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Fritzi Fritzi Fritzi Fritz picked up on Eponine's almost teasing remark about a possible prison sentence if she explained any further about her knowledge of the Resistance. And though it was be musingly eerie how he had figured she would jump to that probable scenario, the young soldier couldn't help but feel a little dismayed that she was even joking about the matter - but can you blame her? After all, his first instinct was to arrest her! Her logical, and understandable, fear over the possible outcome of revealing her information to him, was more than fair and thus, even a taunting remark should be taken with stride - so in the end he did (take in stride, that is). He hoped that with his still frazzled nerves, that Eponine wouldn't be able to tell his initial hurt feelings over the comment, especially since as soon as she tugged at his hand, those feelings melted away - replaced with a warmness that only a fellow caring human could provide. As soon as the gesture was made, Fritz felt lightened and her initial reply was simply a distant memory already.
In fact, as soon as she smiled coyly, and made her remark about tea not agreeing with him, Fritz barely contained the chuckle. His hand still held hers, and especially so, as his mind wandered back to afternoons spent with his family drinking the warm beverage for relaxation and common medicinal purposes. Germans had a thing about their tea . . . Focus. Fritz looked back at Eponine, and even leaned into her little bit, nodding at the proposal of a finer beverage brought up to the apartment. And before anything else was said - she departed, declaring that she'd be right back, before heading downstairs as quickly as she could . . .
It wasn't until her apartment door shut behind her, that Fritz hopped to his feet, and nervously ran long, gauzed covered fingers through his hair. What was he thinking?! What was he doing? Everything in his educated intellect told him to run after Eponine, and arrest her - but he couldnt. Everything, right down to his core, forced him to pace along the sofa, slowly inching his way to the door. And though his body hovered in front of it, his hands trembled at the thought of swinging the door open, and doing what his conscious screamed at him to do . . . His hands trembled, because his very soul was screaming right back with an infinite "no" And why? Why would he risk everything?!
Fritz leaned against the door frame, his muscular arms crossing over his chest, and his feet crossing at the ankles. He tried to really process the reasoning behind his upcoming actions, and though most would assume it was because of Eponine, it was really because of Maria. She had risked everything in order to save just a few lives, and in the end, she paid that penalty with her own. And no one (not even Maria herself) told him about, not even his own sister, until months afterwards. His sister had to lie to him every time he wrote to her, asking why Maria wasn't writing him. And every time, Anna had to make up one excuse after another, out of fear that they would read her letters to check for "unbecoming facts". And why did everyone lie about her death, much less pretend that how she died wasn't important? It was because, deep down, everyone knew it was wrong. Because if they honestly believed killing a Jew supporter was okay, then they would have told Fritz the truth a lot sooner. But no, they knew it was wrong . . . they knew . . . And so did he.
All his life, Fritz played it safe, even at the cost of seeing injustice all around him. He looked to the side when Hitler talked about the camps, and he looked to the other side when his country occupied France - but now? There were no other sides to turn to. Now, all Fritz could do was look straight, and face what he refused to acknowledge before. For so long, he feigned ignorance to any opinion that swung to far either way, and for oh so long, he pretended that everything was fine. That somehow, everything would fix itself in the end. And that eventually, all this would be over. But as his brow narrowed together in frustration, all Fritz could account for were the errors of his way. After all, though he himself hadn't done any particular injustice to anybody, he understood he was part of the problem. Before, he had been able to sleep at night, because he told himself that he personally, hadn't done anything wrong. But that theory was flawed. Because there are two kinds of wrong: those who do wrong, and then those who see wrong being done, but don't do anything stop it. Just because the young soldier could justify the lesser of two evils, didn't mean that that reasoning canceled out the fact that it was evil. Fritz had to come to terms with the cold hard truth staring back at him - he'd been wrong, and it sadly took Maria's death before his vision was cleared. With Maria gone, he felt like he had nothing to loose, and would now be able to do whatever needed to be done, in order to end everyone else's suffering. The Resistance was sounding better by the minute.
