ϒσυ`яε иστhiηg ωiτhσυτ Mε

[Astaisia]

Mary had a little lamb....

A small blush had krept to his cheeks hearing that his own Aniki had declaired him curious. Was he really? Did he always want to know what was really going on? It didnt seem that way to him, he gave a pout and rubbed his cheek against his Aniki's, sighing silently to himself and slid his fingers through the elders hair in slow, loving motions. It was moments like this he cherished the most, where he can just with his Aniki and know that their parents couldnt come between them. They where a sin to man, but it was such a pleasing sin, how could he possibly let something like this go? He couldnt, since the day he was born they wouldnt have been normal brothers it was like, they where related without bieng related. They where through blood, but there wasnt that feeling internally that made you feel as if you where brothers. That state of mind wasnt present, and he doubted it ever would be. Soul mates through siblings, thats how it seemed. So long ago bolth of them would have been executed long ago for such conduct, the church would have been so nosy and everyone was out to get each other. They where today, but things where no longuer so obvious like they had been many, many years ago.

"Niisan, what ever would make you think I would betray you? No matter what you do I'l follow you to hell and back...
If I've no choice but to have a dorm due to distance I expect it just to be myself and no one else, and Piko would have to come too."

He was excited to screw around with everyone once he arrived at the school, and his Aniki had probably had him change schools already without him knowing. After all, the school he was going to now was probably in ruins since he had been kidnapped and would require reconstruction. Once he got there he could prowl around the school grounds and do whatever he wished, all because the Akatsuki practically owned the school and his Aniki was the principal and that was even sweeter. But he couldnt push his boundries, he knew his Aniki was twisted and would most certainly do something to him if he went to far. The idea of what he may do to him certainly peeked his curiosity. He licked his lips and gazed at his Aniki in wonder. What would there be going through his mind? What would he come up with? Would it be painful or simply delicious? Perhaps he'd be like Sasori and what he does to Deidara when he's bieng a whore around him. Returning his thoughts to the present world he gave his Aniki a look of sympathy and pressed his forehead to his Aniki's and placed a gentle kid to the tip of the elders nose and giggled to himself.

"There will always be enough tears in your body to cry if you allow it Niisan...

Now, take me to our dearest blond I want to see how he's doing."

Pushing his Aniki away from the ledge, he slid himself to his feet and grasped the elders hand. He smiled up at his Aniki and looked to the door. There, with wide, blue eyes was Piko with cute little Bengal watching them curiously through the glass door. Was that how Sasuke seemed to his Aniki? A curious kitten getting himself into all sorts of trouble? Sure he'd like to have a little fun sometimes but did he honestly cause that many problems to be labelled a 'curious kitten'? That thought will always bounce within the confinements of his mind and leave him confused as to what was really going on within the mind of his Aniki. He'd never know what the elder was thinking and he was half way to begging for understanding of what was trully going on in his twisted mind. Pulling the door open the kitten had let out a quiet mew and rubbed its body against his leg. He released his Aniki's hand and picked up the cat and ran his fingers through its thick fur, he was so glad he was allowed to have a cat such as this. It made things certainly feel more like home and he had always wanted a pet. The animal rubbed its little white face against his and purred loudly against his skin. He'd certainly take this adorable animal with him to try and brighten up Deidara's day. Did Deidara even like cats? Maybe he was a dog person...or maybe he didnt like animals at all. He would find out soon enough.

"Where did Sasori find him?"

