I've been through a bunch of crushes, but I'd have to say my first real love was this kid Jason. I liked him for four years, and we were best friends. I never really told him that I was in love with him, but he could kinda tell by the way I acted around him. So anyways, he was a real p***k, but I hung around with him because I was stupid, young, and in love. We used to do everything together, but the only thing was that he was a huge flirt and he had a million girlfriends. And every time he'd have a new one, he would kind of shove them in my face and make me feel like s**t. In fact, he always made me feel like s**t (That's probably why I have such low self esteem..<.< ).
And then when he was talking to me one night, he was kinda hinting at me that he wanted to be in a relationship with someone that he knew for a long time, and all that. So I told him, "Jason, I love you and I want to be with you." And he said "Oh..I was talking about my dog." That pretty much shattered me, and I realized how much of an a*****e he really was. I wanted four years of my life on that b*****d hoping that things might work out. We're still friends, but we've fought so much, that I can't really call him a friend anymore either.
But on the happy side, I found a great guy, and I'm dating him (Have been for about two months) And this guy is seriously the sweetest thing I've ever seen. He makes me really happy, and I can actually see myself spending the rest of my life with him.
The funny thing is that I never thought that I would end up with him; he was really annoying, and kinda stalker-ish. In fact, he's the first guy that's ever chased after me. It's always been me chasing after the guy waiting for him to notice me. Nope, not with him. ^^
So point being, the perfect guy (or girl) could be right in front of you.
Don't give up. <3