Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.2%	[ 736 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 126 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.6%	[ 142 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.3%	[ 109 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.2%	[ 258 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.8%	[ 248 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.2%	[ 156 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	2.9%	[ 74 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	26.7%	[ 675 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2524 ]

[mewkittyy]

I wish I had someone to go to a Walk the Moon concert. Argh.

[Smoking Daffodils]

I just am so appalled right now
you STOLE my work
you STOLE IT
but I'm still the horrible person for banning you from my page for it?
you ******** piece of s**t
you flammed my pages and called me names, then regretted giving me a gift
you ******** a**, you NEVER gave me s**t!!!

how dare you lie and make me a bad person when you STOLE MY artwork
MINE
NOT YOURS

then you proceeded to call it better when you over edited it to a ******** shitty a** edit?
******** you
******** YOU

[ChipLizard]

I don't even know what I'm doing anymore.
I can't reach out, I'm not allowed.
I have to do this crap on my own.
I have no choice.

[BubbIeCat]

. . .
It's strange to understand that we've created a society in which we have to pay to live
I mean... If there was more faith and trust in people in general to do the right thing
Then we wouldn't have to rely on such silly methods of keeping track of our resources and demanding compensation
If we as species were able to be more compassionate and trustworthy
Think of what we could actually accomplish in life
It's frustrating to see that people get put down or get left behind
Just because they're unable to perform at the same level as others
It's upsetting to see people try their hardest and fall
When they really are good people and work hard to get somewhere
The complexity of creating a society that allows everyone to live freely without the bonds of money
Is too difficult to manage with such a large population and lack of reasons to trust humankind
:l :l :l :l :l :l

[Bunnycakie]

I would like to visit a zen garden in Atlanta, but I dunno..

[mewkittyy]

Had a good talk with Tod. He could tell I was on the verge of an anxiety attack. But he told me a story about his boss that made me laugh.

Feeling a little better. But now I have a family session with my Psychiatrist.

My brother wanted to play D3 tonight but I just don't have time.. he goes to bed too early.

[Hellodies]

Lucas took me away to Knoxville for the night and I stayed at the Lakehouse to cool down for the night
I broke down too hard and I broke the mirror in the guest bedroom where I slept before during my getaway there.
Sinners and Chops came in and I started screaming, crying, I kept trying to punch Chops really ******** hard, but Sinclair held me back. She was quite terrified.

- - -
About an hour or so after, I was forced to take my medications and sleep off for a bit.
Chops really wanted to check me into a mental clinic but I begged not to.

I don't want anymore medical assistance, psych. assistance, nothing.
I don't want anyone shoving down the fact that I'm getting highly unstable to be at ease in homes.
I get it. I ******** get it.

I just want it all to go away.

Last night, the nightmare came more quicker... and more visually detailed.

I did have to go to a small hospital clinic to clean away the cuts on my hands from the broken glass... which still right now really stings.

When I came out to the waiting room, I caught sight of Chops crying to Sinners about me. That I wasn't alright.

"She keeps thinking people will abandon her... Someone has to cut it straight for her that we're here for her."

I walked out of the clinic and back to the house before the two even caught up to me.

I kept checking my phone for any calls...
Nothing.

Lucas brought me home and said he'll call me when he gets back...
Hopefully he forgets.

I just.... feel really tired, sore, emotionally disruptive..
Chills keep coming down my spine.

I took some more dosages of Lithium to calm me down.
Psych. texted me earlier asking where I was, but I didn't answer.

Mother didn't even ask where I went and I hid the bandages from her...

- - - - - - - - - - -
Go away....
Get away....

please...

- - - - - - - - - - -
Semi-hiatus... I'm checking s**t in and out really...
And hoping he's on, but hoping he doesn't ask about my whereabouts.

I don't want to devastate him or anything... Unless he really wanted to know.

[Hellodies]

Choking in the hands of my own evil self...
or something....

but I can't take it...

- - - - - - - - -
One day they will say, "Just look at her now..."

[Bunnycakie]

These past two days have been crappy..

[Bunnycakie]

I'll...just wait for her to text me. I don't want to bother her.

[7447yup]

A new adventure.
I'm looking forward to this one.

Marriage, huh..
Who would've thought I'd be getting married?
I wonder if this is what cold feet feels like.