He looked up at the elder and gave a small smile, stepping through the door of his Aniki's office and into the side room. He peeked his head through the door, on the couch neerby was a little bundle of red, yellow and white huddled into a little ball on the couch. Beside him, on the floor, leaning against the couch was Sasori. He gave the door a small knock before completly pushing it open and stepped inside. The kitten squirmed in his arms, jumped out of his grasp and wandered over to the couch and jumped onto the top and sat down. The blond looked horrible, completly battered and covered in bandages. He was sure, beneath the white, and blood stained pieces of fabric where horrific cuts, and bruises that looked just as bad as Sai's. Bolth of them had gone through so much hell all because of him and he couldnt help but feel bad. A single, flat blue eye looked up at him, though no smile had graced the usually happy bomber the room had suddenly gotten a dark feeling to it and his light cheerful mood had also been extinguished by the sight of Deidara. What happened to the strong willed, beautiful blond to make him completly loose the joy in his eyes. He knelt by the couch, sitting on his knees and pat the blonds knotted hair. Things where silent for what felt like an eternity until Deidara had forced himself to sit on his elbows with a few cracks as his joins groaned in agony before completly setting himself on his severly soar bottom and drapped his arms around the little Uchiha. Raising his head from the crook of Sasuke's neck, he slid his shaky fingers through the little Uchiha's short hair and placed a long, but small kiss to the boy's cheek.

"I'm sorry Dei...
You shouldnt be moving."

"Its okay, un...
Dont worry to much about me alright."

...His eyes as black as coal.

If we play very quiet my love...Mary never has to know.

[Lovelie Antics]

I am the Darkness

I ҡиσω τℎατ ∂ ε ε ρ iи yσυя ℎ ε α я τ,

The dreams that haunt you at Night

ϒσυ ҡиσω ωεℓℓ ωε ςαииστ bε α ρ α я τ.

I will never stop

βεςαυƨε yσυя ℎ ε α я τ αи∂ b σ ∂ y αgяεε,

Until I get what I desire most

τℎατ yσυ αяε и σ τ ℎ i и g ωiτℎσυτ mε.

The child without a name grew up to be the hand
To watch you, to shield you, or kill on demand
The choice he'd made he could not comprehend
His blood a grim secret they had to commend
He's torn between his honor and the true love of his life
He prayed for both but was denied

● Tℎε ● βяiℓℓiαиτ ● ζяimƨσи ● Mσσи ●
⎡Can we ever find true happiness together? Was it meant to be?⎦

Why did it feel like that the Uchiha brothers weren’t exactly brothers? Why did their relationship to go this far where they could rarely see each other as real flesh and blood? Yes, their appearances looked similar and that what is genetically encoded in their DNA is so very similar, however whatever was running through both their minds, they knew that it seemed so right. Who else in the world could be as comparable to the beauty of the Uchiha family, but the Uchihas themselves? There wasn’t anyone else that could be more superior to their family, let alone equal to them. It physically wasn’t possible. Above all else, Itachi and Sasuke belonged together as soul mates. They matched each other perfectly because they were brothers. Incest was indeed one of the highest sin any person could have committed, however their relationship felt so right. There wasn’t any other person in the world that could make the elder Uchiha feel this strongly about another like how Sasuke did. It was almost as if some king of higher being answered his calls for someone to prevent himself from being lonely and then the little Uchiha came into his life. Itachi didn’t know whether to call it a blessing or curse because how ever one looked at it, there were its disadvantages as well as advantages.

“Betrayal is common among brothers as well as lovers. One may never know what a person is thinking in the depths of their mind.
I can have that arranged for your liking, Sasuke. I will have the dorm room prepared before you need to go to school.
Before I forget, this school that you are going to is actually and all-boys academy, so I think you will enjoy that a lot better.”

The elder Uchiha knew that his little brother would love going to a new school since there were other new people to play around with. Sure he cared about that kind of thing going around, though Sasuke was still considered a teenager and that’s really all that teenagers usually do. Itachi wouldn’t exactly hold that against his brother, however there will always be punishment involved with every offence that he feels the need to reprimand. It was essential to know how far the younger could go without getting into trouble, though he would make the punishments out of any little thing. There were strict rules upon showing public affections in classrooms and since this was an all-male school, there was certainly more delinquents than anywhere else. And more delinquents always meant more punishments for the students. Though their punishments were of course going to be different than what Sasuke would have to go through. The little Uchiha would go through some pain as well as pleasure depending how sluttish the boy will become after everything. Look at Deidara who shows off every piece of his assets to the world without any shame. It was because of what Sasori trained the blond to become and that’s why the little slut has become the way he is.

