The End of it ALL

[Shinigami of Justice]

"I think I'll be okay, I just need to get used to it." I think the crutches and hobble down to the cafeteria with Raven. My stomach growled loudly as I see the food in the lunch line and pile my plate with the delicious smelling food. I hope that people are lying when they say how horrible hospital food is because it sure does smell good.

I take a few bites of my pizza and then look to Raven as she's talking about her coffee. I giggle at and then cover my mouth, swallowing my food and then give her a huge smile "if you can figure out how to do that then you really might save the world." I say only half serious but know that people would probably actually do it. I stretch out my arms and then take a drink of water before letting out a soft sigh "I wish that I could do more. I don't feel like I'm doing enough." I frowned, looking down at my food. I'm not used to all the carbs in they're just making me more tired.

My Wardrobe: Looking perfect
The Company I keep: Raven, an intern from the hospital
Inside My Pretty Little Head: what have I gone and done now?
OoC:So far I think this is going very well

[ArchangelKay]

"your doing all you can do, with out any medical training or a degree there isn't much you can do," I reply sadly knowing that I was being a bring down. "besides you are helping your helping with the intake of patients and freeing up some nurses, we need as many nurses as we can get so your a big help" I smile kindly as I take a bite of my salad I notice Lydia seems even more tired now that its lunch time. "you know I can tell your body isn't use to junk food you could have grabbed a salad or you can have mine" I swap plates with the blonde handing her a clean fork and tearing off the bit of pizza she had bitten in to.

I am not a germaphobe but as we are unsure how the virus is spread its better to be safe then sorry. I could tell she was going to object so I cut her off before she could, "I don't want to hear it just eat you'll feel better, and I better get back to work so enjoy your lunch i'll see you when its home time" I reply as I dump the pizza and my coffee in the bin and head out to check on my patients.

the first patient I wanted to check on was the little boy, while he might have been the last patient I checked before lunch I couldn't bare the thought of not making sure he was ok. knocking on the door I enter to see his parents and older siblings by his bed side, he is sitting up and talking to them like any healthy child would be; I know he is trying to act brave as last night when he was admitted he told me how scared he was but wanted to be brave for his parents.

"how is the brave boy going" I smile as I check his vitals, he was slightly dehydrated and his fever had gone up a little since before lunch but other then that he was fine for now. after talking to his parents and him a little longer I put them at ease as much as I could, they weren't idiots they knew what was going to happen but each day was a blessing and I didn't want to take that from them. heading out of the room I promised him I would be back before I go home to check on him. I did the usual rounds checking from patient to patient until I was paged when an patient was rushed in to the emergency room.

[Shinigami of Justice]

I saw that Raven as she previously worked "thanks, I am trying but I'll never be able to help as much as you are. I could ever be a doctor, hands-on with the gory stuff is not my forte."

Trade me plates, I was afraid the pizza was going to make me sack. I sweetly smiled at her as I took a big bite of salad and moaned softly "this is so much better! I'm so not eating pizza ever again" after eating half my salad I look to Raven "how long do you think I'd have to save up before heading out West? Oh, am I getting paid for working here?" I said, not thinking about the situation clearly. Sure, helping out was nice but getting paid for helping out would be even better, especially when I didn't even have enough money to buy my own food.

My Wardrobe: Looking perfect
The Company I keep: Raven, an intern from the hospital
Inside My Pretty Little Head: what have I gone and done now?
OoC:So far I think this is going very well

[ArchangelKay]

I knew I should have stuck around to answer her questions but honestly why is she in such a rush to go out west, I mean yes I would love to be able to go and help out to but I suppose unlike her I have responsibilities and duties here. I cant just drop everything and drive for god knows how long out west to help try to find a cure.

as I rushed to the emergency room I see a man in the late stages of the virus getting rushed in, s**t this isn't good. grabbing a surgical mask I secure it to my face before checking over the patient and rushing him to in isolation; after dripping and prepping him I take his vitals and administer morphine to help sedate him a little bit so that we can examine him properly.

after his coughing fit and fitting stops he finally passes out, his heart rate is rapid and his breathing shallow I would be surprised at this rate he went in to cardiac arrest. quarantining him at least insures that we can try to stop the spread of the virus through the hospital and allow us the time we need to try and figure out what we can do to at least keep him stable enough to ask him some questions about the virus its self.

