Nirai Kanai Lanai
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Cassiel

'There is room for ten, maybe fifteen angels and supplies to support them for a few weeks at least. It is more than enough to cause a great deal of damage and there is no way for demons to reach us up here.” he replied to Skylar's question.
When Skylar spoke of heaven and forgiveness Cassiel shook his head. “I'm not the angel you think I am. Not any more. Don't throw your own future away for my sake. If you do that, then I will have truly lost everything. I can't follow you and I don't want you to follow me. The places I've been are darker than you can imagine and you don't want to go there. “
Cassiel looked down at the hall below them. How many times had he looked up at this cave? He had never thought he'd actually stand there. He never thought that he would be free again. But what Skylar was talking about was truly impossible. There was no way he could ever return to heaven, even if God forgave him. That was not the reason he had fallen.
“I know it's hard for you to understand, but I can never go back. I am a fallen angel for a reason. It's not a question of God forgiving me. It's that I can't forgive him. It hurts me to feel that way, it hurts more than anything a demon ever did to me, but it is how I feel. I don't want you to ever feel this way. An angel is not meant to feel this way. I know that this means I am broken and because of this I cannot lead. There are angels down there who need to be rescued. They need someone who has faith to do it. It has to be you. Please. “

'There is room for ten, maybe fifteen angels and supplies to support them for a few weeks at least. It is more than enough to cause a great deal of damage and there is no way for demons to reach us up here.” he replied to Skylar's question.
When Skylar spoke of heaven and forgiveness Cassiel shook his head. “I'm not the angel you think I am. Not any more. Don't throw your own future away for my sake. If you do that, then I will have truly lost everything. I can't follow you and I don't want you to follow me. The places I've been are darker than you can imagine and you don't want to go there. “
Cassiel looked down at the hall below them. How many times had he looked up at this cave? He had never thought he'd actually stand there. He never thought that he would be free again. But what Skylar was talking about was truly impossible. There was no way he could ever return to heaven, even if God forgave him. That was not the reason he had fallen.
“I know it's hard for you to understand, but I can never go back. I am a fallen angel for a reason. It's not a question of God forgiving me. It's that I can't forgive him. It hurts me to feel that way, it hurts more than anything a demon ever did to me, but it is how I feel. I don't want you to ever feel this way. An angel is not meant to feel this way. I know that this means I am broken and because of this I cannot lead. There are angels down there who need to be rescued. They need someone who has faith to do it. It has to be you. Please. “
Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all.