“You won’t ever understand, Sasuke.
I shall my little prince.”

Taking the younger’s hands into his own, Itachi kissed his fingertips and slightly nipped at them. He looked to where Sasuke was also staring at and saw it was the little kitten just watching them. It was kind of creepy, however that’s what the elder meant by his brother being a ‘curious kitten.’ Piko was the perfect example of what he meant by those words. The cat did whatever the hell it wanted to do and because of such a cute face could get away with anything. That’s what he meant by Sasuke being the same thing. He had his way, even if it was the most unreasonable thing to actually attain in the end. However, his brother gotten the best that was possible. Itachi wanted to give him everything that he himself could give to his precious otouto. Because he could in the younger’s childhood, this was the least that the elder could have done. They lived through hell and back and yet everything had to be perfect for his brother. Though the curious kitten always gotten into trouble, whether a cute face or not. There was always some punishment involved. Sasuke has been through so much because of his curiosity. Look where he, Deidara and Sai ended up. They were trapped in an old enemy’s lair and hurt to extremities. One was lying in the hospital while the other was still attempting to regain his strength.

“I don’t believe he had said anything about it.
Why don’t you ask him for yourself?”

They walked to the room connecting to his office where everything laid still and dark. The red head didn’t turn any more lights than the only ones that the elder Uchiha had already done before. It didn’t even seem like neither the red head nor the blond have moved an inch from their spots. Itachi kept his distance, cross his arms and leaning his side against the doorframe. The blond looked like he had been in a horror film if anyone didn’t know any better. Bed sheets were drenched in crimson blood, black and blue bruises planted on the blonde’s skin and there was probably so much more that the elder couldn’t even see from this distance. Though what caught the Uchiha’s attention more was the flat, cerulean eye just staring back at his younger brother with no expression whatsoever. Deidara has never been that way before. Those beautiful, blue eyes were once famous for being so lively and bright, however now it was just utterly lifeless, which sent a pang in the elder’s insides. He should have been there to protect the blond just as Sasori was there for his otouto, but he wasn’t. Itachi could have done something, anything, though he did nothing in response. One could even say that the elder Uchiha blames himself for what happened to the blond. He walked over to the red head that just sat there with completely tired eyes and placed a gentle hand on his shoulder. Though at the tone of Sasori’s voice, he retreated that said hand.

“Sasori, you should rest. You have been awake for sometime and need rest.”

[******** off, you know nothing Itachi.”

So many dreams were broken and so much was sacrificed
Was it worth the ones we loved and had to leave behind
So many years have passed, who are the noble and the wise?
Will all our sins be justified?
Please forgive me for the sorrow
For leaving you in fear
For the dreams we had to silence
That's all they'll ever be
Still I'll be the hand that serves you
Though you'll not see that it is me

xxxxxxxxxxxHαviиg ωαƨℎε∂ ∂σωи my ∂яy τℎяσατ,

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[Astaisia]

Mary had a little lamb....

Small bandaged wrapped hands burried themselves in Raven Locks, a sigh escaped the blonds lips as he lone, flat eye examined the Ravenette before him, what a beauty. The world would have been destroyed if anything happened to the elder Uchiha's sweet life force. The little Uchiha smiled to the gentle hands that messaged his scalp and layed his head lightly in his lap, the foor thing was literally covered in bandages. Would he had survived the torture Deidara had gone through? Would his Uchiha blood save him from peril Sai aswell as the blond had endured? The red heads anger towards his Aniki caused the young Uchiha to jump in suprise and raise his head, the calm atmostphere around them had suddently felt hostile between the two older males.

