheeks became rosy and he looked bashfully down at his notebook, hoping he hadn't sounded like a complete idiot.
The young woman began speaking next, in her slightly whiny mid-western twang. “I'm Deb, and my boyfriend here is Jared. We both got Morgellon's a year ago when he was exposed to nanoparticles at the plant. He got it and then I got it, too. Every single day is a struggle. Some days are ok, but others, I just can't get atta bed.”
“The plant didn't do nothin' about it either,” Jared added as he fingered a lesion on the back of his neck. “One day my coworkers and I just started itchin', getting these bugs and s**t under our skin. Ten of us. But won't do nothin'. Won't even talk to us about it. Denyin' that we were ever exposed to anythin' dangerous.”
The oldest member of the group, a man in his fifties or so, sighed as it came to his turn. “Robert.” He sighed again and wrung his hands in his lap. Robert's face was gaunt, but for the most part unscarred, though his eyes were very red and watery and his otherwise full head of graying hair was patched with lesions and scars and areas where the hair appeared to have been torn out by its roots. “I don't know what's wrong with me...” He gave Zachary a fleeting glance, who responded with a nod. He need not say anymore. Robert had nearly used as many words today as he had in all of the meetings put together. He was a newcomer, still uncomfortable speaking with the group. Zachary didn't push much; attending the sessions and not talking was certainly better than being alone.
Jan would be next, and then, finally, today's newcomer.