Dirty Little Secrets [ 12/8/2012 ]

So you feel entitled to a sense of control

And make decisions that you think are your own	15.3%	[ 44 ]
You are a stanger here	12.9%	[ 37 ]
Why have you come, why have you come?	6.6%	[ 19 ]
Lift me higher	13.2%	[ 38 ]
Let me look at the sun, look at the sun	7.3%	[ 21 ]
And once I hear them clearly say,	2.8%	[ 8 ]
Who are you really?	41.8%	[ 120 ]
Total Votes:			[ 287 ]

[katy jo]

Whitewash Zooxanthellae

I can't help but think how meaningless it all is.
Anything. Everything.
One day I will die and my name will be erased forever from the relevance of history.
No one will remember me.
But that gives me the excuse to do whatever the ******** I want no matter how terrible it is. 4laugh
None of my great-great-great-great relatives will say, "Hey, remember that one guy Josh Cisco? He was kinda smart and he took a bunch of drugs."

No one will remember me for being kinda cute, kinda smart, kinda open-minded, kinda revolutionary, kinda a hippie.
And that scares me. That scares me to my very core and wants me to just end it all now.

[i l l u s t r i a n]

Why do I want someone so badly? Why am
I being so... desperate? e_ e;

[Prince Lazy]

That would make me so unbelievably happy if you asked for things from me.
That would make me feel needed and wanted and...
Well. It would be soooooo nice~ c:

[melodear]

Part of me wonders why I'm trying to get back into Gaia.
Most times, I don't particularly want to talk to people. I mean, I care about people that I know well. But trying to make friends with strangers is difficult and ultimately meaningless, I guess?

Ahhh I'm so conflicted. ;_;

[Mass Producing Hate]

I wanted to say,
You shouldn't suffer this way

I really REALLY hope that my social anxiety does not get set off at the midnight launch tonight, I am going by myself so it probably ******** hell.

I wanted to say,
I hope I can take it away.

[Prince Lazy]

Am I overwhelming yet?
sweatdrop

[TWINxxROVA]

I want to go home.
I want my kisses.
and hugs.
I want to feel his fingers wrapped in mine again.
I want to drive around town, listening to our favorite songs, him singing along loudly and terribly.
But its still fantastic.
The fact that he even sings; And he sings to me.

[Dirty Dishwater]

It was rattling and just... emotion_facepalm

[Whitewash Zooxanthellae]

I know it's silly, but I just want someone to really love on.
I've never had anyone that I really just fell for.

Well, in my local area, that is.


...Katie and Angelica were two very nice women who laughed at all my drunken jokes.
They were so gullible; I loved it.

I want to see them again.
& not get caught by the police the next time!

[Mass Producing Hate]

I wanted to say,
You shouldn't suffer this way

Holy crap forgot about the Birthday Massacre and namely this song, I love the synths in it, no clue on the lyrics though, never really paid attention to em.

I wanted to say,
I hope I can take it away.

[TWINxxROVA]

The truth is, I don't want this stupid distance to be the reason we break up.
I'm so ******** sick of distance between me and and the people i care about.
It just ******** everything up.
I want this to last.
I really feel good about him.
And my parents love him.
it feels right.

[katy jo]

Every once in a while I wanna get ******** up.
I want to live in the clouds.

But you hold me down.

And I can't even tell if it's a good or bad thing.

~

It's kool. I was only looking forward to hanging out with you.
I'll find someone else to talk to.
Hopefully.

[puella stellarum]

for those of you lovely people who remember me, i really just want to share some updates because i missed the crap out of you guys.

i've been gone for over a year, maybe two?
i'm graduating high school in thirteen days, going to college to study secondary education with an emphasis in english or speech.
maybe you remember me as the stupid little girl who chose that "xanthe b***h" over tryne/mikhail/janelle.
xanthe is still tormenting me. however, she's going off to college to follow another girl that she's "in love with." i hope to never see her again.
i haven't really been on the dating scene much.
i'm no longer in contact with tryne/mikhail/janelle for whatever reason. i followed her on tumblr but she deleted her blog and i don't believe she follows me. i haven't talked to her in months.

after over three years, i find myself still as in love with her as i was from day one. i'm moving on for my own sake, but part of me still hopes that we'll reconnect.

i haven't talked to any of you in forever, but please update me on what people are still here and what people have moved to different forums or out of gaia altogether? fajskdlfl i feel like i lost a family, it's a terrible feeling.
with the end of high school, i'm trying to make myself the best i can be. it starts with rekindling old friendships.

[Whitewash Zooxanthellae]

I want someone to hold me.

[TWINxxROVA]

I remember that Josh Cisco guy. c:
I also remember when he wanted me to call him Zeke.