"Danna, please its not his fault, un..."

The blond slid away from the younger Uchiha and slid his little hands into his elders and gave a gentle smile, carressing his cheeks, he turned his Danna's head to face him and gave him a hard, yet deep kiss. Sasuke's dark eyes glared angrily at the red head for his distate towards his Aniki. What happened wasnt his fault...Was it? He didnt doubt his brother despite the lies, whatever his brother did was for the greater good and he sacrificed everything just so that life could be better. Either way, the kidnapping was bound to happen because of that damn snake's obsession with him and Deidara would have gotten involved anyway because of his attachments, the blond was much to loving. But then again, he himself easily grew attached to other people. A small groat returned him to reality. The blond was hunched over grasping his abdomen in obvious agony. The things they had forced into his body where an undescribable horror, barbed wire certianly didnt belong in the human body. The small, white sheet under his body had been died a bright red beneath him, how bad was his internal damaga? Laying on his side, the blond brought his knees to his chest, and a small moan like wimper echoed in his throat.

"Dei!?"

Leaning closer to the blonds face, he ran his fingers through his knotted hair and sighed. The blat, blue eye stared with indifference at the boy who played with his hair. Forcing himself to sit up, the blond grasped the back of the Ravenette's hair and forced him into a kiss despite his Aniki bieng present, he would deal with the consiquences later but atleast this would relieve the younger Uchiha of his worries for the time bieng. But you couldnt deny that Deidara was a slut, infact one that was well trained by Sasori but he had never seen him this hungry for loving affection instead of one that was lustfull from anyone around him. Now, he could see his Danna really did love him to spend so much time looking for his precious blond and it really, made Deidara happy even if right now, the odds of him bieng capable of showing it where almost impossible until his mind had healed. It made you wonder, was that fun loving, playful blond nothing more? Was he broken? Completely shattered and never to return. Removing his lips from the blonds, he alloyed the other male to burry his face in his shoulder. He glanced to his Aniki with worried eyes, unsure of what he should do about the situation before raising the blonds shoulders and laying him back on the couch.

"Niisan, I think we need to bring him to the hospital..."

Returning to his Aniki's side, he slid his hand in his elders and layed his head against his arm and sighed. The poor thing didnt deserve this pain, would his damage require surgery? Or would he have to deal with permanent damage for the rest of his life? Then there was the thought of his first, real sexual moment with his Aniki. Would he become like Deidara? A person who would bend to someones will with just a simple touch? Wasnt he himself already like that? A virgin whore? If his throughts where correct he'd already claim himself such a thing, he already writhed against his Aniki's hand if he so much as placed it to his arm, or played with his hair. Sasuke fed off his Aniki's attention and the elder was glad to give it. The idea of bieng a slut for his Aniki actually was quite pleasing and a strangely arousing thought. He'd please his elder in any way possible if he allowed it. But, he knew that his own happiness no matter what he tried to do would most likely, always come first.

Climbing into his Aniki's arms he wrapped his legs around the enders waist and layed his head in his shoulder, slidding an around around his other side and played with his hair. Sai nearly died or from what he feels is stil ldying, and here was Deidara bleeding and in extreme agony. All for what? To protect him just like his Aniki did growing up because it was only him who would take care of him and not his parents. His Aniki went through hell and back for him just like these three had and the throught really tugged at his heart. Deep down, he felt that this was his fault. Maybe, just maybe if they didnt try to keep him safe, this would have never happened...but if it didnt, would he be here with them, aswell as his Aniki?

"This is my fault isnt it Niisan..."

...His eyes as black as coal.

If we play very quiet my love...Mary never has to know.

[Lovelie Antics]

I am the Darkness

I ҡиσω τℎατ ∂ ε ε ρ iи yσυя ℎ ε α я τ,

The dreams that haunt you at Night

ϒσυ ҡиσω ωεℓℓ ωε ςαииστ bε α ρ α я τ.

