On October 19th, around 11:30 at night, my great grandma passed away. Not only was great grandmother the title she got for being my dad's grandma, but she was indeed great. She had been fighting abdominal cancer for months. But I really don't know if she even knew that she had cancer. My grandparents took her in to have it checked, and they didn't tell her about it. Over the course of a few months, she was put back into the hospital. After arriving back with my grandparents, she started to feel pain. My grandparents knew that they couldn't care for her here. She was put into a Hospice Care center.
I saw her in the Hospice. She looked so different...like she wasn't my grandma. Her hair was straight and combed back. She was sleeping, having tubes connected everywhere and a breathing apparatice in her nose. She used to be the little old lady with poofy bleach white hair and straight leg pants who came to church every Sunday. She hadn't been to church in months. But as she awoke, I saw her...the real her. She didn't know what day it was and her voice was hoarse. I thought that I wouldn't see her like this...not yet. I'm only 13. I wanted her too see me graduate 8th grade. I wanted her to see my band concert about a month later. I wanted her to see me sing in the Christmas Pagent...but all those things are gone.
One day after church, she was taking me home. This happened many years ago, when she could drive and was still living in the house she and her late husband had been living in. As we walked along the sidewalk, I stepped into the grass and back ontot he sidewalk, tripping her. She got back up, but was soon put into the hospital. The wounds had swollen and turned black, but she was again sent home. I was so ashamed of myself.
But on my last day of ever seening her alive, she was sitting in her rocking chair asleep. Her daughter was there, watching over her. She heard me, and my two cousins, and she slowly woke up. She smiled and we had a long talk. She hugged my cousin Ryan as tightly as she could, because she hadn't seen in in months. He had been in Iraq. My dad soon came down and joined in the conversation. Before we left, she gave us all a hug and kiss...and she died a week and a half later.
That hug and kiss were the last contact that she ever gave me. I wish I could have been there as she died. It would have hurt me even more. The Sunday before in Sunday school we had been talking about a time when we had to be strong. One boy told us that he needed to be strong when his grandpa died in front of him, and he burst out in tears, probably along with everyone else in the room. The Sunday School teacher said, "The hard part is that you saw him die, put who's face was it that he saw as he died." I would have wanted my grandma to see my face.
The next morning, my mom broke the news, and I tried not to cry. My dad said "Are you sad?" and I replyed "Kinda" and then he replyed to me in the words that a preacher would say "It was her time. Her work here was done." And then I started to cry.
That day at school, I told my best friend Alena about it, and she hugged me tightly and she expressed her feelings. I cried, not only because my grandma had died, but because I had a friend there who really did care. But in band that day, I played the best I had ever done. In gym, I ran the whole 15 minutes, while suffering pain of a side cramp. I knew that I needed to live my life to the fullest, and she was my inspiration.