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- Posted: Sun, 06 Dec 2009 04:52:12 +0000
►►►►I have lost the will to change...
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I am NOT proud, cold-blooded fake.......

The Sixty-year Story
Blood was soaking into every follicle. Were it not for the faint splotches of dry fur peaking beneath the crimson, one might have sworn the enormous feline beast's fur had been originally red instead of orange. But even this would be denied to him as the rain began to steadily fall, drenching the muddled creature. It tingled at first, as everything did to his senses; he was a newly born being, created with limited memory and yet infinite capacity to understand, adapt, and learn. Damp whiskers began to twitch beneath the falling rain that strummed the lust forest canopy overhead in a lulling staccato monotone. He could taste every raindrop, as salty as fresh tears—as though the heavens above mourned the loss of everything the once-Caspian held dear.
The bitter memories still stung as though venomous, introduced into his bloodstream through fangs that knew no remorse for one such as he—an abomination of nature. Everything he loved, everything he cherished was gone now. Even the lover who obediently served his every whim until her death, Golden Fleece, was gone…consumed by a mate too jealous to ever let another predator taste her precious blood. He'd really done it, hadn't he? He'd really killed her in order to protect her, breaking the greatest of all the Forest Gods' forbidden taboos. A tiger could never feast upon another of their familial Streak. It would be one of his greatest regrets, a lasting wound that would ache until his final breaths were spilled into the chilled morning air and clouded before his very eyes in futile clusters of moisture and warmth.
He was still panting, gasping for breath, still clutching a disembodied corpse he'd used to bludgeon the few remaining soldiers to death with. In the final moments of conflict, the were-tiger had somehow managed to beat an entire platoon of armed men with a severed torso and three fourths of a man's leg. From there out, the monstrous cat simply began piling the bodies where they lay, heaps upon heaps, until nothing else moved amidst the rampaging flames. Now that the rain fell and doused the smoldering embers, the Caspian could at least breathe a sigh of relief—regardless of however grief stricken the low guttural noise was. He brought his bloodied hands closer to his face, as though perplexed by them, their complexity, and how easily jointed fingers and claws could be committed to senseless murder.
This new form somehow came with understanding, revelations which a mere tiger would never have and could never gain. As he experimentally flexed his powerful digits, he simply knew that the stench of blood would never wash from his fur...no matter how hard it continued to rain. Yet, deep down, the monstrous cat wished that it would continue to pour like this, forever. As if the heavens' tears could bathe away his heinous sins, or maybe that he could somehow drown his away his sorrows in them. He could only close his eyes, tilt his face toward the slightly stinging rain, and surrender to every falling drop that hit his fur.
"Tiger, tiger, burning bright
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye…
Could frame thy fearful symmetry?"
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye…
Could frame thy fearful symmetry?"
The phantom beast threw a startled glance into the distance, immediately jerking his massive head to fling another elsewhere. He'd heard it, a distinctly lilting voice calling out to him from virtually nowhere---yet seeming to echo from everywhere. There was no scent upon the air to trace, no presence to be felt as when being preyed upon from the shadows of concealment. It was as if a ghost now mirrored his birth, watching his every move and mocking him with a voice his small round ears could not track down. His dark black lips curled into a sneer that revealed his sharp fangs, a low growl rumbling up from his chest in the manner all cats did when threatened. He even loosened a faint roar toward his silent stalker, hunkering down close to the muddy ground on all fours. If he'd taken down an entire army, what else was one more threat? Clutching his meat-cudgel close, the beast let off another feral roar, shaking his bloody mane violently to warm whatever was out there that he meant business. Anything short of absolute retreat would be met with the most extreme prejudice imaginable. But the voice came again, distinctly feminine, leaving the tiger's ears to aimlessly flicker nervously in response. Where his ears deceiving him, or were his senses simply dulled by the coppery-scent and flavor of blood lingering within every pore, ingrained beneath his soaked fur. It was all he could see, taste, or feel—vermillion so thick that he strained his eyes so as not to see red again and black-out into another murderous frenzy.
"In what distant deeps or skies
Burnt the fire of thine eyes?
