Sila-chan
nearly 3 years later, I feel like I have to post once again.
Danny here really helped me find out who I truly was in a sense, and has helped me accept the fact that I'm an infantilist. 3 years ago when I first found this thread (a RL friend had found it and linked me to it. turns out we both figured it fit us well and we'd "try it".) I knew it explained a good amount about what I had done for the past several years of my life. Although I was never into diapers, I always had a desire for my pacifier, blankets that were soft and cuddly, and babyish items like that. I never knew why though.
For the first year or so, I went back and forth with the purge/binge cycle. I even hated the fact that I liked it so much- being unable to tell my mom, and having to hide it, made me feel miserable for a while. I watched communities like the ones on Gaia, and they made me feel sick- they kept talking about the sexual side of it ONLY, as if the purely emotional side didn't exist. I found tbdl.org (which is now adisc.org) and I found my home. Everyone there was sweet, they were intelligent and they embraced the different sides of the lifestyle itself.
I went back and forth even after that, unable to decide whether I was happier delving in my tb tendencies, or not. This past month or so I think I've finally given in and accepted myself for who I am. No one is going to change me or my likes, I'm going to enjoy myself and enjoy what makes me happy.
Do I have regrets from time to time? Sure. Who doesn't? But I do enjoy myself a lot more, and I have a greater understanding of infantilism in itself, as a whole, too. <3
Overall, thanks a ton Danny. You may not really realize it, but you helped me a lot and I greatly appreciate it. I hope to see you more on MSN- I miss talking to you!
<333 *asks if she can steal another cookie* <<
You were a pleasure to meet and helping you was not my job, you helped yourself. You're a very sweet kind hearted girl and I can only wish you the best in the future and that no matter what or who you decide you are, I'll stand by your side and support you.
Keep being awesome.
Danny~
And yeah, you can have another cookie.