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Post: 57539861_1 created on Sat, 02 Jan 2010 00:20:14 +0000
Posted: Sat, 02 Jan 2010 00:20:14 +0000

will be made pretty laters.
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Post: 57539861_3 created on Sat, 02 Jan 2010 00:43:34 +0000
Posted: Sat, 02 Jan 2010 00:43:34 +0000

Skylar Levi Johnson
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yourwho xxthe boyfriend who stayed behind

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Post: 57539861_5 created on Sat, 02 Jan 2010 04:14:41 +0000
Posted: Sat, 02 Jan 2010 04:14:41 +0000

if i'm bound to forget you, don't you let me be
from the day that i met you i've been set on you
what a tragedy it'd be if you and me weren't happy

if you've been tellin all the tall tales end to end
since the day that we met and became good friends
then i've been lying too, is it really you

they say,
__________ things happen for a reason.
i'm not entirely sure if it is true or not,
___________________ but why can't they all be good things?

a lot of things happened after nic left,
_____________________________for war

at some point along the line,
getting drunk happened,
_________________ ( hey, I was gettin' lonely and depressed, I'm convinced he was going to get killed )

then Tracy.
______________tracy pulled me aside one party,
______________said she liked my eyes,
______________but couldn't she see how upset I was?
______________I was only there for the booze, and she
______________took. One month later, she tracks me down,
____________________________"Hey, remember me? Yeah, you got me pregnant.
____________________________You want it, or do you want me to give it up?"
______________ of course I was going to take it.
______ she's really not that bad, we've even become friends
______ surprisingly enough, Tracy was experimenting,
______ confirming that she was a lesbian with me.
____________ how... flattering.

____________i talked to her about nic
i mean, what else could I do?
she and I hardly had anything in common (other then the kid)
but
we still clicked

_______________________________________i've been mad at nic
_______________________________________and i don't really want
_______________________________________to be, but he left me
_______________________________________and could die, and why,
_______________________________________the military of all places,
_______________________________________they hate faggots

________________________I did read my boy's letters
________________________I did cry at my boy's letters
________________________I couldn't bring myself to
________________________respond. I didn't want to
________________________send one off and to never
________________________have it replied to. so I just read
________________________them over and over, and keep
________________________them on his side of the bed.

__________i'll admit, i still love him
__________but i can't love what
__________he left to do. I can't even
__________imagine what could happen
__________to him, or even the amount
__________of blood he made shed. I
__________know the people he'd fight
__________want to hurt him, but they
__________are people too. They have
__________families. not everyone is
__________a cold blooded war machine.

i'm much more for peace
now, i go to rallies, I give money
to organizations that help people
people who have been hurt from war
and not only from our war, but wars
in their own countries. My eyes were
opened to things like that after Nic
left, and I can't tell if that is a good or
bad thing.

it is a day like any other
making plans

Tracy wants me to take her
shopping, for the baby
its still inside her body,
what could it need?
____________________________ ( god, I'm not sure if I'm cut out for this parenting thing, I hope I get the hang of it )

but, the woman insists.
saying she wants to make sure
that this child will definitely be taken care of,
I'll be a single dad, after all right?
_________________ she doesn't want the baby to know she's the mom
I don't know why
____________________________"I'll settle for Auntie Tracy!"

its a few hours before she'll get here,
and i'm doing nothing,
_______________ I really haven't been doing much lately, i don't know why

and, there is a knock
___________expecting it just to be tracy, early,
what I see when I open the door,
_______________ my heart aches.

I never stopped loving him
___________ but I just can't accept it,
I just can't get an image of him dying out of my head,
____________ I didn't want him to go.

getting overwhelmed,
I do throw myself at him,
__________its been so long.
he smells the same, oh god.
all the shirts he left behind have long since faded,
________________ it hadn't been the same.

I didn't expect to have him standing before me ever again,
I honestly was expecting to get a call
they somehow found out about me, and called to say
that he was dead.

______________i clung to his shirt for a few moments when the
______________________________ tears fell.
_____________ pushing away, rubbing at my eyes,
___________________________________________"What... What are you doing here?"

oh, I still love you baby.
______________ but I just can't love you being a solider

say____________
hey, what's the big deal____________
oh, where'd all the fun go____________
since we got serious i've been such a mess____________
blame the stars or a bleeding heart...____________
what a tragedy, you and me____________

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Post: 57539861_7 created on Sat, 02 Jan 2010 05:52:18 +0000
Posted: Sat, 02 Jan 2010 05:52:18 +0000

if i'm bound to forget you, don't you let me be
from the day that i met you i've been set on you
what a tragedy it'd be if you and me weren't happy

if you've been tellin all the tall tales end to end
since the day that we met and became good friends
then i've been lying too, is it really you

When had the last time been when I heard his voice?
_____________ since he left.
it was hard, hearing his voice.
_____________________ the voice that used to make me melt.
it was hard because I almost couldn't believe it,
if his hands weren't on my waist, I'd think
I was hallucinating.