On what wings dare he aspire?
What the hand dare seize the fire?"
Burnt the fire of thine eyes?
On what wings dare he aspire?
What the hand dare seize the fire?"
She stood there before him, brazenly unfazed by his grotesque and ungainly appearance, appearing so suddenly – yet obviously into plain view – that the beast visibly flinched and questioned how he hadn't noticed the small woman standing beneath the veil a very large black umbrella. She wore little more than tattered white robes with a hood drawn close about her face to shut out the rain's wintry bite. Nonetheless, he could still see the ethereal glow of her blue eyes piercing him where he stood. She walked slowly enough to appear as though standing still, gliding toward him on a smooth curtain of air. He blinked several times yet, every time he did, the woman appeared to be standing a step closer than the last; before long she reached upward and stroked the side of his blood-greased muzzle with her palm while he still gazed vapidly ahead to where she had once been. The sudden contact jarred him back to reality and he swiftly jerked his face away, almost stumbling over his own two feet in the process. Bearing his fangs did so very little. The woman merely smiled in response and took another bold step in his direction, somehow terrifying the merciless predatory at his wit's end. Did she not see the corpses piled around him like scattered autumn leaves and broken twigs alike? Could she not smell the putrid aroma of death and carnage lingering upon the scent of burnt cedar and pine?
The more he looked upon her, the less and less human she appeared to him. She almost glowed, a dire contrast to the dreary scorched-black realm around him. If tigers knew of angels and of demons, the Caspian might have imagined that a glorious seraph had come to visit him in the depths of the blackest Hell. Phantoms could sense their brethren, the specters of the night, ghouls, and all the rancid hellions of the Abyss. Though newly born, the ghost tiger could almost smell the peculiarities of this woman riding the breeze all the way to his flaring nostrils. Her skin was too pale, too alabaster, as though no blood flowed within her empty veins. Her eyes were wide aghast, haggard with building dark circles beneath them, mirroring how the whites of her eyes were instead a murky black like the color of night. The hollow-eyed woman slowly outstretched her clawed fingertips again, lightly toying with his whiskers the way the wind ordinarily would. He hissed, which sounded more like a confused roar if the soft touch of her palm hadn't soothed him so and drained his fury before his flames of hatred could thoroughly spark. But before he could recoil again, the woman merely reached out again and scratched beneath his chin the way one would a kitten. Without knowing how to react, the huge phantom merely froze where he was, with his fur bristled and his eyes widening furiously. "And what shoulder, and what art, could twist the sinews of thy heart?" the woman mused once more, withdrawing her clawed hand back to her side with a listless sort of gaze in her luminous eyes that left the enormous tiger bewildered. His instincts told him to strike down a human when he saw a human, to kill all haughty apes on sight and spare not a shred of mercy as they had done him and the rest of his clan. But something about this woman didn't settle right. Her scent was off, as though hollow and faint—almost ageless—betraying the girl's youthful shell. In the moment his fangs should have pierced her throat, he met her eyes once more and stood there, frozen in time. "…it's poetry. You do know what poetry is, don't you?"
For some reason beyond his fathoming, the tiger shook his head 'no'. This only made the woman's momentary smile glow all the broader and brighter. "Ah, you comprehend my words – yet you cannot speak. I see. That's cute…" She reached up with a long, slender object in her grasp, bringing it to her lips to inhale from and exhale wispy black smoke that made his nostrils burn. Innate understanding told him that it was a pipe and that she was smoking it, as far as human customs were concerned. Nonetheless, it still perplexed him beyond reason, why this woman would inhale smoke and incessantly insist on touching him? He would have cleaved the precious white flesh from her bones to cease her obsession with him, to finally end how lovingly her palm could seek his muzzle and somehow soothe all the rage he could muster, yet some unseen spell held him at bay whenever her darkened eyes met his. She must have known something about it; she smirked when he jerked awkwardly against the arcane magic at work. "Oh? Do you wish to strike me, kitty? I can assure you that nothing good will come of such desires. After all," she paused, taking another slow pull from her kiseru pipe as she gestured to the abysmal remains of what was once a proud and majestic forest. "…I think it's about time you ended this little tantrum of yours and seriously thought about your future from this point on…don't you?"
