it's dead. get over it.

Sitting in this room, playing Russian Roulette

Finger on the trigger	38.5%	[ 5 ]
to my dear Juliette	38.5%	[ 5 ]
Out from the window,	0.0%	[ 0 ]
see her back-drop silouette	0.0%	[ 0 ]
this blood on my hands is something I cannot forget	23.1%	[ 3 ]
Total Votes:			[ 13 ]

[Katzenstreu Gesicht]

I'm afraid I have to agree with Puppy. >>; Albeit, I hope it won't be taken in too much context, and as merely something said on the spur of the moment.
Point is, I don't like fighting. Especially among us.

Honestly, I don't like the fact this roleplay's closing. In a weird, cheesey way.. well, it kinda brought us together. And hell, all of you involved pushed the writer inside me to be better and challenge myself. And I know I got better, as egotistic as that may sound.
I got close to you all, too. Maybe some of us thought of each other as pseudo family, or even just the best friends money couldn't even buy.

The only thing I really, truly disagree with here and can't sit quietly on is someone saying we're obessesing. K-Pup, I swear this isn't meant at you. I just want to clear it up in general:

The reason we felt abandoned? On some level, I guess it was because we didn't know what was up with Snuff, like, if she was okay or anything. Granted, looking at it now, I can't say it's her fault. But that's what friends do, we worry.
And we misunderstand sometimes.

********, I know it's hard to forgive and that this is turning into a bloodbath/drama, but dammit.
I love you guys. As friends, as siblings I've never had and so forth. If you don't return the sentiment, I understand. I won't push it on you.

Snuff, even if I've never gone through what you're going through, I try to understand.
And I still wanna talk to you, and be your friend. I don't want to shun you, or anything stupid like that. Just... drop me an IM when you want to chat, or anything.
I never lied when I said I missed you.

Again, my point is I don't want us to end up hating each other or s**t.

-Sighs- ...I guess I should shut up, now.

[iMoony]

Okay, after reading Snuff's, Ze's, Nine's, and K-pup's posts I wanted to post my own response.
Then I looked on the next page and found that Kitty basically said everything I wanted to.

But my hands were shaking and I knew that meant I had to speak...

So, yeah, I might be repeating some of what Kitty said, but I'll try to add my own.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Snuff- I've been a bit guilty of ditching you all myself.
I've been running over to the "Breedable/Changeable Pets" side of gaia and had enjoyed myself.
But I still had all of you in my heart.
Cause, yeah, I started to see you guys as my online family.
Because you all were there when I moved and were eager to see me back on.
I had you guys to rant to when I felt down
or to simply converse with so I didn't feel completly alone.

Remember, I moved from where I was making real friends?
I had to start my life over.
If I didn't have a rock other than my real family....
I don't know if I would have stayed the same me.

I'm sorry that we misenterprated (sp) your lack of communication.
The only reason I got confused/saddened by it was because
I saw you were so active over in Rusted.
I wondered if maybe you were tired of this RP.
If you were, closing it with a simple 'Sorry guys, but I'm closing. I lack the enthusiasm now.'
would have felt a whole lot better than wondering if we offended you
or were simply placed on the 'I'll get to it =^=" list.

And while I can never understand the chaos/issues you have to go through
with your tribe and America's goverment, I was always willing to listen.
I may not have been able to give you any real help,
but I feel that sometimes a good rant is needed. ^w^

I'm glad to see that you still see me as a friend
and I look forward to the ever present possiblity
of stumbling across the same RP as you again.
Cause with such few good ones around, it's bound to happen.

Till the time that you want to talk to me again
( cause I won't be making the first move out of not knowing what to say)
I wish you luck with your real life and Rusted in the Rain.
May you have fun and strength in everything you do.

~~~~~~~

So, yeah, good bye to those I might never talk to again.
I hope that it wasn't all chore for you guys to hang with me.
That there are fond things about this RP (Both IC and OOC)
to look back on later in life....

And maybe it was my constant saying of "this could actually last! 8D"
that cursed the thread to this disasterous end...
Who knows.

I just want everyone to know that you guys were my first 'online only' friends.
I was amazed at how welcomed you all made me feel.
Never once did I question how much I was cared for by you guys.
Maybe I deceived myself,
but sometimes a little self-blindness helps us get through our lives.

I also hope it wasn't my posts that would be considered "failure"
because I know I sometimes lacked the same level you all had.
Maybe, someday, I'll get there and can call myself "Ad. Lit"
Till then, I don't plan on giving up RP. I'll just need to find challenges.

I wish everyone luck with whatever they do with themselves
and hold up the ever present "Invite me to whatever!" sign.
I'd still love to RP with any of you, anywhere, if you still want me.

( It's going to feel weird not having CotGo anymore.... )