Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.2%	[ 741 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 127 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.6%	[ 142 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.3%	[ 110 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.2%	[ 259 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.8%	[ 249 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.1%	[ 156 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	2.9%	[ 74 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	26.8%	[ 681 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2539 ]

[IzayasFun]

"'Dead as dead can be,' my doctor tells me
But I just can’t believe him, never the optimistic one…" -passive, by blue circle.

[IzayasFun]

You'll have to excuse me B if I'm not as enthusiastic as I normally would be.
It's hard having faith in something that has disappointed you time and time again.

[BubbIeCat]

I'm not the one who ******** with the pumps
It's not my job to fix these things
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO THESE THINGS
My ******** god
.....
I don't want to deal or talk to anyone anymore
I just
I feel so bitter and upset
I feel disgusting and just ugh
All these negative emotions are catching up
And I just want to cry....

[venus a n d bacchus]

my lips are so dry and cracked and they are bleeding
gross how did this happen?
i hope we have some vaseline somewhere
also i'm realllly craving a bloody mary
not the crazy "pizza in my drink" kinds
just a plain one with pickles and some olives.. maybe a shrimp or two.
mmm sounds so good rn

[Jemnu]

i think we'll make this

[Hellodies]

I sort of calmed down... Especially with the dosages of medications I've been now informed to take...
I was sedated a bit earlier in the morning and Ky's been in constant monitoring of me.

Mother bought Hardees and I just ate quietly by myself.
I didn't want to be with anyone, but that didn't stop him from sitting near the wall close to my bed.
We kept talking even though my voice wanted to crack and have I, myself, breaking down again.

The voice in my head kept saying, "Abandonment is your fate..."
And Ky. shook me and kept saying to listen to him. I stood there in my bed..

Heart racing and everything. He stared at me for a bit and hugged me as tight as he could.
I'm like a sister-figure to him... since he's an only child. He's already losing it himself having to deal with his best friend suffer all this...

I feel at fault, but what can I do?

I'm trying so hard....

I don't want to give up, but everything's just....

causing ache...

- - - - - - - - -
there's a long gash on the side of my left hand... from breaking the mirror of the guest room the other day....

It stings and it ******** hurts...

[comme des enfants]

Proud of myself for actually doing schoolwork, which sounds ridiculous but it's hard to concentrate when you have zero motivation.

[mewkittyy]

holy ******** i'm so glad i ordered that urban decay feminine palette. i got it for half off AND NOW ITS NOT FOR SALE ON THE SEPHORA WEBSITE.

@_@ GOOD ******** TIMING.

[7447yup]

101B for Ancient Katana?
This is the most gold I've ever spent for an item.
I thought 40B for my Taru items was bad enough.
Gaia you've really gone down hill in the inflation area huh?
B|

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Side Note, my dream avatar is complete.
YAY!

[venus a n d bacchus]

this hair mask was messy as ********
jeeeeeeeeeze
my hair better be amazingly beautiful when i wash it out

[Hellodies]

Weed sounds great riiight now...
Or alcohol....


Or anything...
Ky. left and said he'd pick me up for classes tomorrow at 5am.

I owe it to him for having to deal with me at my worst, but he doesn't really complain...
I still feel like s**t because I'm just now a burden...

[Cerulean Miko]

Man, I hate being constipated. It's not going to be fun un-constipating myself....thank God for Mira-Lax. gonk

One more dose of my yeast infection medicine to go. Hopefully, it will clear up my infection. Yet, sadly I know that Mr. Yeast Infection will come and visit me again before too long...damn it all.

My hubby took me out to eat tonight and I overate...was on the verge of puking for quite awhile....however, I managed to keep everything down. I really hate myself for going overboard on the eating sometimes whenever I do a buffet.

[Smoking Daffodils]

I feel a lot better now that Sam took me to get medicine.
I got my medicine, I got to go out for really good mexican food, I got my weed
I feel a lot better
I even got some soup to keep me fed until my throat isn't so sore anymore.

today got better later on
I'm glad I left my apartment
I felt loads better because of it.

[Shaizard]

My ipsy bag came in today, and it is/was my first ipsy bag and I'm pleased with it. The bag itself was up my alley and I definitely wanted the Crown brush. I don't get why people were bitching about not wanting to get the Nyx eyeshadow in the dark purple shade aka Arrogance. I got it. I love it. And it's definitely the one I wanted in my life.