^^ i am being absolutely insane actually
When you posted on my DA, i was amused. OH... a gaian.. how nice... so i went and asked... as you know.. and then exchange small "chats"... it did not gave me the impression of you being highly opinionated ^^ ahahaha ^^ i pointed that out not because i find anything wrong with it but because it was one of those things that retain in my memory after reading your lengthy essay^^
I went to look for you as i promised in one of my responses
Because i am, sad to say, naturally curious, questioning is a given if you are naturally curious of course, borderline paranoid, and always feels the need that one must know what one can. I would strive to know everything actually... but life is limited... therefore i would only strive to know everything i can during this lifetime i have.
speaking of which i hate the idea of death. As i mention,it gives me such annoying limits as my quest for knowledge... I however do not fear it.. what i fear is that i may not be able to do all those things that i wish to do before i die. i believe that is different. If you die, then your dead. you no longer have the ability to feel anything. too feel pain or fear. nothing. you just cease to exist. then what is the point of worrying about death? therefore i believe that what one must worry about what he can do at the present. I thought about this during the time i was a child and was told i had a terminal disease. Had!.. it is such a laugh.. i'm still alive. Ahahahahahahahaha. I remember my aunt, since my mother was away abroad working and my father passed away years before that event, my aunt was very emotional. i was curious. i did not believe her. for me . she just acts all typical like. that's when it made me think. if i die then i die. thats the end of it. but i will not die unsatisfied. its probably because i wasn't satisfied with my life at that time that i survived said terminal disease. it still was an amusing part of my life
I think as i grow older i become more and more questioning. somewhat cynical perhaps... ahahahahahaahahahah
perhaps its because i learn and observe more.
I see more idiotic people. its frightening.
I believe that as advancement in technology grows... there will be more idiotic people.
I do envy idiotic people sometimes though. they do not know the true meaning of fear.
I get more annoyed easily as i grow older as well... ahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
sometimes it could be my own fault as well.
when i talk to someone, i would talk to him as what my impression of him as he talks. If one comes to me as an intelligent person, then i shall talk to his level. only to be disappointed and end up being rather annoyed. i sometimes could not understand why they could not understand my point of view. my brother is a victim of that sort of annoyance.
which is why this days.. i just end up talking as what a child would talk.. well most of the time
I did found a new past time, one that i find quite enjoyable, i seem to be able to manipulate certain people. such a happy past time.
I know, i am somewhat evil. Ahahahaahahahahahahahaha. keep in mind, i pick my targets ^^
^^ i do apologize, i ended up ranting ^^; and my grammar is getting rather awful o___O;
such a thing to happen to a person in pursuit of knowledge, isnt it? such contradictions should not be allowed ahahah but alas i has been done.
I blame my lost interest in writing. i had lost my inspiration. it, as i have told a friend of mine, eloped with my talents. and left me rotting on my own.
it is rare that it visits me... such a thing as reading reading your essay would be one of those rare things
so do give yourself a pat in the back if it is possible. you have manage to extract a lot of words from this person.
I am posting here, as a monument that i have kept my promise to look for you in gaia. Ahahaahahah that and i wish to entertain myself by writing this.
I honestly do not know why i have decided to do this. It may be because of the statements of the last part of your essay. those highlighted in big bold letters. I was amused. i thought, that anyone can post and say that they have read it but only a few would actually be able to discuss things. a scornful act? ahahahahahaahhaahahahahah i do not know. I was inspired, that part i could honestly say ^^
^^ its been a pleasure to meet you and to read your story dear sir. If you, I and time permits, it would be a great pleasure to have another discussion with you. or.. a exchange of lengthy view ^^
(( i have two things to add: one is that you are the 2nd person to have made me write differently as i would normally do this days... and that i saw a drawing that my "wife" made for you.. it was random.. but i miss her... which is why i noticed it... ahahahaah ^^ ))
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