I really thought he was going to die. I really thought he was going to die.
I really thought he was going to die. I really thought he was going to die.
I really thought he was going to die. I really thought he was going to die.
I really thought he was going to die. I really thought he was going to die.

and now, I was almost ashamed
because here he was. not dead

but, he wanted to see me? needed to see me?
_____________________ then he shouldn't of left.
I'm looking up at him,
trying to see how he's changed
___________________I was told war changes people.
its changed me, I know, and I wasn't the one who left.

I want for everything to be okay,
I want everything to be normal again
_________________________ but can it?

He wanted to know what I was doing,
wanted to make it up to me.
_______________________ how was he supposed to do that?
________________________ he's been gone for so long, so
_________________________ long for a horrible reason.

I pull him inside and shut the door,
__________________ the neighbors.

the house was empty without him,
____________________ I didn't know what to do with it.
there was just so much dead space,
it was so quiet,
______________ and I used to be so neat and tidy.

its not really dirty I still mop and whatnot.
_____________ but its cluttered,
not so neat and organize like when nic left.

"I'm... Going shopping with a friend in a few hours."
_________________________________________________ I sound so weird.
"I'm not sure what else, I don't expect her to bring me out or anything. She's... pregnant."

oh, should I tell him I'm expecting a kid?
____________________ A baby girl?
What would that mean to him?
___________________ we never really... split, so technically I. cheated

I never thought of it like that,
__________________ and I suddenly feel so nervous,
I don't want him to know that,
_________________ even if, I'm not so sure about us anymore.

"Nic..." my forehead lands against his chest,
_________________ "I don't know anymore. I love you so much, but... What you did..."
how could I explain it to him?
_____________ did he kill people?
what sort of terror did he bring to innocent people?
_____________________________________ my idea of war was this big scary thing,
______ "You left me here. I can't... I thought you were going to die, and leave me for good."

say____________
hey, what's the big deal____________
oh, where'd all the fun go____________
since we got serious i've been such a mess____________
blame the stars or a bleeding heart...____________
what a tragedy, you and me____________

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Post: 57539861_9 created on Sat, 02 Jan 2010 09:59:13 +0000
Posted: Sat, 02 Jan 2010 09:59:13 +0000

if i'm bound to forget you, don't you let me be
from the day that i met you i've been set on you
what a tragedy it'd be if you and me weren't happy

if you've been tellin all the tall tales end to end
since the day that we met and became good friends
then i've been lying too, is it really you

here I was, crying again.
________________ its not my fault,
he's one of the only people who can
do this to me,
_____________________ I didn't even cry when my grandpa died,
and it was my grandparents who raised me,
so wouldn't that have a stronger impact?

_______________I don't know.

he's saying that he wouldn't let himself die.
_____________ what a stupid thing to say, really.
________ you can't help it if you die.
but, its a bit settling. knowing what he meant by it, that he was careful.

____________ but it wasn't like that was going to be enough.

His lips were comforting,
___________ mostly because I had missed him so much,

haha, look at this.
________ the friends I made
who hate war as much as I do would just flip
that the one I love, is a soldier,

______________________ a dirty rotten baby killer.

there are so many things I want to say to him
_________________ but, not seeing him for so long makes me forget.
I should be angry with him, to his face,
_____________ but I'm kissing him back,
_______________________ and gripping him tight.

________________________________________ maybe I'll chew him out later,
_________________________________ once I get used to his scent again.
I'm torn between two different things.
my need for him,
___________ and my need to stand by my little grudge.
"how would you make things right then?"

say____________
hey, what's the big deal____________
oh, where'd all the fun go____________
since we got serious i've been such a mess____________
blame the stars or a bleeding heart...____________
what a tragedy, you and me____________

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Post: 57539861_11 created on Sat, 02 Jan 2010 21:17:03 +0000
Posted: Sat, 02 Jan 2010 21:17:03 +0000

if i'm bound to forget you, don't you let me be
from the day that i met you i've been set on you
what a tragedy it'd be if you and me weren't happy

if you've been tellin all the tall tales end to end
since the day that we met and became good friends
then i've been lying too, is it really you

how could I be so sure?
___________ what can't he do without me?
________ I was confused,
_____ and I was getting lost in him,

reunions like these in the movies
had always brought tears to my eyes,
I had this little hope inside of me,
that he'd be at the door,
______ and he'd suprise me,
I did want him to come back,
but I had been scared of it,
________________ but even more scared of him never coming back.

I pulled myself into him once again,
____________ holding him tight to my body,
it was nice to be able to breathe him in,
to feel him there in my arms,

____________________________ I was brought into reality once the knocking started

"Skylar! Come on, I don't feel like going any later then this,
your k-"

__________________ I don't think I've moved as fast as I did then ever before.
I ripped the door open and just suddenly pulled her into a hug,
catching Tracy off gaurd.
__________________ I couldn't think of anything else that woulld of meant me pushing her.

