Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.2%	[ 743 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 127 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.6%	[ 142 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.3%	[ 110 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.2%	[ 260 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.8%	[ 249 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.1%	[ 156 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	2.9%	[ 74 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	26.8%	[ 681 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2542 ]

[I2ose Quartz]

"Be soft, kind and loving. But take nobody's s**t."

[I2ose Quartz]

"What are we doing?"
".... I don't know."

What the ******** is wrong with me?
********. ********, ******** ******** ******** ********.

I try to run, but I don't want to ever leave.
Burn it to the ground, I say. Burn it ALL.

[volo libero]

mia's sitting on my lap purring away. so cute.

[I2ose Quartz]

Tomorrow - make it to tomorrow.
Drown myself in him. Let him consume me.
He makes me feel the good I turn away from - everything I'm afraid to feel.
He lights a fire inside of me that I'd gladly burn in forever.

[Smoking Daffodils]

Gosh I really hope I pass
I'm so ******** nervous right now

[volo libero]

ugh we have to do laundry today.

why couldn't my apartment be blessed with coin laundry IN the place?


instead of me having to go to the laundry mat.

[Doccubus]

Lastnight, for the first time in awhile, I sort of poured my feelings out to my friend Alexis.
And I think, for the first time ever doing so, someone actually felt something.


Apparently when we were younger I told her about Adriana. And my infatuation with her, because she actually asked me what became of that.
Which lead to another thing.
Which lead to another.
And another.

We were sitting in my bed, watching this really old show called Twin Peaks(Which is actually REALLY good for being shot in the 80s.)

I was laying down just rambling, not really expecting anything.
And I just felt her lean down and give me a kiss on the top of my head.


Shes amazing.

[Doccubus]

Before she kissed my head, I think I could feel her staring down at me.
I was talking with stars in my eyes. Looking off into nothing, but everything at once.

Just as I spoke of such past things I felt like I went through them all over again.
It was bittersweet.

[shiny spoink]

ive wondered what it would be like to date a girl.
ive questioned my sexuality in the past,
but i just really dont know.
i think im straight?
but at the same time, im pretty sure when i look at girls and say "im just looking at their outfit",
or "im just comparing their body to my own",
i might actually be checking them out.

i dont know.

its all so confusing to me.
no i dont want to eat a girl out,
but at the same time, i dont want to suck a guys d**k either.
they both bother me for different reasons.

i just dont know.

im sexually attracted to guys, i like the idea of a p***s being inside of me.
but at the same time, i dont know if it grosses me out if i were to finger a girl.
i dont think it would.
but i guess the question i need to ask myself is, is does the thought of sexually touching a girl make me "excited"?
if i were to kiss a girl, would i like it?

i dont know the answers to those.

i mean... i know i wouldnt turn down the idea of dating a woman,
but at the same time, i dont want to end up being a waste of someones time if i decide "oh, i dont like girls, sorry. thanks for letting me experiment on you".

im just confused. idek what the ******** i want anymore.
i question EVERYTHING.
but i cant help but wonder if i like girls.

[Doccubus]

Its my birthday tomorrow. Tonight I'm going to practice at 7:30pm, I think we are doing some scrimmages. It ends at 10pm, and my roommate Claire already said she'll take me to practice and the bar.


These bitches better buy me shots. rofl
Hopefully Alexis will make it out.

[Smoking Daffodils]

annnd I failed
by two ******** questions

I go in next week to try again
I'm so upset with myself right now
just
2 ******** QUESTIONS
JUST TWO
THAT'S IT
TWOOOO

[Smoking Daffodils]

I knew my chances of passing were pretty slim
but I was doing really great at the beginning
then those few questions really tripped me up
and were my downfall

I just
ugh
I can't accept this right now
I don't take failure very well
especially like this