Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.2%	[ 743 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 127 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.6%	[ 142 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.3%	[ 110 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.2%	[ 260 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.8%	[ 249 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.1%	[ 156 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	2.9%	[ 75 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	26.8%	[ 681 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2543 ]

[Ashes of the Phoenix]

So I feel like I spend hours packing & picking out my clothes
Especially what I wear on Fridays, how I`ll do my hair...
I always try to look so nice for you.
And I feel like you just don`t give a s**t.
You don`t shower, you don`t shave.
I get up early to shower, do my hair,
Bring extra clothes to work so I can change.
Check myself 100x, put make up on...

I wish just you gave a s**t
Or at least acknowledged how much work I put into looking nice
All for YOU.

[Ashes of the Phoenix]

Syrenu

I'm tired of sleepless nights.

I'm tired of nights spent alone.

I'm tired of being scared to close my eyes because I don't want to dream about the inevitable.

I'm tired of crying behind his back.

I'm tired of being treated like expendable crap.

I'm tired of hurting like this, of feeling like my heart's being ripped right out of my chest.

I'm tired of everything.


And it's only going to get worse.



I just want a break, please... I don't want him to go. I don't want to be alone again. Please don't take away the one thing that's keeping me from falling back into that bottomless hole I was drowning in.

[Captain Damnit]

calling to angels gets lonesome

when you don't believe they exist anyway.




I'm just angry at the world because of gender boxes.
no one will ever see me as I want them to, honestly.

[Rest your bones]

Oh Persephone!
I still
remember
your phantom
embraces.

I shake
shakeshakeshake
from your
freezinghot
fingers.

Oh Persephone!
Won't you
come
back
home?

Please.



I'm so silly, darling. I could only ever imitate the honesty of words. I want so badly to rewind the tape. I want to fix the fissures these burnt hands of mine have caused. You, and you, and especially you.

In someone else's bed, are you finally resting well? I am driving further into the end, as always. Not every scar passes with the the tick-tock of a grandfather clock.

I remember you all. I will until I draw my last. I will remember you even as I pass from any measure of your memories.

You and you and you. Everything in threes.

[electric guest]

i understand that people have different schedules.
but you don't need to bang on your walls and counters at 4am.
you already get up at 3am EVERY DAY and clod around like you have lead feet.

********.

[Rest your bones]

Abandon your cruelty.
Abandon your cruelty.
Abandon your cruelty.

Oh ********.

"I love you and look at what I've done to you."

[Captain Damnit]

calling to angels gets lonesome

when you don't believe they exist anyway.




I don't have class until Monday.
I think I won't sleep 'til I'm tired.

[Naterbee]

Hmm, I don't think I'll change Aaliyah I think I'll just put her in the sleeping bag thing, it's better then getting her nude in this cold and have her wake up too much to sleep properly after her feed.

[electric guest]

i wish i could find a decent paying job that wouldn't mind me coloring my hair weird colors, and getting tattoo's on my arms and chest.

shouldn't complain. i make a decent wage, enough to live. i have medical and i only pay 4 dollars a paycheck, and dental. if only i could get BACK to work. so tired of laying around.

i just really /really/ want bright red hair. and dermals on the outside of my eyes. dunno what that's called.

[Jorheim]

I've spent the better part of a month doing nothing. Jobless, loveless, and moneyless makes it hard for me to really appreciate life. Cause really, when you've got nothing but free-time, it really just sucks. I can play a game that I've played through and through, I can bother friends at work, or just watch videos online that lose their humour after a while.

Bah.

Hopefully this weekend will be fun. I need to get out.

[Captain Damnit]

calling to angels gets lonesome

when you don't believe they exist anyway.




yeah, gonna go sleep for half a day now.

[Captain Damnit]

Jorheim

Jobless, loveless, and moneyless makes it hard for me to really appreciate life. Cause really, when you've got nothing but free-time, it really just sucks.

[Exanimus Aranea]

Captain Damnit

Jorheim

Jobless, loveless, and moneyless makes it hard for me to really appreciate life. Cause really, when you've got nothing but free-time, it really just sucks.

[poisonxwine]

So I get yelled at for feeling like s**t and told I'm being selfish when I was the one left out of everyone's plans. No one thought I'd like to go to the movies too? Oh but wait I need to make "sacrifices" even though T and my dad don't do s**t. They've known for a fact how stressed out I've been but nobody thinks about me.
But no I'M being selfish. What bullshit. I hate this.
And I try to talk to mom and she just ******** walks off. Brilliant. Now that I'm a mom I hope I'm not gonna be so shitty to my kids.
No ******** that, I KNOW I won't be that shitty to my kids.

[` B e l o v e d]

I love black metal too much for my own good.

Hnnng. I must find the Death Cult Armageddon CD somewhere in this ******** state, today, and only today. I need it playing in my car.

Today. $300 in my checking account that I don't even need to use for bills because they are already paid and $600 coming my way via federal return. ******** yes. I think it's time for me to get my metal on. Perhaps shop around?