Morbid Obesity
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- Posted: Tue, 05 Feb 2013 04:30:17 +0000
i was 5'1", 105 pounds, and self-starving when i met a really great guy, who happens to be an MMA fighter and eats a lot. because i didn't want him to know about my self-starvation techniques, i started eating again. small portions, eating less than 1000 calories a day. i quickly gained 10 pounds in 3 months, then i got pregnant. when i had my miscarriage at 4 and a half months, i weighed 130. due to the miscarriage i started eating comfort foods, like fried chicken and mac and cheese. 2 months later, i was 150. i decided to stop with the comfort foods. i went back to eating less than 1000 calories a day. then i got birth control, and new psychiatric medication. 4 months after getting the bc and meds, i weighed 205. i decided to try eating even less to try and lose the weight. for the past 8 months, i have been eating between 200-1000 calories a day, only ever hitting over 500 if i am having insatiable chocolate cravings. i was not losing weight. so i decided to try "the coffee diet", which i found in a magazine. all i had to do was go from drinking 1 mug of coffee in the morning, to 2. i went down to about 200 in the first weed. 3 weeks after starting, i was still 200. so i talked to my psychiatrist about trying different meds, to try and lose weight. i went down to 190 lbs within the first month, and was suuuuper excited. but, it's now the end of the second month, and i weigh 195. i don't understand HOW. my "usual" day would be like this: 1 bowl honey bunches of oats with light soy milk OR 1 packet of instant low-sugar oatmeal OR half a bagel with neuchatel cheese (like cream cheese but half the calories and 1/3 of the fat) OR if i don't feel like having solid food i will have a carnation breakfast essentials drink; a sandwich OR bowl of ramen (with half the pack of seasoning to cut down on the sodium); either a single chicken breast OR one fish fillet, either one of them with vegetables OR a tuna melt (made with grated carrots and chopped celery, topped with 1 piece of cheese); and either a piece or two of chocolate or a cookie. i also snack on dried veggie chips (actual sliced-and-dried veggies, not those veggie-flavored potato chips) or fresh fruit throughout the day. not only that, but i've been throwing up a couple times a week (not intentionally, if i cough too hard i spew, and i smoke both weed and cigarettes, both of which make me cough), so on those days it's even less calories than usual because the food did not actually stay in my system. anyway, i am still 195 pounds... and i really don't know what else to do. i'm very tempted to go back to purging everything i eat, the only things helping me not to are the facts that i know it's damaging to your body, and because i already have issues from purging for years... my teeth are sensitive and my esophagus has some damage. i am very upset about all of this, and i'm not as healthy anymore. i used to ride my bike 3 miles to the mall, walk around for an hour or so, then bike back 3 miles... but now i can barely bike the mile to the library, i have to stop every few minutes to catch my breath and lower my heart rate. by the time i get to the library i am exhausted.
anyway... why can't i lose weight :<
also, i have no way to see a doctor, as i have no insurance and doctors don't accept food stamps as payment... plus i have no transportation to GET to a doctor if i could find one and had the money.
AND ALMOST FORGOT
please do not direct me toward diet pills. not only do they not work, but they cost money, which, as i said abovet, i DO NOT HAVE.
anyway... why can't i lose weight :<
also, i have no way to see a doctor, as i have no insurance and doctors don't accept food stamps as payment... plus i have no transportation to GET to a doctor if i could find one and had the money.
AND ALMOST FORGOT
please do not direct me toward diet pills. not only do they not work, but they cost money, which, as i said abovet, i DO NOT HAVE.
I HAVE BEEN GIVEN SOME GREAT ADVICE,
THANKS FOR YOUR HELP,
BUT YOU NO LONGER NEED TO POST,
I'M WORKING ON IT!