Okay, so maybe he did have plenty to loose. Sure, there was always Anna to consider. Sure, he could still loose her. But she was a good German woman. She wasn't an outright Nazi supporter, but she didn't seem to think there was anything particularly wrong with their approach either. If Fritz was eventually caught, it would only be his life that would be taken, not hers. And honestly, Anna could handle it. She was the big sister, his mother figure, and it would probably be hard on her - at first - but she'd handle it. She was, after all, much stronger than he was. All his life, Fritz sailed through it all, and Anna encouraged the ignorance. She wasn't solely to blame of course, Fritz needed to accept his own actions, but Anna didn't help. Yet, who could blame her? She grew up without parents, and had to raise him, too. She more than likely wanted to protect and keep him safe, hoping he would fail to catch the attention of anybody who might think Fritz was a troublemaker. Her probable reasoning was love, twisted love, but love none the less. However, sadly, all her years of upbringing were going to be crushed now . . . though he wasn't quite sure what he was getting into, Fritz knew he had to get into something. He had to avenge not only Maria, but her morals against his country's oppression. He had to fight for Eponine, and all of France - he had to fight for little Enjolras, a little fatherless boy that deserved something far better than this. And most of all, he had to fight for himself, because he refused to continue to be a pushover. Whether that meant being a double-spy; aiding and embedding fugitive Jews and Allied stranded soldiers, or giving underground anti-German newspapers such as The Combat, ammunition to sling Germany's name through the ringer even more, or simply giving some of his own rations up to the malnutritioned children hidden behind a barricaded curfew at sunset. Yes, whatever it took (save outright violence), Fritz would do it. And as soon as he had made up his mind, the most wonderful feeling washed over him - hope - for something better than the past three days had provided. And the best part? No more trembling hands.
Smiling weakly down at the now still appendages, Fritz was able to feel the adrenaline seep out of his body, and once again, became more aware of his surroundings. But it wasn't the apartment that kept his attention, it was the voices from below. Carefully laying a hand on the door frame, Fritz turned the knob ever so gently, praying that no creeks would give away his position. Normally, he blended into the background quite easily, and he hoped the trait would come in handy now, as he began to listen in on the conversation downstairs. It seemed like a pretty normal case of banter; that is, before a comment was made about "neighborly bets". When the phrase about Eponine and him . . . sleeping together was said, Fritz tried hard not to blush, but in the end, figured that so long nobody saw him, he was in the clear - so once pale cheeks ripened with a light crimson color. Yet, hearing Eponine recede into the downstairs apartment, Fritz closed the door gently again, and (moving towards the middle of the apartment) tried to listen for the muffled voices - in vain. The walls were thicker than he had given them credit for. Standing a good few feet away from the door, Fritz waited for her return, and though he would have loved to ensure Eponine that nothing would be happening between him and her (dear God, his fiancée - to his knowledge - had only been dead three days), he didn't quite know how to affirm the notion without giving away the fact that he had listened in on Eponine's, possibly private meant, conversation. But maybe later he could assure the neighbors downstairs of his intentions (or the lack thereof)? Though, then again, who needed to know about something that wasn't there . . . right? Because, though Fritz couldn't deny the physical attraction; he felt absolutely miserable about the thought of finding a lover so soon after Maria. Yet, he would easily agree that Eponine made him more comfortable (even when she was furious at him), than any other person he knew. Something about her, something he couldn't quite place, made him feel safe around her, made him feel that he could be himself. It was a rare find, and Fritz knew that it would be hard to give up, especially if they grew any closer.
His hands began to tremble again, but now it was because of excitement as he heard her footsteps gliding up the staircase once more. He shoved them into his pockets, where they gripped loose change until he was certain they'd smell like copper once he took them back out. Certain that the smell wasn't the most becoming, he shifted his hands behind his back, one holding the other by the wrist, silently praying she wouldn't be able to see their excitement over her return. But as he willed them to be still again, something else took its place; a warmness crept into his palms, and waved over his fingers. A warmness that beckoned for her hand in his, such as the grip she had had on him not even fifteen minutes prior. It was a nervous feeling, and sucking in a deep breath, Fritz held it in as Eponine swiftly stepped back into the apartment - carrying a wine bottle. She looked up at him, smiling as if slightly nervous, but welcoming none the less.
Fritz was still trying to get used to her new found niceness towards him. But he readily accepted the behavior change, no matter what the reasoning behind it was.
He let out the inhaled breath slowly, and smiled weakly back at her. After a moment that seemed to drag on to long (at least in his mind), Fritz took a step forward; then another, and then another, until he faced his hostess once more, with barely a foot between them. Again, his fingers trembled, his palms hot by now. This time, they refused to let him get away with not finding a way to touch her. Playing it safe (though still accomplishing his hands' daring command), he reached up for the wine bottle, his right hand resting just above hers, before slipping out the enclosed beverage from her grasp with the other hand. He carefully lingered for a few seconds, before realizing he was staring, and quickly looked down at the bottle. It was all in French, and Fritz had to chuckle at the irony, "I came here in order to read French labels like these - and I'll instead leave knowing nothing but the Resistance movement." There he said it, he was asking about the movement - well, actually, he was basically declaring his want of a membership roster to sign. But just in case Eponine didn't read into his underlying comment, he looked back at her, his face becoming quite serious, though filled with upliftment, "I want to know - please, tell me everything."
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ooc; Lol, it only took me two days to respond . . . eventually I'm going to dissapoint and retreat back to my once a week posts, but I'm going to relish in the moment for a little while, and know I made you happy ^^ And I'm happy bc I'm like uber inspired right now (not that I wasn't before), but now, we get to the whole forbidden romance part of it, so I really am looking forward to what happens next ^^
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