Shai's Place. "Open to the public, why not?"

Living life. Is it for you?

Yes; I have my reasons.	24.2%	[ 97 ]
No. -CutCutCut-	9.2%	[ 37 ]
It isn't for you, either, but you're still here. ;3	13.0%	[ 52 ]
Yes, and thanks to IKEA, it looks spiffy.	20.7%	[ 83 ]
<3.	32.9%	[ 132 ]
Total Votes:			[ 401 ]

[intoxicating scribble]

I wonder if I have a free gender change owo
I know I don't have a free name change, cause I've only changed my name a thousand times.

Yum...bacon.
And donuts.
Can mine be a turkey burger?
Joey, are you high?





So not that anyone really cares....an update on my shitastic life...
So...I'm pregnant with my ex-shag buddy's baby. I don't know how the ******** I'm going to tell my parents, since I'm living with them, unemployed and on their health insurance. AND they didn't know I was seeing anyone.
Also, I left that shag buddy for someone else, that I wanted an actual relationship. Before I found out I was pregnant, that guy and I had snuggled and hung out and he asked me to go see a movie with him. And then all of a sudden he isn't talking to me anymore. And according to his facebook page, is holding out for someone else. Cause I'm pretty sure I haven't called him "love" and he's been ignoring my texts. Even when I text him about the kitten we're suppose to be sharing.
He does not know I'm pregnant.
The baby daddy wants me to abort. And has been a total a** and has tried to guilt trip me into it. But I cant bring myself to do it. I know I will regret it if I do.
And yeah...I hate life.

[123porridge123]

Intoxicating Scribble

I wonder if I have a free gender change owo
I know I don't have a free name change, cause I've only changed my name a thousand times.

Yum...bacon.
And donuts.
Can mine be a turkey burger?
Joey, are you high?





So not that anyone really cares....an update on my shitastic life...
So...I'm pregnant with my ex-shag buddy's baby. I don't know how the ******** I'm going to tell my parents, since I'm living with them, unemployed and on their health insurance. AND they didn't know I was seeing anyone.
Also, I left that shag buddy for someone else, that I wanted an actual relationship. Before I found out I was pregnant, that guy and I had snuggled and hung out and he asked me to go see a movie with him. And then all of a sudden he isn't talking to me anymore. And according to his facebook page, is holding out for someone else. Cause I'm pretty sure I haven't called him "love" and he's been ignoring my texts. Even when I text him about the kitten we're suppose to be sharing.
He does not know I'm pregnant.
The baby daddy wants me to abort. And has been a total a** and has tried to guilt trip me into it. But I cant bring myself to do it. I know I will regret it if I do.
And yeah...I hate life.

._.

Geez... that's... I don't even know what to say. All I can say is that I hope things work out, and I'm sorry that you're in such a position.

[Shaiath]

s**t, Jinx, that's heavy as fuuuck.

Sorry I haven't any words of wisdom, I'm going through a pretty rough time myself unfortunately.

My friend, whom I've known for like, six years now, is not doing so great.
He's broke, jobless and living with his ex.
Or, she's living with him.
Since she has even LESS money, and they're living off his savings.
She's my friend too, but I've known her a few years less than him.

They've been getting on poorly, and last night it came to a head.
The cops were called, she was arrested.
She usually starts the fights, so I wasn't entirely surprised.
She got hospitalized when they discovered numerous bruises on her.
Now I think my friend is going to be arrested too.

The cops were trying to get them to press charges against each other.
She just wants things to go back to normal.
I've been begging her to go to a halfway house for months.
But she's stubborn, it's too scary for her, she doesn't ******** get it.

I think I'm going to remove myself from these friends.
They're tearing each other apart, and I'm not going to be caught in this s**t.

[123porridge123]

Removing yourself from that situation does sound like a good idea. At the end of the day, you've given your two cents, and they're gonna do whatever they're gonna do regardless.

[Seru the warrior of light]

s**t man, I think I would. That's a pretty toxic situation you just described there, I hope you've been fine through all of that.I'm always on facebook if you want to talk or vent about whatever, just in case. Hope your friends end up fine too, someday.


Oh yeah, I'm going to check this site every now and then.

Yeah.

Hi again

[intoxicating scribble]

Yeah, removing yourself from the situation does seem like the best idea. At least for a little while.

[Shaiath]

I've got more s**t to say, but feel free to ignore me because I'll likely ramble.

I broke up with my girlfriend, because I'm not in a great place right now.
I kinda' hate myself, I'm broke and I don't really feel like I'm worth the effort of dating atm.
When I get in this funk, I'm MEAN.
These periods are actually what caused most of my relationship issues with other girls.
With those, I usually don't talk to them ever again, unless we chance into one another.

