No matter how silly a fear may be to whoever, their powers still hold sincere damage if you let it. Accept your fear, but accept that you deserve better to live with happiness. This might sound silly, but think of it like this: “To me, [being] Fearless is not the absense of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, [being] Fearless is having fears. [Being] Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, [being] Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.” -Taylor Swift.
Don't worry, because you still have freewill. You wouldn't have typed that if you didn't feel emotion. You wouldn't have typed what you did if you didn't have a moral compass anymore. You can still guide yourself, I have faith in you. smile
Are you underage? Otherwise, how can the government force you to be on meds if you're not a threat to yourself or anyone else?
If you are underage, just wait until you turn 18 and refuse the treatment.
This is part of what I hate about the pharmaceutical industry of America--the drugs really aren't safe.
They make you lose your thoughts, your feelings....and they have all these other wacky side effects.
Of course, not all medicine does this, but psychotics tend to.
I was on Prozac for a few months when I was fifteen, 40mg of it, and I literally could not feel anything. I had this constant floaty feeling and any time I started to feel like I wanted to cry because of it, it was like those emotions were snatched away.
I hate medication and even now refuse to take it...
I was never going to hurt anybody. It doesn't make sense that I'm being tortured like this.
I swear to my goddess that the antipsychotics have made me feel so bad I couldn't do anything but lie in bed for many months and even that didn't help.
My life is so much worse now because of them. Everything is gone its like the good parts of my life never happened. I can't wait till I die, then I can forget that all of this happened.
Neuroleptics are major physical trauma to the brain and everything I do and every social interaction I have drives that home to me. I'll never feel okay again. It's like I'm not even there in some hell where my every thought is subdued and controlled instead.
The government has gone too far. The public will one day rise up and put a stop to this mass torture program. It will be remembered as the ultimate evil of authority in all of history.