I still don't know what I want to be for Halloween...I'm thinking about a murdered bride (but maybe I just want to put a pretty dress on and then cover it in blood).
I've worked for a good 5 years to get the control that I have. 'Course it was a problem when I went off the deep end and didn't show any emotions at all and there were many many days when I'd get home from school and realized that I couldnt' quite remember how to smile. Of course having control on the outside meant that I had lost all of my control on the inside and that's when I started caving and sliding towards the suicide thing...but I'm better balanced now. I only have two close friends, Blondie and my ex...one keeps me sane and the other keeps me alive, so I have what I need.