psycotic_wallaby
maryjanehuntstigers
sorry this is so long
sweatdrop
if you really knew me youd know i dont consider myself having a family.
my dad and i dont talk yet we are bedrooms apart.
last thing he told me was that i was his maid and i had no better part in this family. he thinks i will live in a cardboard box when im older and constantly reminds me of how my 11yo sisters better, smarter, prettier, and that he doesnt plan on having anything to do with me once ive moved out.
my mom has bipolar disorder so everythings unexpected with her. shes a really angry person. and i might lose her to breast cancer. my older brother and sister hate my parents so much theyve stop talking to any of us. i guess the closest family member to me is my baby sis, who i cant even trust because she goes behind my back and tells everything i tell her to my dad and mom nd they will make fun of me even when im in the room. if you really knew me, you'd know that i went into depression 2 years ago. my brother was mugged, the man was so heartless he didnt seem satisfied with taking his money and his car, he scalped him and left him for dead. my grandma past away almost a week later. i was so angry and sad that when i was babysitting my beautiful baby cousin, Arillyssa, i just left her in the living room to watch the tv and locked myself in my room. i left the door open for light but forgot to lock the screen door and she went out and dissappeared. never found her. gone at 2yo and it was entirely my fault. everyone says its not, but thats because there just trying to be good friends to you when they know the truth too. i isolated myself, dropped out of school, quit church, stayed inside for about a year and when i was finally ready to come out, everyone left me. my bestfriends found other bestfriends. my bf had found someone else. the church acted like they didnt know me. my neighbors wouldnt even say hi anymore. it was my choice and i knew it, but since then, i knowve ive become a tougher person and to just deal with things or your just wasting your own valuable time.
3nodding
you are always loved by God. remember he'll take care of everything if you trust in him and love him too.
if you knew me, you'd know i love a boy who will be for the most part gone 6 years in the military, and may possibly end up in korea. but as hard as things look, i'm sticking with him because i can't imagine myself with anyone else. the trouble is, mom and dad are iffy about him not believing in God. i was coerced into breaking up with him once, then when we got back together, my parents were at it again. they compared me to my aunts who had abusive ex husbands, but i know he's not like that. i know his family, and they are good people.
i know
smile ive joined another church just recently and im happy there. ive never been in your position before, but i really truely feel for you, if you ever wanna talk, im here (:
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