"Whoah whoah whoah! Whats wrong-?" She was confused,
but whispered to her ear.

"Nic... I don't want him to know" Obviously, I hope she knows what I'm talking about.

I look at her, and she looks at me, nodding.

_____________________ we both know that I can't keep it a secret forever.

"Tracy, this is Nic..." I look over to him,
now holding on to her arm for comfort.
__________________ I didn't know what I had been doing,
________________ "I've heard so much about you!" But, she probably wasn't as cheerful as she sounded, Tracy was a good actress.

say____________
hey, what's the big deal____________
oh, where'd all the fun go____________
since we got serious i've been such a mess____________
blame the stars or a bleeding heart...____________
what a tragedy, you and me____________

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Post: 57539861_13 created on Sun, 03 Jan 2010 03:08:33 +0000
Posted: Sun, 03 Jan 2010 03:08:33 +0000

if i'm bound to forget you, don't you let me be
from the day that i met you i've been set on you
what a tragedy it'd be if you and me weren't happy

if you've been tellin all the tall tales end to end
since the day that we met and became good friends
then i've been lying too, is it really you

I'm sorry.
_____________ you just got here, and I'm running off,
but I really need to think, babe.
______________ I can't really think with him in front of me,
______ god, I sound like a girl.

_________________________"Yeah. Yeah, of course you can.
I'm sorry for running off, but... I already had plans."

I let go of Tracy, and walk over to Nic,
_____________ nervous habit, I smooth out the front of his shirt
"I want to... Talk with you later anyway."
_________ I give him a slow kiss, a kiss goodbye?
I almost want to cancel,
___________ because I'm scared I'll come back and find out
all he is is a hallucination.

"Ugh, come on Skylar, If wanted to see some
steamy kisses, I'd raid your porn. "
I can hear the impatience in her voice.
_______________________ she's like that, but I find it amusing.
will my little girl be that strong? crap, why me?

"I have to piss though, I'll give you two a moment. " She laughs and brushes past us into the house in her pregnant manner.
_____________________ makes me glad I'm not a woman.
_________________________ it would be hell.

I take the opportunity to kiss him again,
________________________ on the neck, lips, ear.
screw it, I can still make out with him right now,
_____________________________ I just missed him a lot.
It'll be business later, right?

"Alright, I'm done. Lets go Skylar."
_________________________ She goes out to my car, leaning against it because its locked.

I pull away from Nic,
"Sorry... I'll see you later?" That better be true, better be so damned true.

_________________________ I trust him, ( at least I hope so ) so I just grab my keys and leave,

it was his house too,
___________ Nic just hasn't been here in a while.

I make Tracy drive,
_______________ because once I'm in the car,
I'm bawling again.

say____________
hey, what's the big deal____________
oh, where'd all the fun go____________
since we got serious i've been such a mess____________
blame the stars or a bleeding heart...____________
what a tragedy, you and me____________

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Post: 57539861_15 created on Sun, 03 Jan 2010 04:35:29 +0000
Posted: Sun, 03 Jan 2010 04:35:29 +0000

if i'm bound to forget you, don't you let me be
from the day that i met you i've been set on you
what a tragedy it'd be if you and me weren't happy

if you've been tellin all the tall tales end to end
since the day that we met and became good friends
then i've been lying too, is it really you

Hey look,
a gay boy who isn't enjoying shopping right now
_______________ whats funny though
_______________ is that these old people,
_______________ and even young ones
_______________ smile at me and Tracy
_______________ thinking we are an expecting
_______________ young couple, real happy _______________ and dandy and all that s**t.
______________________________If only they knew

knew that I was pretty faggy,
______________ and that my boyfriend just came back from war,
and that this girl here was expecting my child,
_____ and he didn't know,
and things were kinda iffy,
but I missed him so much.

____________________________ Ugh! FML!

Tracy was my shoulder,
____ and she listened to my bitching,
offered advice,
and a ______________ I'll kick his a**!

She was really okay.

I force Tracy to take the baby things
_________________ for now, I can't let nic know!

and I was back home again, with a goodbye and a firm good luck hug.

____________________ I'm home and its quiet

oh god...... he...
_________________ left?
Frantically,
__________ I'm looking around the house,
__________________________________________________ had I gone crazy?

but eventually, I find him in my our bed.
_____________ I sigh and whimper,
and kick off my shoes by the door.
slowly, so I don't wake him up,
__________ I lay down next to nic.
feeling his warmth,
its been so long, I missed it.
I just observe him,
_______________ his face,
its the same
________________ but different.
he's lived through stuff I haven't,
______________________ stuff I couldn't be there for him

but was I going to be there for him now?

say____________
hey, what's the big deal____________
oh, where'd all the fun go____________
since we got serious i've been such a mess____________
blame the stars or a bleeding heart...____________
what a tragedy, you and me____________

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