[Shinigami of Justice]

As Raven leaves I finish my salad and pick up our trays, carrying them to the trashcan and emptying the trash before sitting the tray on top of the slot that's on top of the trashcan. I did mine cleaning up Raven stuff because I knew that she was helping someone out that was in dire need. I just felt kind of bad that I was helping someone out that was in the and two.

I sighed as I hobbled my way or crutches back to the receptionist desk and relieve the nurse on duty "I've got here, you can go ahead and help someone that's in need." The woman gave me a fat smiled and nodded tiredly "thanks hon" she said as she moved along and walked down the hallway to check on the patient.

I spent the next several hours answering phones and it was quite clear that the virus was picking up, more people were getting a lot faster! I had to admit that it was really scary and I was more than a little afraid of getting it myself. I constantly used antibacterial gel and A mask on my face. I definitely did not want to get anything from being at the hospital.

My Wardrobe: Looking perfect
The Company I keep: Raven, an intern from the hospital
Inside My Pretty Little Head: what have I gone and done now?
OoC:So far I think this is going very well

[ArchangelKay]

we tried to question the patient but he was to out of it to focus on anything apart from sleep which is probably what is best for him at the moment. looking at the time I cant believe that its home time, stepping out of quarantine I am cleaned of any contaminates and head to the nurses station to get Lydia.

signing out for the day I ask one of the nurse how Lydia went and If she was in the way and thanked them for taking her in and showing her the ropes, the nurse gave a good feed back report which I was glad for I would hate to have to tell the blonde why she couldn't help out anymore. smiling I thank the nurse and look for Lydia.

"hey you ready to go home?" I ask tiredly as I see Lydia talking to a patient her pretty blonde hair is out of place and her face looks drained. she must be exhausted, I think to myself as I am sure this is the first day in her life she has actually worked and it must have been hard on her.

[Shinigami of Justice]

I exhaled loudly as I gave a patient some papers to fill out "I'm sorry your family is going through such a hard time, if there is anything at all I can do for you please let me know." The elderly woman nodded with a solid book on her face as she put her hand over mine "thank you dear, I know that you're doing as much as you can. It's nice just to see someone who is as caring as you. I've had a very hard time this month and sometimes it's just nice to see someone smile." I nodded "sometimes I just try to keep a positive attitude no matter what's going on in my life. Sometimes I pretend so well that it comes true." I say shrugging and then letting out a soft sigh "I hope things get better for you, were living in a rough world right now was very hard times."

I smile as I see Raven "sure, it be nice to get some rest. I'm exhausted!" I say as I brush my hair out of my face and slide on my bright yellow jacket, zipping it up. "I'm really glad that you drove in today because my ankle is throbbing." Raven and I slowly make our way out to the parking lot where her car is and I plopped down in the passenger seat, and silly falling asleep after I put my seatbelt on.

My Wardrobe: Looking perfect
The Company I keep: Raven, an intern from the hospital
Inside My Pretty Little Head: what have I gone and done now?
OoC:So far I think this is going very well

[ArchangelKay]

the drive home was quiet as she had fallen asleep as soon as she got in the car, pulling in to the underground garage I park and turn the car off. gently waking Lydia I inform her we are back home as I get out of the car, going inside I wait for her to get to the stairs to help her up them she seemed quiet and not like the girl I met this morning.

opening the door to the apartment I lead her to the couch and gently set her down, "ill start dinner just rest your foot" I reply sweetly as I head to the kitchen and start making a vegetable lasagne for the two of .

[Shinigami of Justice]

When I wake up it's to the sound of ravens voice telling me that were home. Soon I find myself hobbling up the stairs to the apartment and onto the couch. I hear Raven talk about making dinner but I can't keep my eyes open. I fall asleep sitting up on the couch and that's when I finally see my Nana.

In the dream, my Nana was making me lasagna. It smelled heavenly and I nearly drooled as I talked with her happily about my day at school. It was like I was really there, I could see her comforting smile and feel her hug me tight. If only the dream had been a reality, I woke up way too soon and Nana wasn't there anymore, she didn't even exist anymore.

[ArchangelKay]

pulling the vegetable lasagne out of the oven I slice it up and place it on two plates. it feels strange cooking for two the last time I had to cook for two was when my last boyfriend seemed to live at my apartment, I sigh remembering him I had thought he was the one until he betrayed me after that I dedicated myself to work and haven't dated since. shaking my head I place the plates on the coffee table and gently rock Lydia.