I will never stop

βεςαυƨε yσυя ℎ ε α я τ αи∂ b σ ∂ y αgяεε,

Until I get what I desire most

τℎατ yσυ αяε и σ τ ℎ i и g ωiτℎσυτ mε.

The child without a name grew up to be the hand
To watch you, to shield you, or kill on demand
The choice he'd made he could not comprehend
His blood a grim secret they had to commend
He's torn between his honor and the true love of his life
He prayed for both but was denied

● Tℎε ● βяiℓℓiαиτ ● ζяimƨσи ● Mσσи ●
⎡Can we ever find true happiness together? Was it meant to be?⎦

The red head wanted to strangle the elder Uchiha. Even if it wasn’t his fault and even if the Uchiha was one of the most powerful assassins in Japan, Sasori was sure as hell that he didn’t care. It was the damned Uchiha’s fault that his precious blond lover was in this nasty situation here. It was supposed to be Sasuke lying here on this couch or actually dead. If Sasori weren’t there to protect the younger male, he would have been long gone from home and somewhere lost in Japan. Itachi should be unrelentingly thanking the red head for protecting his little brother, his lover. Itachi should give his life up as a compensation for saving his lover’s own. Though somehow he was nice enough to actually not make that as an agreement because they were friends, however now Sasori was thinking if he should do something more as a compensation for the injuries of his own lover. The red head was most unmistakably angry because of what happened. It wasn’t as if he was taking blame for anyone for what happened, even if his anger was taken out on the elder Uchiha. It was only to let out his anger because it was his own fault for not protecting Deidara in the midst of their ambush. Sasori could be such a contradiction, but he was only this way because of his lover. Without his lover, the red head was practically nothing. Without Deidara, he would be lost in this world, trying to find his way. If the blond wasn’t alive, all hell would break lose and everyone and everything would be dead in Japan, whether friend, civilian or foe.

There was almost going to have a fistfight break lose if Deidara didn’t stop him and Itachi probably felt it as well. Sasori thanked whoever god was up there in the beyond for his lover to still be alive. If he weren’t, the red head would feel so alone that everything else wouldn’t matter anymore. Their lips pressed forcefully, but he was the one to dominate over the blond. The elder Uchiha gazed at his precious otouto and placed a hand on his shoulder, almost saying that it was all right for the red head to snap at him just as he had done moments ago. It wasn’t his fault for being this hostile because he almost lost his lover twice in one day. What happened to Deidara was something that he knew that Sasori wouldn’t forgive him for a while, even when they were both somewhat at fault. The two older males were supposed to be the superiors that would save the underlings under any condition. Sai and Deidara had gotten hurt because of both their recklessness. One of them was lying in the couch while the other was probably under an intense care unit of the hospital. They were both at fault because more than one person had gotten hurt in the worst way possible. The two males were violated in the most brutal way possible that Itachi couldn’t imagine it himself. And if this happened to Sasuke, the elder Uchiha would want to kill everyone and everything in sight, much like how Sasori would do at this very moment as well. A piercing scream echoed throughout the room, which could only be emitted by the red head’s lover. Just how horribly was Deidara tortured? This must be the same for Sai as well.

Though the piercing scream ripped through the silent air. He couldn’t help, but to wince at such a disturbing sound slicing through all their ears. Itachi hasn’t heard that kind of scream ever since his precious otouto saw the dead bodies of their parents since a whole year ago. As he saw the kiss between the two submissive males, Itachi felt that he was almost being thrown out like a rag doll. His heart wrenched at the sight of them sharing some kind of passionate kiss. The elder male moved away from the trio group and took his place again near the exit of the door, while crossing his arms at the sight. Did the blond have no courtesy to do that in front of his lover as well as the younger Uchiha’s lover? It was a very slutty move, however it seemed that the blond wanted more loving affection than something filled with lust. Itachi couldn’t blame the blond though. The young blonde has been through a lot these past couple of days. Though from an understanding point, Deidara had to do what he had to in order to calm his brother down. None of them needed a panicky person in a situation such as this. Sasuke was honestly quick to judge the situation without thinking about it from a rational point of view. Well, his little brother was always like that even when they were younger. Any pain that was inflicted onto Itachi from their father, his precious otouto would have anxiety and be overly hysterical because of a little blood. Well perhaps that was more or less an understatement since there was always a lot of blood present when their father abused him.

