Prologue
Tom Kaulitz layed in bed, restless. He wanted to be up, jamming with his brother and band mates, but Bill needed sleep. In the morning, they'd be on their first live television appearance; his at least, not Bill's. He couldn't believe their luck, fifteen years of age and two albums later put Devlish, no, Tokio Hotel on the map. And to think it was all owed to Bill who went on Star Search and sang 'It's Raining Men'. The thought made Tom mentally laugh; he loved teasing his brother about the song now that Bill actually understood what it was about because it made him embarrassed and blush, sometimes become uneasy.
The door to his bedroom opened. Tom pretended to be asleep so the person would leave.
"Tomi, you awake? I need to tell you something."
It was Bill, the only person who could shake Tom from his false slumber.
"What do you want, Bill? What is it?
He looked at his brother. In the darkness, he noticed Bill was shaking.
"We're twins. You can tell me anything, honestly."
Bill nodded and took a deep breath.
"Tomi, I don't know who else to tell...I don't even trust mom and dad."
"Say it already!"
Bill wrapped his arms haphazardly around his twin.
"Tomi, don't tell anyone, but I think...no...I know I'm gay."
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The memory lingered in Tom's mind constantly, even though it happened five years ago.