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xxxxxCastel stayed in place a moment, letting her sadness wash over her. It wasn't until she heard heavy footsteps exit the area that she broke out of her moment to gaze behind her. Caspian had left and obviously gone a different direction than the one she was going, which was a quicker route back toward the group of packs. Her half-raised tail completely fell against her legs while her ears laid against her head. A heaviness found its way onto her back. Her words had meant to play with him, to get him to chase her. She hadn't meant for her snap at his face to end up as a fight, it was more play for her. Castel had always played rough... but then Caspian wouldn't know that. He didn't know her before her mate Godric. He knew the fae that was searching for a male out in the wild. Caspian never really got the chance to see her interact in her prime. She remembered his growl that he returned to her and even though hers was menacing, it was more meant as a playful way to put him in his place. But Caspian wouldn't know. Caspian didn't know her. All he knew was her anger and all she obviously did was confuse him and drive him away. As she allowed her body to turn around, facing the direction he had once stood in, and let out a deep sigh. Maybe chasing him off like this was the best idea, that way she couldn't hurt him any further. But yet, how long had it been since he'd entered back into her life? And each day, it seemed that her actions toward him got worse and worse. If Castel wasn't so proud, she might have felt the urge to cry, for her heart ached enough to make her want to. Honestly, she didn't know what to do. If she suddenly changed herself for the male, then what kind of justice was she doing to herself? She would just make it look as if everything was fine.
xxxxx"I'm sorry Caspian..." she whispered, knowing that no one was around to hear her. "I'm sorry for things that you don't even know about... and I'm sorry Godric... I'm sure that since you're dead that you know everything... and I hope that you can forgive me... I'm so so sorry..." Casting her gaze up near the tree tops, she could see the sun trying to peak through them, lighting up different spots along the forest floor. It was a very serene place, and the silence it lent was almost deafening. A few birds chirped high up in the canopy, but Castel didn't lend them any mind. Once again her stomach rumbled. At least it was something to get her mind off her terrible actions. Her mouth slightly watered as thoughts of different birds, rodents, even deer crossed her mind. She wondered if the hunters were out trying to gather food, or if anyone had thought of that recently. Letting out another sigh, she finally started forward in the direction back toward the packs. She didn't know where Caspian had gone, and honestly she didn't care. After how he obviously reacted to her, she knew that he didn't care to see them. Instead, she let her ears guide her through the forest, soon coming near the sound of rushing water. There was a river around here, but thankfully a beaver had given her a small bridge with which to cross it. She knew this part of the river well, and had crossed this beaver dam many times in her life. It didn't phase her. It was always sturdy and it was what separated the raging part of the river of the west from that of the east. Getting to the other side, she turned her head, trying to see if Caspian was around, but thankfully he wasn't. Instead, other pack members that she wasn't familiar with were here. She lifted her head to a white wolf, (Avalon) speaking with a grey wolf, (Verue). Across the meadow she spied a black wolf(Icepaw) laying atop a large stone. Then more scents hit her from within the meadow and along the tree line. The meadow was very tall, so it was understood that wolves might be in it that she couldn't see.
xxxxxNone of this really seemed of interest to her. So instead, she stalked her way through the tall grass of the meadow, out until the stalks towered over her head. Here, she laid down, soon rolling upon her back so that her belly greeted the sunlight. Her pumpkin-spiced eyes watched the clouds as they passed across the sun in a strange organic pattern overhead. Different images came to mind as she picked out what the clouds looked like, but in all, they were just clouds in her head. Castel wasn't the most creative of wolves and sometimes even had a hard time figuring out a fighting pattern in her head. Her own pattern was more of a chaotic one. Whenever she fought, she was normally the smaller one in the scuffle, so she had learned to be unpredictable, to come up with moves that would startle even a seasoned warrior. Sometimes she had practiced with Caspian, but in the end it just wound up into something that hurt his feelings. Caspian... the black brute came back to mind as she stayed upon her back. How she wished to apologize to him. Sometimes she even longed to just admit everything to him, to come clean that way she'd finally have someone to lean on, someone to trust. But all in all, Castel was very alone. She'd always been alone, with Godric she felt alone, even before him. Funny how whenever their pup, Leo came along that Godric ended up spending more time with him than with her, but yet still held so much pride for his little family. .... But that family was a lie... Castel closed her eyes. It seemed that now-a-days she couldn't have a nice memory for the world.
Location: Middle of the Meadow in some tall grass
Company: Alone (many other wolves are in the surrounding area.
Wordcount: 1103
OOC: Awww... poor Caspian... Castel is just a bipolar butthead letting a dark secret eat her alive, lol. But I'm digging this thing going on between them =)