Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.2%	[ 736 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 126 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.6%	[ 142 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.3%	[ 109 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.2%	[ 258 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.8%	[ 248 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.2%	[ 156 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	2.9%	[ 74 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	26.7%	[ 675 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2524 ]

[fattiest fat cat]

I wish people knew how to use ellipses. Or really just punctuation in general. I spend a lot of time editing pieces for young writers, and all of my complaints over their shoddy storytelling aside, the punctuation really makes me want to scream.

[a n a l a i g h]

Cutting costs. Goodbye, World of Warcraft.
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[STONED STONER CAT]

To go to a party, or to not go to a party.
That is the questioooooon...

[Captain Damnit]

calling to angels gets lonesome

when you don't believe they exist anyway.




I feel really ******** bad, I should probably sleep or something.
but I won't.

[Smaller Skies]

Okay I'm going to go back to admitting that i've never had a boyfriend in my entire life.
because I'm not counting my ex as an ex.
He even said he didn't take our relationship seriously.
So it wasn't a relationship.

Wow.
Wow.
Just wow.
Screw all of this.

[Smaller Skies]

I asked other people if I should call him my ex and they all said "No he doesn't count."

I pretty much agree.

What a waste of a month this was.

[Jayy_Roxx]

I sat in a parking lot for like two hours spilling my heart out to this really amazing guy.
Then we picked the brightest star in the sky and named it Tarzan, ha.
Pretty ******** magical.

[Bunnycakie]

Maybe you manipulating me was meant to happen. You were my first at everything which is why I was heavily affected by the aftermath. That's why I tried to get you back for half a year..I was never that happened before we were a couple. It was a grave mistake to try and get you back that soon, but hey...you lead me on very fast with the way you cuddle me up and sweet talk me into doing Sociology.

I am happy once again that I got rid of everything. All pictures and videos, gone. The blue panda you gave me as a bday gift and the blue teddy you got me for V-Day, gone. The others..the ones I bought for myself, gone. I'm just happy I ripped out of the strings.

[Bunnycakie]

I recall Kylie snapped at me when I always said ex instead of your user name or name. She did made me realize what mistake I was doing..you were a friend...well, not anymore. I'm glad she made me realize it.

[Hey-You-Sam]

My older sister came over today.
Eh, I don't like her.
She's so selfish and is a compulsive liar.
She only visited to have dad fix her laptop. :/
Yeah, don't worry about visiting your two younger sisters.
I mean, you have like 5 other younger sisters you hang out with anyway.
No time for us.
You don't even visit unless you need something (money is usually the answer.)
And people wonder why I never mention her.
Even my closest guy friends were like, 'You have an older sister??'
Yeah, I don't consider her a sister really.
She doesn't deserve that title.
We have nothing in common.

[Smaller Skies]

Dark Metamorphosis

Maybe you manipulating me was meant to happen. You were my first at everything which is why I was heavily affected by the aftermath. That's why I tried to get you back It was a grave mistake to try and get you back that soon, but hey...you lead me on very fast with the way you cuddle me up and sweet talk me.
.

[he who howls]

✖✖✖

It's not like I'm thinking about you or anything.

I came back after watching a movie and stuff.
Only to see that he had asked to talk.
And then I guess, left while I was away.
Didn't text me or try to reach me any other way.
He said before he left that it was too bad, he was excited to see me tomorrow.
Which, well. After earlier, I would think otherwise.
And...I just don't buy that he would be excited to see me.
********, I wouldn't be excited to see me.
And knowing ahead of time what sort of things I don't want to do with him, and knowing that not doing those things then ruins the time we have together when we hang out-
I already know it's better anyway that we don't hang out.
I already know. And so, even if by some miracle we made up tomorrow, we...
Would not be hanging out. That's just that.
I mean. I know when I wake up tomorrow I'll feel bad at first that it's my fault in some odd sense that we aren't hanging out.
But then I'll get over it. I'll spend my time on things I like, and he can do the same for himself.
He can clean his room, organize his stuff-do whatever the heck he wants, even.
But we aren't hanging out.
And if he gets pissy with me, which I'm hoping he doesn't, if we even talk, then...
I'll leave right then and there. And go play ******** creationary or whatever the ******** with my mom and Ian.
If I really have to. Or maybe we'll watch a movie again. That was alright.
But my point, I guess, is that I don't buy him saying that he was excited to see me.
And really, I'm not excited to see him.
I don't feel motivated to see him. I don't know why, but I'm just not feeling it.
Maybe it's what he said the other night or so.
I'm just not feeling it. We're almost at 1 year, and I'm suddenly not feeling it?
Hm. Concerning. I guess.
I mean, I already know what things are boring me, and what things aren't appealing and then, I wonder-
Does he really expect us to go on like this? Forever?
I don't want to be receiving raspberries, get tickled, or even keep having sex like this anymore.
It's so boring. And I'm not tempted to leave him or anything, but.
When these things get so boring I don't want to do them but I end up having to for him.
What about me? When do I get a say?
...
Anyway. I guess it's all just whatever.
I don't know how early I'm getting up tomorrow and doing all that, but.
Well. It doesn't matter. I don't have any plans for tomorrow except buying stuff at the mall.
Part of me, deep down, even though I sound like a b***h and kinda seem ungrateful or what have you-
I probably would like Trevor to fight for me. And try to have me come over tomorrow.
But, well. I know I won't give in to it. Why must I be so cruel, I wonder?
Anyway though.
This jerkface, right here, needs to get to bed.

Fine, maybe I was thinking about you just a little against my will.

✖✖✖

[spica dvir]

I want to start roleplaying again. my motivation for writing has been nearly nonexistent & I'd like to get out of this funk soon. but that would involve talking to people & trying to find a decent writer before my patience runs dry. there's also that awkward stage where you try & figure out what the plot is, but by the time we finally get to roleplaying I've either lost interest or motivation.

[Smaller Skies]

The sad thing is that if you were to come up to me and say "I can change, I'm sorry."
I would let you come back into my life.
But I doubt you even would anyway.
Which is for the best.

I don't miss you.
I miss what we had.
You were an a*****e to me, made me feel like crap.
The whole span of half a year of me being depressed.
It was all because of you.
This whole month of my stress and just..Feelings of being bipolar.
Were all you.
I wasted this month on you.
I shouldn't have let you back in my life.
I shouldn't have got you to ask me out.
And when I broke up with you the first time, I should have not even asked you out the second.