"Lydia dinner is ready, you need to eat then you can go back to sleep" I say softly as she starts to come to, sitting next to her I slowly start to eat my dinner but I could tell there was a lot on her mind. "whats on that mind of yours, your an open book you know you can talk to me right?" I place a gentle hand on her shoulder hoping to get her to open up.

[Shinigami of Justice]

I open my eyes slowly as Raven is shaking me "that looks good, thanks for making me dinner. I'm sorry for falling asleep on you, I really didn't mean to." I said as I take the plate of food and cut into lasagna with my fork for sliding the small portion into my mouth.

After cheering the bite of lasagna I give Raven a halfhearted smile "I was just dreaming about my Nana, I really really miss her and it's hard to keep my mind off of it. I mean, working all day did help a bit if I would've stayed here alone I would've gone crazy. No offense or anything, your place is really nice. I just don't want to be alone with my thoughts right now you know? How about you? What's been on your mind all day?" I say curiously as I take another bite of food.

[ArchangelKay]

"its ok I understand it is hard to lose someone so close to you and from what your grandmother told me and the way you acted when you visited her I can understand. just to let you know you aren't alone as I have lost people close to me before so I know the pain, just remember if you need to talk I am here" I half smile at her and leave it at that. I don't know her well enough to call her a friend let alone get in to my personal life, my personal life isn't happy it is dark and I try to block most of it out so the thought of even sharing or being vulnerable makes me shiver.

eating my lasagne in silence I know I am being rude but if Lydia wants to know anything she can ask personally, as I am not going to spill my guts to some princess who has had an easy life just for her to take pity on me or think she is doing a good deed.

the room was silent but that was broken by my phone ringing, err that cant be the hospital I just got home. I groan internally as I answer my phone. "hello, raven's phone raven speaking" I as formally as if it is work I don't want to be rude. the voice on the other end though wasn't that of work, as soon as I heard the voice my blood went cold and i instantly paled. after listening in to what they were saying I was shocked to say the least, I just a huh out of response so they knew I was still there; "ill see what I can do I am not making promises but ill see" I reply before hanging up. I knew I must have looked shaken by the news as i felt my hands shaking and my thoughts all over the place

[Shinigami of Justice]

Lydia just nodded and picked ay her lasagna. She didn't really know what to say to Raven or what she'd say to anyone at this rate. Losing her grandmother was devastating and the only way she could cope with it seemed to be just to distract herself.

Lydia had a mouthful of lasagna when Raven got a phone call that seem to show her through the bone. What was going on? It seemed to be something horrible because the girl was going extremely pale and seem to be perspiring. Raven swallowed hard as she knew something definitely was right. She really wanted to know what was going on but decided not to pry. She just finished her lasagna as she stared at Raven as if seeing a different person.

My Wardrobe: Looking perfect
The Company I keep: Raven, an intern from the hospital
Inside My Pretty Little Head: what have I gone and done now?
OoC:So far I think this is going very well

[ArchangelKay]

I look at Lydia and excuse myself, making my way to my bedroom I close the door and call the hospital. "hey its raven, I need to take a few weeks off. I need to head out west, I know that you need me here but I its a family emergency I am sorry" I know I twisted the truth but who are they to know If I did or didn't have a family emergency.

after arguing for thirty minutes they reluctantly let me take a few weeks off to deal with my so called family emergency. great now all I need to do is sort out what I am going to do with Lydia, I cant leave her here by herself but I don't want to take her with. maybe I can take her to a medical centre west then keep driving and deal with my business; I mean she wants to help out and I am sure she doesn't need me to hold her hand.

walking out the lounge room and sit down next to Lydia, "you know how you wanted to go out west were you serious?" I ask in a serious tone

[Shinigami of Justice]

Lydia tilted her head to the side, very curious as to what Raven was thinking "yes, I want to help people find a cure if there is one to be had. I know I'm not going to find it myself but I can definitely be a errand girl so that they will have more time on their hands for important matters." She said in a very serious town "are you okay Raven? When you were on the phone you seemed pretty shaken up."

My Wardrobe: Looking perfect
The Company I keep: Raven, an intern from the hospital
Inside My Pretty Little Head: what have I gone and done now?
OoC:So far I think this is going very well