Meareign
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- Posted: Sun, 01 Mar 2015 19:34:21 +0000
"Are you unwell?" Orinda asked, reflexively lifting a hand into the air where he might have broken her collapse.
“I-I'm fine.” Maybe it was the Pandora box of new possibilities being opened or being underdressed for too long. It was getting a little chilly after all but Aurelia had her money on 'missed breakfast' and maybe a little on being overwhelmed. Not a good combination apparently. “See. I'm fine.” Aurelia stood up a tad slower this time round just to prove her point before sitting back down and Orinda withdrew his arm. “It's just my body protesting about missing a meal.” First she was too busy, then too angry, then a little preoccupied with teasing Marvelle, and finally, too disgusted (still is) to eat. Just the thought about food was enough to make her feel nauseated but her body thought otherwise. “Plus, to think that all of this could have been avoided.” Aurelia let out a small laugh.
There seemed to be subtext to the words Aurelia chose, and Orinda took note of them. It wasn't the first time she had said something docile while ultimately betraying her distaste for their arrangement. It was understandable for her to have such feelings, given the circumstances, but he was also regaining the feeling that an elephant was in the room. "Aurelia. Do I repulse you?"
“… No. Not really.” At least not now “There’s just so much,” Aurelia tried to find the words. “You won’t need to put your enemy on the throne and I get to home when this ends. You… could be happy right now with someone you love and I…” In all honesty, who wouldn’t want a happy marriage? Aurelia always thought she would marry someone she loved or at least like. “I could be too.”
"Maybe," he said slowly. "Maybe I would be resting happily in a sitting room with my family, discussing our next political move with Caelum. Or perhaps I would be standing in the torrential rain, watching the funeral of my beloved, who died in an explosion set in Pyrandon by your brother's forces, killing hundreds. Or perhaps you would be here, married to Prince Zephyriah. Or listening to an announcement revealing the death of Princess Marvelle, who was taken by an enemy assassin in the night because the treatsy we tried to form was too unsteady... Or you could be cuddled up to your brother, sharing cool tea and talking about what he found in the caves yesterday evening, finally relaxing in the knowledge that an agreeable peace was finally settled three days hence. Maybe."
“Maybe you’re right. Worst things could happen but to think that there was another path I could have gone down…” Aurelia looked away. “I guess I’m just selfish then.” Sometimes, Aurelia wanted to go back to being a child, only worrying about missing the changing of shifts which would prevented her from sneaking home in time for dinner. “Tell me, if you had the chance to do it over and deaths of loved ones wasn’t going to happen, would you choose differently?”
"If I had the choice to stay in this reality or go back to a world where I was guaranteed to see no more unnatural deaths in my family or to my subjects at the hands of war, guaranteed to witness a successful call to peace, would I go back? Yes, I would go back without hesitation. I can't imagine turning my back on that kind of contract."
“That’s a lot of criteria you have.” Granted, they were all valid but Aurelia was expecting more of a yes or no reply. “And look, we found something we both can agree on.”
"I do think babies are cute."
Now that she wasn’t caught up in the memory of her mother, that line seemed to have another meaning and it was terrifying. A King needs heirs and he obviously didn’t have a problem doing the other fourteen women he didn’t love. What if he needed one… now? “Oh y-yes. Guess that’s… uh, something else we, uh, agreed on...” If there wasn’t anyone around, Aurelia would probably be whimpering in a corner. It wasn’t who she might have to sleep with that scared her but more of feeling far too young, too inexperienced, to raise actual human beings. “D-do you uh,” Running a hand through her hair, Aurelia looked around the room, suddenly finding the ground very intriguing. “Need… babies?”
He raised brows at her. "Is that genuinely something you would like to discuss now?"
“No,” Aurelia never, ever wanted to discuss it but if it means that her imagination wouldn’t run wild… “B-but since we are on the, uhm, topic, why not.”
"As you like," he conceded, allowing her the decision despite a suspicion that she was not prepared for it. It was a suspicion probably rooted in the fact that she had just said so herself. "Yes, I do feel as though I need at least one heir," preferrably more, given the mortality rates of offspring, "for the sake of the throne. I admit that I don't feel it can be put off for as long as I might otherwise like, because succession arrangements are complicated now that both of my siblings are inheriting thrones of their own. With that said, 'soon' does not mean 'now.'"
At least one. Aurelia wasn’t sure if she could do ‘half’ if, that was even possible. “That’s,” A relief? Not really. “Good to know…”
"Certainly. You may want to dress," Orinda suggested.
“Oh yes.” Aurelia muttered, getting on her feet. One step, that was all it took for her towel to untuck itself, falling onto the floor like an autumn leaf. Too shock to react, Aurelia stood dumbfounded for a moment which felt like years before clearing her throat. “Excuse me.” Picking up the towel, Aurelia walked away as calmly as possible, but not before a timely, "Oh. Wow," on Orinda's part. Disappearing behind the folding screen, she strangled the piece of cloth and screamed internally. [********]