xxSila-chanxx
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May I ask what makes you feel good and secure and what you do to get away from life?
Look at what you do, it's probably what people see as 'normal', but can you define normal?
For infantilists, they are harming NO ONE...Not putting themselves at any risk, and even if they perhaps may look a little odd...Are for the most part, highly mature intellectuals whom have matured so fast they missed their childhood or people whom had issues which made their childhood very sad and they HAD to grow up and be independent...
Ever wished you could take back yesterday?
We don't wish. We DO.
That second reason you stated, the "people whom had issues which made their childhood sad and they had to grow up" explains perfectly the best reason that I too am an infantilist. I've not had the most pleasent childhood, and oftentimes I've wished that I could regress and just be a child again. When I was a child I wasn't cuddled as much as I would have liked to be, my mom having raised me on her own and was always too worried about her next bill payment or the such to just spend an extra five minutes with me. I grew up alot faster than other kids my age, both mentally and emotionally. I would try to detach myself from things because I knew that I wouldn't be able to keep them for long, such as a pacifier that was originally for a favorite doll (real pacifier, lost the one that came with the doll itself.) that I often used to get me to sleep. Even at 9-10 years of age. I've been clingy and needy of a little extra attention from the lack of it during actual childhood, and I had to find ways to comfort myself when trouble striked. If I woke up crying, my mom wouldn't even be there to hear me, she'd be at work, leaving me alone to face my own fears and comfort myself. That's where the pacifier and clingyness comes in to place for me. I think everyone has their own little mood swings, but for some of us (especially infantilist) they come a bit more often, and sometimes include little tantrums or 'hissy fits', or even periods of time in which you just want to lie down and whimper/cry.
Eh, I guess I've been trying to just put this into view for everyone who may not see it the way an infantilist does. And trust me, I've done tons of thinking about this in so many views, from the parent's view, the infantilst's view, and even an outsider.
Danny, hope ya don't mind me sharing this all, it's actually helping me alot.
sweatdrop I've been trying to put it into a different perpective, one that some of the people on the board may not see.
~ Sila
It's not an 'issue' for me, but I was pretty much the same, both my parents were always working and had babysitters look after me, they smothered me in gifts and material posessions and never actually took a few seconds away from life just to let me know how much I really mean to them.
I was a brat in school because of my ADHD and I was oft' more in trouble than I was cuddled...
I was eventually kicked out of school for attacking the head mistress whom had dragged me down the corridor by the neck of my shirt, effectively semi-choking me.
So...I ended up missing ALOT of schooling and I had to mature RAPIDLY to catch up, I was reading adult books by 4 years old and could already name all the cars on the road by 7. By 9 I'd already broke into several computers, bypassed keypad security codes and was heavily into K-nex or however it's spelt, it which, I made several working items including a mini crane and a car, all without guide kits.
And I never got praised for my rapid intellectual burst...Just got given more work, and to be honest, it pissed me off...
Now? Three businesses, two college courses, one self study course and I've just took on script writing for an hand-drawn online comic...
Can you really blame me for wanting to regress and be small again?