Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.2%	[ 741 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 126 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.6%	[ 142 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.3%	[ 110 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.2%	[ 259 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.8%	[ 249 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.1%	[ 156 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	2.9%	[ 74 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	26.8%	[ 680 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2537 ]

[Vingt cinq]

"Ever have that moment in a relationship when you realize that you've been wrong about something? For a long time? Could be the way you approach things or how you articulate or how you respond, doesn't matter.

It's a pretty awesome feeling because you feel compassion for the person you're with and want to make it up to them. Genuine remorse. Then the insecurity sets in when the reality of how much of a d**k you were being sets in. Then it's not so awesome."

Oh man. Ugh. And sometimes you've damaged things more or less beyond repair. You see it and what it's caused but how to fix it?

I suppose it is part of the path of becoming a better person for yourself and for the people in your life.

[iFern]

I think the only reason Noel and I were that close is because she seriously acted like we were together, minus anything sexual.

That was the first friendship I'd had with a girl, though, where I wasn't always terrified I was going to say something wrong and where I actually felt completely comfortable talking to them for once.

Before that, other girls were always like they were from separate worlds or something.

So I usually just avoided talking to them because when I did, things would end up horribly.

[electric guest]

handful oh some chips. and soda.

that is all for today.
unless she can get me subway.

[iFern]

I hate that I don't have someone to have my back now, though.

I still feel like everything's been so hard since I lost her.

I could have gone to her about anything and she would have given me advice without judging me or trying to make me do things her way.

And that's so hard to find. Everyone is so judgmental of everything I say or do, so I feel like there's no one I can go to that I can just talk to about anything.

It makes life so much more difficult than it needs to be.

[Whitewash Zooxanthellae]

This is an extremely hard thought to articulate the way I want to;

I think that I might not talk to so many women because I over-sexualize them.
The problem with this, though, is that I've been having sex since I was 3.
Not continuously, but that was the first time I'd had intercourse.
I saw a porno my mom was watching and imitated.
I think that getting introduced to sex at such an early age ruined my mindset.

Now, I'm not interested in sex at all. I mean, why should I be when I can pleasure myself the best? I do know what works best and I don't judge myself for my quirks.

I think this equates to not being interested in talking to women.
It's not that I don't see them as people, which I do, but... I just find myself generally not interested in striking up a conversation.

Almost every time I have I find myself and them not having anything interesting to say or discuss.
So I just kinda... gave up, I guess?

[BubbIeCat]

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I feel like I'm being dragged down
How I despise this feeling

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[THE DJ P0N-3]

lone_cat

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Dangerous thoughts
Provoke dangerous actions

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[THE DJ P0N-3]

Alyssa is trying to get me hooked into modelling

[ctrl zee]

breath in.
breath out.
forget.
feel better.
enjoy your time with him.

[Jayy_Roxx]

Ryan told me to make him a CD , sooo I did.
Man, I hope he catches on to the little hint behind the songs.

[at least its not oceans]

i hope that's me you are talking about.

i spent five hours thinking about sending you a valentines day card.
i even found the one i'd send and i know what i'd write in it.

[A Little Bit of Warmth]

THE DJ P0N-3

lone_cat

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Dangerous thoughts
Provoke dangerous actions

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[A Little Bit of Warmth]

I can only hope that one day you'll love me back.

[fattiest fat cat]

Rare meat is really dangerous. Please don't try and feed it to me.