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ohGodohGodohGod.
He just invited me over.
I can't breathe, I can't think.
Why can't he see that I still really like him?
We dated in the past. We broke up, we didn't last.
Yet, I still think he's the most amazing guy I know irl.
Sure, he's not going to understand my lifestyle. [I like being humiliated, degraded, shown my place.] I know he likes another girl, but they've been off and on for the last year.
This kid is breathtaking, amazing, he elicits such a hearthrob from the deep, dark recesses of my heart.
He's an alcoholic. A high-school drop-out.
Just as I used to be.
I'm scared of what he'll think.
I'm fat, I'm ugly. He's too good for me. I know I'm the most plain, most disgusting girl out of us all.
So why does anyone still bother?
I know she'll comment on this. She always has such nice things to say.
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