It's ok Kita.
I don't exactly know 100% about your situation, I've never been honestly that bad..
However. In my family, the female side at least on my mothers side razz
We hallucinate a lot. No drugs needed, but we hallucinate and it cant be stopped, we just grow out of it. But my case seems to have been the worst. I see, hear, feel, and smell sometimes, people who try kill themselves. When I was little i saw cartoon spiders, and aliens. It wasn't realistic.
But once I hit 14 I saw more realistic humans and aliens too. I don't see bugs anymore. But you'd imagine the shock xd
Worst case I had which got me bed ridden and just looked at like a mental patient. Was at school when I blinked once and I saw I was surrounded by aliens and they were tearing at people. The people were climbing around me into a mound and pulling at me. I was in class screaming.
Thing is, I'm always wide awake when it happens. biggrin I did a bit of research and its mental/emotional exhaustion. Basically stress and my brain is overloaded and it cant vent/release the stress out in anyway.
But I've gotten used to a few hallucinations since i turned 14. I talk to them now for the kicks. It's quite funny. But makes me think of the Medium, where they need my help razz
But enough of me. I hope you get better Kita.