But of course she decided it was her fault, and got all emo,
And has been going on about how she's just never able to keep a guy.
Like, b***h, we dated for TWO YEARS. I'd call that holding on to someone.

But it wasn't always rosey.
We went to Seattle for our one-year anniversary.
I may have told this story before, but I feel like it's worth telling again.

She decided to cut me out of her life for a month while she recovered from her illness,
Which started flaring up again terribly after our weekend trip to the states.
Again, she didn't talk to me for a month because she didn't trust me not to just leave her.
So I didn't even know she was sick, I just thought she was mad at me.
I feel like that kind of illustrates how very insecure she is.

I never really felt the same level of love or trust after that.
She stopped inviting me to stay over, we were intimate far less often.
It was more like friends with benefits than anything, from my point of view.
We didn't go to dinner, she wouldn't let me cook for her.
Dates were restricted to going for drives and stuff, which is a friends-thing for me.

Hell, the last time we spent the night together was valentine's 2014.
I can't currently remember the last time we actually had sex.

So, feeling like an outsider in my own relationship, and needing to focus on myself,
I ended it.

That was new year's eve.
I decided I didn't want to be alone that day, so I went out with some friends.

NEXT POST.

[Shaiath]

New Year's Eve.
Was certainly a night.

I'd been into this girl, Vanessa, for quite a while.
I asked her to kiss me at midnight.
She agreed, but I could tell she was reluctant.
She told me I was a bad kisser.
Wounded, I found other people at the party.

Continued drinking.
Playing Cards Against Humanity.
Sucking at Smash Bros 4.

Then Haley shows up.
Pushes me on to a table.
Starts making out with me.
I'm ********' shocked.
I froze, pushed her off me.

Haley has since been hitting on me, but I dunno what to make of it.
Sometimes she seems hella into me. Sometimes I seem like a backup plan.
The other day she straight-up told me we were gonna do a lot of ********.
Which I thought was cool, I mean, she's pretty cute.

But then Amy came back into town.
********, man.
******** my life.
Amy was back, and we spent a week together, and it was everything I wanted.

But she's got a boyfriend. They're engaged, and eloping in the spring.
The thing is, she wouldn't stop touching me. Hitting me, hugging me, messing my hair.
She even gave me a pretty fantastic massage,
And when she put her head on my shoulder, and brought her face close to mine...
I didn't do it.
I didn't kiss her.

I have wanted nothing more than to kiss her again for the past six years,
AND I DIDN'T ******** KISS HER.

That's how much I hate myself right now.
I want to marry that girl.
She asked me to go with her to our ten-year reunion.

I know she wouldn't if she didn't secretly want things to fail with her beau.
And I still didn't kiss her, because I know I can't deal with this right now,
Not while I'm broke, in debt and working two minimum wage jobs to try to make ends meet.

So.
That's where I'm at right now in my life.

[Shaiath]

Wait, did I just.

I got 4,000 gold for those posts.
I was at 49k and now I'm at 53.
Is that ********' normal?

[Shaiath]

I NOW HAVE 63,000, WHAT THE ******** GAIA WHERE WAS THIS IN 2005.

[Shaiath]

Some beautiful soul just donated a million gold to me.
That's just.
HOW.

Also, turns out my naruto headband is worth like 600 billion?
lol wtf.

[Shaiath]

I started today with like thirty three grand.
I now have 1.13 million.

That's nuts, but I won't complain.

Except that the Moogle Cat is nearly 20 billion.
So that's still not happening~

[123porridge123]

Geeeez, dude. That's a lot of mess.

I don't even know where to start... but I will say that I'm sorry that things are so crappy for you lately. I didn't know things were that bad and that complicated.

And I wish I had some advice to give you, but since I've never actually dated /anyone/ before.. y'know, anything I could say wouldn't really hold much merit.

If you ever need to rant or vent or anything like that, though, you know that I'm here for ya. Hell, if you ever DO want some advice on some other s**t, just drop me a message.

[Shaiath]

Eh, I don't really need advice. I just wanna step back and not have to worry about s**t.
As such, I think I'm just gonna ******** my coworker who looks like a girl out of a Lana Del Rey music video tbh.
She wanted to go out so bad, she got her friend hired so her friend would hint at me that I should go out with her.
So... A for effort.

It's that or this Katelyn girl from Tinder, but I dunno what my chances are with her.

Haley, the one who said we'd bang, has been flakey still.
So no go there.

....
I'll put this in my font later.

[123porridge123]

Damn son, u horny.