“Yes, it seems that we need bring Deidara to the hospital, Sasori?”

“I will bring him. Meet us there?
I’m sure that Deidara would like to see both of you there…”

Fingers and hands intertwined with each other and Itachi also sighed. Times like this were nice, however he couldn’t forget that kiss that Sasuke shared with Deidara. It wasn’t like he would do anything like that so openly in front of his little brother because he knew that it would hurt the younger male. Perhaps he would do it in private, but that wasn’t the point. And neither was the fact that the kiss looked pretty hot and the elder male was actually turned on by it… Maybe Sasori was also turned on by the small act between the younger males. He sighed again, knowing that they won’t have any type of private moment for a while. The Uchiha brothers somehow could never be alone because of some certain people or certain situations. It was irritating most of the time, however the elder male had gotten used to it by now. Though Itachi wonder how his beloved otouto would act after their first most intimate act is finally fully achieved? Would Sasuke act like a little slut just like the blond? Or would he ask for so much more at all times like a simple touch or kiss would pull him over the edge? Either way, the elder male would enjoy that very much. He could finally understand how Sasori feels with the little blond. Always being called ‘danna,’ that must have felt nice just as Kimimaro called the elder Uchiha the same title. As the two brothers were holding onto each other, the red head wrapped a fresh, new sheet around the blond’s torso, Sasori picked him up into his arms, already heading to drive him to the same hospital as where Sai was currently.

Itachi carried his little brother into his arms. It wasn’t so bad because: one, he was already used to the feeling of having his brother in his arms and two, Sasuke wasn’t even heavy at all. All that time apart even made the little one lose so much weight, probably even back then the younger male was a little heavier than what he was currently. The older male stroked his brother’s back in soothing circles, attempting to calm him. This wasn’t his fault because he didn’t do anything wrong. Sasuke was only being Sasuke and that’s what that damned snake wanted in the end. Sai and Deidara only wanted to protect his little brother because it was their mission assigned. It wasn’t like those two went looking for trouble and it wasn’t like they were asking for it either. It was something that just unfortunately happened to them. Itachi certainly didn’t blame him for what happened. No one could have predicted that the snake would hold those two captive just to get to his cherished brother. That was unpredictable since no one could ever know what that person was thinking, even his own subordinates didn’t understand that man. Though the elder male was happy that barely anything happened to his otouto other than being kidnapped, at least he didn’t end up the way that his juniors ended up.

“My little lamb, it’s not your fault. Orochimaru found out about you and couldn’t help to want you. I couldn’t protect you on my own… I was the one who is at fault. I failed you.
Now, go change so we could go to the hospital and visit Sai and now Deidara.”

So many dreams were broken and so much was sacrificed
Was it worth the ones we loved and had to leave behind
So many years have passed, who are the noble and the wise?
Will all our sins be justified?
Please forgive me for the sorrow
For leaving you in fear
For the dreams we had to silence
That's all they'll ever be
Still I'll be the hand that serves you
Though you'll not see that it is me

xxxxxxxxxxxHαviиg ωαƨℎε∂ ∂σωи my ∂яy τℎяσατ,

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxyσυя иαmε ωiℓℓ mσiƨτεи my ℎεαяτ.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxHσω mαиy ςυτƨ ƨℎσυℓ∂ I яερεατ?

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxHσω mαиy fατεƨ ƨℎσυℓ∂ I αςςερτ?

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