The witch's words sank deep, although the phantom knew not the reasons why. He hadn't considered what he would do after his vengeance was savored at length. But, as he followed her swift gesture at the smoldering remains of his home, the lumbering creature could see that nothing he knew existed in this blackened hell he'd crafted—not even the Forest Gods who had seemingly cursed him with this abominable form. He knew nothing of this new world, where darkness permeated deep within every pore, every vein, running thick within the lifeblood of the new and unsightly reality. This wasn't what he wanted; this wasn't what he and his lover had dreamed of together, or what his dead brother once spoke of—this wasn't freedom from the humans. This was precisely the opposite. Vexed with this hybrid form, trapped within neither flesh nor fur, but a crude amalgamation of the two, he needed only glance at his reflection cast back from the pooling blood at his feet to realize the clear and present truth. He was no longer tiger nor rightly human. He was some kind of monster. "You seek understanding." though spoken as an inquiry of sorts, the white-robed woman's tone easily suggested this as a firm and undeniable fact that the beast could scarcely question. He did wish to know more about the world around him now, something an animal never bothered to query or even consider beyond a passing afterthought when grooming or feasting. Now, filled with countless questions, the tiger phantom truly wished to know what he was, and what he should do now. The witch took another puff from her kiseru pipe with an air of finality about her. "I'm Zephyrine Anderson, the Hollow Witch. And I can guide you, as I have guided many extraordinary creatures over the years…for a small fee." she mused, extending her hand toward him. The beast puzzled over the strange gesture. He stood there, idly gawking at her small hand for over a full minute, until Zephyrine's brows knitted with faint irritation and her youthful face soured into a childlike pout. "…you shake it, tiger." As if almost frightened, the phantom cautiously reached out and took the witch's hand in his own.
"…Ee…I….a-aam…T-Tai…ga?" he garbled, testing his new vocal chords for the very first time. Zephyrine smiled cryptically.
"Yes. Yes…you are Taiga."
The Present
Nothing was quite a revitalizing as a nice, warm shower. Most took such simplicities for granted but, when you were covered with fur, it was hard to find a place that didn't mind a few fur-balls being stuck in the drain, or the smell of wet cat fur vaguely sweetened by strawberry-scented shampoo. He exited the bathroom with a broad smile, dropping the towel around his waist when he neared the bed and his displaced belongings. Nudity came naturally to him so he never worried much about it, although there had been a few embarrassing moments with his friend, Zephyrine. The Hollow Witch—his thoughts hadn't strayed far from her lately, although being obscenely cross with the shady woman. If only she didn't seize any and every opportunity to con people out of their money! Although she was extremely talented as a sorceress, her obsession with material gains always perplexed him. A tiger's only retribution came in how much meat he could cleave from the kill, and how sharp he could keep his skills when it came time to impress a mate. Zephyrine, however, was a woman of entirely different stripes. At times, Namir could only sigh and admit that he knew absolutely nothing about the woman—and that everything he presumed to know could be placed in question at any given moment, should Zephyrine bemusedly decide to torture him on a whim. This, she did quite frequently to ease the moments of boredom.
Nonetheless, as he slipped into a fresh pair of jeans and began hunting for wherever he'd kicked off his boots, he couldn't help but worry over the money-grubbing witch. No matter what he thought of the woman's business practices, she was the closest thing to family he had now. Everything he once knew was no more. He'd learned to accept it after all these long years. He put on his boots and found a small red piece of fabric from his gym bag, eventually tying it around his neck in a sort of make-shift ascot. Since it was Halloween, Namir often went with what came naturally to him; why hunt for a costume when you could literally make due with a few accessories? After a minute of grooming his fur down so that his chest tuffs didn't fluff up awkwardly, he grabbed up his cell phone, dialed a number, and began heading downstairs to see if anything was going on.
"…Zeph? Hey, it's me. What're you up to?"
((BIG UPS to Shin-chan for allowing me to do this...))
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...I will shut the world away.◄◄◄◄
Come satisfy desire.












